When I started editing book 3 of my Possessed series, I told myself that it would be easy. “Just check it and go.” I told myself. Well, it’s become a MUCH bigger project than I’d anticipated and honestly? I have massive respect for everyone who is in the same boat as me. I keep finding things to change or remove, add or correct, and I’m exhausted. But, this is also hard. And not just for the reasons I thought it would be. I just... find myself not wanting it to end. I love this book series, and I know that when I finish editing, it’s over. I’ll be on to the next one. However, I’m done stalling, and I want to edit today. My goal was to at least get 1,000 words done. See, here’s where I’m at currently:

1: I have 2 chapters that need writing

2: After that, I have 3 chapters that need severe editing and grammar check

3: I’ve gotta make a cover for book 3, and I’m fearing no that this might be the hardest part. I’m honestly not good with covers and working on one/ making one scares me a bit.

4: Writing a description for it. I don’t even know how I’m gonna start with this. Besides covers, descriptions are not my strong suite.


So, with all of this said, that leaves me wondering. I know I want to do this, and I’m ready to just sit down and get to work, but what am I gonna do about this lack of inspiration? It’s like every time I try to write, I’m stuck and I hit that writers block wall. I know I’m scared of finishing these books, because I love them so much, but what am I supposed to do? Sit around and do nothing with book 3 forever? No. I won’t do that. I can’t do that. I refuse to just abandon the series I’ve put so much love and care into. And YET, it feels like that’s exactly what I’m doing if I finish it.

I feel like, when it’s over, that’s it. What more can I write in the series besides the main books and maybe two spin off books? After that, I feel like I’m abandoning it. Leaving it in the wind and waiting for the dust to settle. And I hate that. I know every series comes to an end, but I didn’t realize it would be so hard to say goodbye. And, even now as I’m writing this, I’m sad. I’m an honest person, especially when it comes to my emotions. So I’m not afraid to say, even knowing I’ve got two more books left after the third, I’m crying. Mostly on the inside, but still. I mean it’s gotten my eyes to tear up just thinking it’ll be finished soon.

So, that’s all for today I think. Look forward to me keeping you posted as I try to work through whatever phase I’m in right now. See you tomorrow.