Currently holding

that spirit

of optimism

I found it somewhere

between the front and back of

my skull

not quite in the middle

but always

negotiating

its place

because after all

it is

a spirit

and it does not belong

to me

It knows when I’m happy

motivated by something

outside of myself

and it laughs because

just because

it exists

and my desire for it

comes and goes

sometimes I desire

sadness

or anger in the morning

at the beginning

what should have been

the end of it

and alas

as it is with everything else

that does not

belong to you

to be continued . . . . .