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The Reckless Years
I'd like to share an excerpt from Too Old to be a Hooker...Too Young to be a Madam. I think it reveals a side of Hollywood in the '60s and '70s, exploring the decadence and eroticism of the time:
Whenever I have to choose between two evils, I always like to try the one I haven’t tried before.
- Mae West
How would I describe my life? It was a tapestry/potpourri woven out of my darkest dreams and fantasies, an adventure as theatrical as a Fellini film. Exploited sexual orgies and seduction, never knowing what I was going to experience next. We were like The Big Chill on acid. Another thrill. Nothing lasted. Between the decadence and desperation, I was still searching for the traces of my life. I drifted with the drifters. Beautiful men without ambition or souls. Starving out-of-work actors and poets, losing the will to commit.
I was distanced from the terror of my own feelings and the realization of the purity that I had long lost forever. Then I met Patrick, my soul-mate, and I still couldn't commit, my mood swings shifting often in lustful longing or regret. The new becoming more important than the why and then. I was always redefining the dynamics of what I wanted with detachment for what I could be caught in. A trap, wanting to escape from my own self-inflicted reality, exploring and embracing my darker self. My parties in the Canyon made me a Hollywood legend. It certainly wasn't my acting, although I had a good act.
Whenever I have to choose between two evils, I always like to try the one I haven’t tried before.
- Mae West
How would I describe my life? It was a tapestry/potpourri woven out of my darkest dreams and fantasies, an adventure as theatrical as a Fellini film. Exploited sexual orgies and seduction, never knowing what I was going to experience next. We were like The Big Chill on acid. Another thrill. Nothing lasted. Between the decadence and desperation, I was still searching for the traces of my life. I drifted with the drifters. Beautiful men without ambition or souls. Starving out-of-work actors and poets, losing the will to commit.
I was distanced from the terror of my own feelings and the realization of the purity that I had long lost forever. Then I met Patrick, my soul-mate, and I still couldn't commit, my mood swings shifting often in lustful longing or regret. The new becoming more important than the why and then. I was always redefining the dynamics of what I wanted with detachment for what I could be caught in. A trap, wanting to escape from my own self-inflicted reality, exploring and embracing my darker self. My parties in the Canyon made me a Hollywood legend. It certainly wasn't my acting, although I had a good act.
SOPHISTICATED LADY
Posting a few snippets of chapters from my novel to let you all get a taste!
Cheers!
Elissa
Too Old to be a Hooker...Too Young to be a Madam
Elissa Eaton
SOPHISTICATED LADY
Her body had flown like a powerful bird through and above the entangling branches of the past few years. But her face now exhibited the record of the flight.
Tennessee Williams
I know I'm not a girl anymore. But at least now I know my own limitations and I’ve learned to accept my losses and failures as a part of being human, without feeling as much of the guilt. And I still have my dream, a cat sanctuary in Spain. So I pick myself up again and say -- Come on, you can do it. Be somebody, no more strange people or places. I can’t go back and be used even for the sake of passion. I can only give what I have to give. So I weave my rice gardens in the rain. No wonder I drank so much champagne. Existing in this strange borrowed gift called life. Planting it, workin’ it, growin’ it. I haven't been totally corrupted, there's hope, isn’t there? And I guess there’ll always be those days when the night stretches into disaster.
It's just part of being human. For too long had I tried being what all men wanted me to be. At least now I can stand on my own, destination survival. Perhaps one day I can even fall out of step with one man and into grace with another. It's not fun being alone.
‘Too Old to be a Hooker...Too Young to be a Madam’ is available at the following
Los Angeles Bookstores:
Barnes & Noble The Grove, Barnes & Noble Third Street Promenade, Barnes & Noble Bookstar Studio City, Book Soup, Skylight Books, Vroman’s, The Canyon Country Store, amazon.com, Kindle and other online retailers.
Too Old to be a Hooker Too Young to be a Madam
Cheers!
Elissa
Too Old to be a Hooker...Too Young to be a Madam
Elissa Eaton
SOPHISTICATED LADY
Her body had flown like a powerful bird through and above the entangling branches of the past few years. But her face now exhibited the record of the flight.
Tennessee Williams
I know I'm not a girl anymore. But at least now I know my own limitations and I’ve learned to accept my losses and failures as a part of being human, without feeling as much of the guilt. And I still have my dream, a cat sanctuary in Spain. So I pick myself up again and say -- Come on, you can do it. Be somebody, no more strange people or places. I can’t go back and be used even for the sake of passion. I can only give what I have to give. So I weave my rice gardens in the rain. No wonder I drank so much champagne. Existing in this strange borrowed gift called life. Planting it, workin’ it, growin’ it. I haven't been totally corrupted, there's hope, isn’t there? And I guess there’ll always be those days when the night stretches into disaster.
It's just part of being human. For too long had I tried being what all men wanted me to be. At least now I can stand on my own, destination survival. Perhaps one day I can even fall out of step with one man and into grace with another. It's not fun being alone.
‘Too Old to be a Hooker...Too Young to be a Madam’ is available at the following
Los Angeles Bookstores:
Barnes & Noble The Grove, Barnes & Noble Third Street Promenade, Barnes & Noble Bookstar Studio City, Book Soup, Skylight Books, Vroman’s, The Canyon Country Store, amazon.com, Kindle and other online retailers.
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