Leticie L. Ryan's Blog

 For a while I have found myself dealing with issues I have already over came. What a headache, backache and all the other aches. I found myself slowly each month forgetting more and more about who I am in Christ. Its one thing to stress but it's another ball game when we forget what God can do and what he has already done for us. Have you noticed the devil uses the people dear and close to us to do his work? you try to live and keep your mind stable and in seconds the devil comes in and have that one person send you back in to a funk you just tried to escape.  Then here comes the money issues and the car problems and the house problems. Yes, you also have the babies running around and you screaming at them and they have no clue as to why mama or daddy is screaming. They don't understand the battles you are facing mentally they don't see the climb you are trying to make to get to the mountain just so you can see the slightest ray of sun. The devil works hard when you are so close to relief. The hardest hits goes to your mind because he knows he can get your mind off guard he has a way in to your spirit once he hits the spirit he thinks he can do damage. Hey! but we know better! The devil can only throw us off our game for so long before God brings us right back on track as if we never left. God reminds us that he is the almighty able to reconstruct the damage we do to ourselves each and every time.  For months I been wanting to seek him like I have always done but my flesh...... but God loves his children and he knows we know his voice and his heart. I love me some God babe!. because just when I felt like I have hit rock bottom mentally he swirls so deep into my spirit and he sends the right people to talk you right back up to a position as if you never felt low. Amen. God has tested and tried me and every time I get back up and I challenge myself to go deeper. Well last night I went into my prayer close and I went deep and you know what he told me something.God Said "He wants it all" God knew why I was coming to see him and he was already willing with his arms wide ready to receive All my aches. He asked me to give them to him and   I was glad I said yes lord!

Now, God has told you to stop gossiping, stop complaining, and stop being messy! (in my Mr. Brown voice). What now? well, now here comes the chatter! people around you gossiping, wanting to know what you heard about Sallie mae, think about him and her people even bad mouthing you right to your face. Jesus where are you... holy spirit handle this! your mind racing and wondering  and on the very tip of your tongue is the exact thing God just told you not to say. How hard is it not to speak and be obedient? For most almost impossible but guess what.... this is a test. The Big Test right before God's promotion. I used "God's promotion" because his promotes are the best. They don't come with schemes but this is how God see's if he can trust you to be silent, if he can trust to promote you.

God is showing me there is "power in silents". I don't have to have the last word. I don't have to get upset with Tom, dick and hairy because they have something to say. I don't have to prove my case as to why or what. I'm so happy when God reveals to me my own heart. When he does it's better for me and the people I'm called to cross paths with.  Power is not about who can beat who up and who was cussing the most and blah, blah, blah. Power is when people vandalize your name  but at night you are able to ask God to forgive them and pray for their well being. Power is being able to control your tongue and bless those who hurt you. Yes lord! it is easier said than done but the reward is great! when God  steps in and do the talking for you Mountains move, things unfold, Blessings Rain down!!! God turn's things around. All the way!!! I'm not saying you have to be fake when people are around but don't get your spirit into a unnecessary storm because other spirits who are hurting haven't developed into what God has called them to be. Love them from a distances and keep your mouth closed. As I am told over and over by my mentor and husband "Get out your feelings" The lord still working on me ;-) What was the last thing you said to somebody? would it have been hurtful to you? Repent and say sorry. God wants vessels to speak with his heart how can you be a vessel for the lord and your mouth is out of control. like I said he is working on ME!

I often find myself amazed on how far my thinking level has evolved. God has thought me not to place limits on him or place him in a box. I'm sure I have probably  made this statement a few times. When you allow people to sell you short of yourself then you become unable to be used by God the way he intended on you to be used. I found myself excited and prepared when I wrote and released Adaya shortly after questioning myself as well as God. I knew I was going to have people questioning my choice of writing but I didn't know I was going to find myself pausing on a gift  gave to me, but I'm back and I understand the depths of why God wanted me to write a story so intense and why he wanted me to deliver the way I did. Adaya is not for a religious mind set she was wrote for the little girl lost by the wayside or the woman that's battling a child hood issue that was never healed. Yesterday I was on periscope as well as today and this man of God moved me back into a position God never intended for me to have been moved from but doubt can sneak in and steal amen! If we allow.

Everyone won't understand your story or mines but God has his way of making sure our stories touches the lives who needs it the most. I pray that every gift and talent the lord has provided searches out into the world and help heal those who needs to be healed and saved. I encourage each and everyone of you to keep thriving because God is ready to broadcast your talents and share those outstanding testimonies just stay encouraged a little while longer. He won't pass you by. When this man of God on periscope said " Jesus didn't come for the righteous, he sat with the sinners'" then the light went off and awwwww God okay I understand now lol I thought to myself. When I was writing Adaya I knew the place in my heart In which I was writing from. The people who are really saved, really saved and not just dancing for show they don't need my work, but that lady sitting in the house rocking herself to sleep every night, she needs to know forgiveness and healing is still available and there are people who lived thru her situation and has been set free. So I cant get upset with someone who frowns their face up when they don't understand why I write the way that I do. 

There is a difference don't get me wrong you have some people who are influenced by demons and their Goals are to .... whatever the demons wants from their soul....... but I wrote and will continue to write to bring you into a place of knowing your childhood was not your ending. We can all pretend we have everything together but if we did we wouldn't need Jesus. Let that sink in! People we have a lot of adults and children walking around hurting!!!! we are not the ones to force them into behaving or accepting something that is not in Gods timing or will. The best way to Reach is to teach by example first. You will be surprised at who's watching you. Be blessed

Wow, so many people today are looking for that one opportunity, that one chance to be giving a chance of purpose. This word is not only for people who follow God  but for the whole world. I have found myself wondering am I suppose to write this context, am I suppose to be like this now that I follow God and blah blah blah blah blahhhhh! Truths be told I wonder how and when and If! the same as any other human being but my biggest strength is my faith. I know no matter how, when or if.... God is going to do it and make moves on my behalf one day!!!! Why, he has too lol! My Father wouldn't leave me hanging :-)... Trust.. by this time next week I declare I will be closer than before that's how strong my faith is. How? with obedience, prayer, determination, moving in the right direction. We can/will all conquer if we hand it over to God and do what we can. God will do the rest. I know we all get tired of the everyday posts about God going to make a way and God is going to prosper you and God said he is about to move this mountain and shake this valley! from our fellow people but he will do all those things, in Your season! I'm learning to know when it is my season and trusting him out of my ideal of my season. But God when is my season? I have learned every season is our season because each second of our life we are being taught something to benefit us!

I see so many people screaming get money and its all about this dollar bill, nope its not. What's a dollar if you don't understand your purpose?  what's a dollar if you go thru life making money and never be able to bring anything to the world? Some people won't get it I don't expect everyone too but one day I pray that light goes off and you really witness what took place the moment your clock started ticking. I don't have all the answers of why I'm here but I do know, I'm destined to help others become destined. We are not born for ourselves we are born to help other's and give God glory.... The money will not go with you spiritually when you leave this place!!!... I'm not the one to judge we all have that one thing that's one second away from an addiction  but we cannot  make them an idol! Live on purpose people and watch God work.......... Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

It is time my loves, God is about to shower down blessings after blessings as the church comes together. The lord has open up the Big Door, the rain is pouring and the saints are about to dance in honor and recognition without fear. Peace is knocking at our doors waiting for us to submit completely to the will of God. Footsteps are being ordered. Keyes are being release as heaven forms right here on earth. Time is really approaching people. I'm not the one to scream the world is about to end because I don't know when, no one does but I know God is near and peace will be still in this hour and rain with come, the lights will shine and heaven gates will fly open with joy and love in due time because God has his eyes on this  generation he will open up the flood gates of heaven and call each and everyone of our names., but we must repent in the errors of our ways. I can't stress this fact enough. He wants everyone to know he is  God almighty. A strong tower especially in the time of need.

I can feel today is a special day, a time of praise and worship. God is knocking people.The question is are you ready. Are you living according to his will today, right now? or are we still waiting for tomorrow to see what everyone else around us thinks and feel? The clock is ticking and time is short people, love ones are passing each and every minute.The best feeling we can have is knowing when we do leave this place we will dwell in paradise. I don't know about you but I'm ready for my heavenly mansion and to hear God tell me "Leticie Job well done."  No hurt, no sickness, not pain. what a life. don't get me wrong I don't want it to be soon but if It happen to be I want to be assured that I will be cradled in his arms forever and ever. Amen.

I stand with you all today to declare and decree we will get it right soon and change will embrace our life and the sun will lift us into his wings with great joy. hallelujah! Somebody is about to have a great testimony. The spirit is ready to burn in my life as well as yours! Get ready Now!

 I'm in wow as I come back from my lunch break! I'm so thankful that God allow people to cross our paths to make sure we stay on track. Well yesterday I found my self wondering "what am I doing wrong God?" today I received my answer. "Ask and ye shall receive." I was about to place my God inside a box and I'm so thankful that God didn't allow that to happen. We have to remember first and far most to read and seek God because man will deceive you and as some one just told me "have you confused by the enemy". I come in with praise in my heart knowing my salvation was SAVE ONE MORE TIME! Thank you Jesus.

Today I ask each and everyone of you to stop, pause and repent for things we know are wrong and for wrongs we are unaware of, because I'm running for my forgiveness today. God confirmed for me that I'm all over the place lately and I need to trust him and be still. Time management is hard, I know because I have two kids, a husband and seeking a degree. Like I said before I get tired. Finding myself spending less and less time seeking God. Let me point out how doing so is hindering me.Last semester I was seeking God everyday concerning math. I knew I couldn't do this on my own. By me seeking God first he supplied the wisdom I needed in order to pass my classes, spend time with my husband,  enjoy my kids and school. This semester I'm  like "God get to you when I can......" Boy big mistake, why? because I'm drained emotionally and physically trying to do everything by myself. While God is laughing. We scream Lord I give it all to you but are we really handing it over to God or saying it because that's what religion has thought us.

Are we thriving off of  knowing God or a generational religion? Religion is quoting scriptures while Knowing God is trusting the scripture without a worry in the world. Religion will have you saying Don't let the gays in your church. Knowing God will say welcome my children for we all can turn from our sinful ways. Religion is speaking ill of our boss, knowing God is saying nothing while the lord fights our battles. Religion is every Sunday going to church but after doing the same thing as Saturday night. While Knowing God you take pride in walking holy each day. I didn't come today to judge you I came to help someone like I was helped. Religion spirits are real people. Know God for yourself, please!  

 The truth of the matter is I get tired! my flesh gets lazy, my brain get's tired and I procrastinate. I don't go into my prayer closet every day. I don't rejoice with the same fire as I do some day's, but I am happy to bare witness to God still using me and still making sure on the days I don't feel like praising him on high he knows when and how to press me to move. I'm not writing this out of a place of weakness today I'm writing on a glory filled day. God has been moving in my life these last few weeks and I want to come and encourage someone today and say God is moving, he is blessing and he is bringing  you out of the caves. I feel him saying "get up, rise! your time has come to rejoice for finances are here and glory has came to the mountain top." Praise God!

 God has spoken and delivered so many people in this time he has chosen to deliver any burdens and hurt and shame. His heart has been heavy with sorrow but he is able and he is turning things around. "Speak deliverance" over your self and proclaim. God wants to hear you speak it. It's amazing how one day I have the blues and I'm turned upside down in my flesh but my spirit prompts me to worship and praise God anyway. That isn't easy but my faith out waits the bad. Someone, you are at your peak and need a Refreshing wind and its here, for some it's coming. Rejoice in the time of waiting. We all have to remain patient and not forget who holds the time in his hands.

Well let me tell you what I have been up to. Dream interpretation!! If you are anything like I was at first I would say God haven't been giving me dreams that mean anything. Boy was I wrong. Practicing on my own as well as some close friends and relatives I realized that God has implanted messages in almost ever dream I have  interpreted  this week.               

God gave me a special dream the night before and I will like to share. First it started with me steaping outside surrounded with some people I knew and some I didn't, but what stood out the most was  although it was me i DIDN'T  recognized myself. I was wearing a beautiful two piece like a Indian beauty my hair was long and wavy like one. And I sat down and began to sing and colors twirled upward and came together while I sUNg. The thing is in real life I can't sing. So im like lord whats really going on.

The only thing I can think about was how beautiful I was but I was lost at what it meant when all the time it was simple. Why? Because I feel like Indian women are so beautiful okay so what does that have to do with what God was saying to me right? God was telling me I have grown into the beautful woman I have always wanted to be and used what I consider beauty to tell me. Wow! Yes my God is awesome.

What I'm saying and telling you, everyone around  the world is to watch out for those dreams that don't make sense or the ones that change scenes and leave you so clueless, God has a message for us all, whether it makes sense at first or not. I have learned when it comes to dealing with God he does the total opposite to show his self strong. He is so completely unnormal (if thats not a word I just made it one lol) but thats how he works.

If you would like for me to practice interpeting your dreams let me know. Send me a email and I will be more than happy to help you try to figure out what God is saying. On the count of three scream it with me I AM ENOUGH!

The truth of the matter is I have trust issues, over the years they have gotten bitterly worst in a degree or have they? what I'm asking and telling you is that people are not trust worthy. We lie, we tell the truth and then we lie some more. Because I am very analytical and have really good memory this makes my circle smaller and smaller. Once you have told me a lie our relationship has now been put under a microscope. The second time I know you have lied you are now under investigation. The third time it really doesn't matter as much because the first lie was too much. Because of my mind automatically having this amazing system its hard for me to keep embracing the love that I know God wants me to give.

Do I completely  just let everyone I know go? I have....Before graduating high school I mentally did my first drop. Due to the fact it seemed like everything was all peachy and cream with some it wasn't but the best part of my mind is my sensor. I have grown to thank God so much for my gifts, especially allowing me to see right thru... excuse my French but bull shit. I didn't understand at first why our teachers would say " the people your friends with now you won't be" For the most part its truth for some. My mind did a complete 360 before walking across the stage. The fact of being pregnant helped me a lot, no I'm not saying get pregnant early not saying that all lol. But it was a new level of maturity for me. I had this child growing inside of me that needed me to be different, to be courageous to not take the bull shit and most of all protect his mind.

Some people won't understand usually those are the people who cant see their flaws. Be careful of people who are quick to snap back and not listen to advice... they are broken. which brings me to why I'm writing this post this evening. We all are broken (flawed) but its up to us to finally say hey God heal me, fix me. Do what it is you need to do for me so I can be set free. So regardless of the lies people tell me I can see the good in them. (I'm still broken) but that's ok because I admit to my brokenness, I'm able to see where I fall short of his glory. At times I don't want to control talking about people because I just want to vent and be messy. Which sets me up for destruction every time. Be careful how far you let your thoughts wonder.

I'm trying to work on this too. what do you mean? I mean for example when your a child and you begin to think there is a monster under your bed the more you lay there thinking about what he can do to you or how he is going to do it starts to feed and grow a even bigger monster (Flaw). A lot of people are walking around with monster's and boogie bears clawing at them each and every day. I understand that you want to keep being in the same state of mind until situations change but sometimes we have to pick those flaws up and tie them together and change our own situation. Although we are flawed, to some one who needs to see them they are beautiful. How? because someone out there needs to see your flaws but please don't tie them up and make them so beautiful that instead of helping another person you participate in turning their flaws into scars. On the count of three scream it with me.... I AM ENOUGH!

We all have had what my spiritual boo call "itchy ears" a term she uses toward me often. When God first started to reveal to me who I truly was I was so excited I wanted to know more. I had to have people tell me more, which caused me to excessively overthink EVERYTHING!. Its funny now, smiling as I sit and think back on how "Itchy ears" had began to control my life in some way. My focus never left God but I found myself desperately seeking to hear anyone tell me things. Everyday I would wake up, my heart pounding and my thoughts racing. Although God was my main focus I found myself paying less attention to my husband, to my kids, and founding myself less and less into my job.

If you know me then you know I don't like to feel as if im bothering you. My sources were limited but I trusted every word from the ones I knew was steering me in the right direction. Then it hit me because I felt they knew so must more than I did I felt small, belittle. why? because I was doing it to myself. I wasn't thinking or seeking advice and knowledge from their main source which was God. instead I founded myself like so many times before wanting to take short cuts. the funny thing about God those short cuts go nowhere fast. Then here comes another phrase in my journey, called Part stuck. No fun!

For a while I found myself spending less and less time meditating and praying as deeply as I would at first. Instead of siting up when mediating I wanted to lay down in the bed and do it. I was looking for God to just write the answers I wanted down on my pillow. Boy was I a joke, trying to trick God. yeah I'm  sure we have been there at some point but not once did I question his love for me. I knew God and once you get to really know him you come to a understanding of knowing just because im slacking he will not just kick you out from his love, but know he is waiting for you to seek his face again, soon so you can reach your destiny.

The point im trying to get to is..... once I realized that I didn't have to run to everyone for advice I didn't have to drive my self crazy constantly to know Gods plan. The whole time God was asking me why are you going half insane when you can ask me your self...... then the light bulb comes on. I sit my laziness to the side and I start to ask him, God what is it you want me to do? who am I? what does this mean? Yes, sure at first I would ask those questions but I wasn't waiting one second for him to respond before I was picking up my cell phone texting my sources.

Your situation may be about a potential husband, a job promotion, buying a new home, or whatever but the big thing WE HAVE TO UNDERSTAND is God is the best person to seek for he is the author of life. He knows your story, he mapped out your life. NOW Ask Him and WAIT on the lord! On the count of three scream it with me..... I AM ENOUGH