[image error]Hi guys! So I posted this on my IG as well with the same conversation but I wanted to extend this out to my fellow bloggers! 

Reading this post broke me down to the core. Every thing about this resonates with me and my current situation. It’s so easy to get caught up in thinking we need to be this perfect person to appease those around us. When you are battling ailments, you automatically think you need to be even stronger to show face that you can “do it”. 

But we are going to have days, weeks, months and even years where we are never the same again because of our health. There will be people that come and go out your life on account of it and let me tell you it’s the most healthiest transition; because in times where you’re at your “ugliest” moments, those who stay are the most precious. And trust me when I say they are FEW. 

I always would say “ why can’t I get the same love and support I have to those same people when they were low, back?” How is that fair? But I had to learn that even if it was an ounce of love I got from anyone I never got it from, that it was enough. And ultimately that contentment has to come from within me. 

Trying to explain and help others to understand the daily struggle of my sickness is exhausting. It’s more exhausting because I am still standing and I don’t look like I’m dying when every muscle in my body is hurting. Do you know what it feels like to wake up wondering if you’ll walk again? If you’ll ever be able to get out the house without anxiety crippling you? 

And I really don’t care if I sound dramatic. I’m a real human with real feelings and there are SO many others who suffer from this. But if you feel like this, acknowledge it love! And please know you are not alone; accept that this is what you deal with and some days will be painful and some will be better. But never ever think how you feel isn’t VALID. 

If you struggle with any ailments I’d love to hear your story or if you just need somewhere to release, leave a comment – let’s talks