She felt trapped inside for years, she’s losing hope to find the light.

Everything seems to be fine. She has a stable job that support her family financially and her travel leisure, including her food tripping once in a while. But, behind her sweetest smiles were her fears lingering in.

No one knew what she really feels inside- no one even dare. As a middle child, she grew up to be the one who understand the situation more than anyone; the one who always have patience and empathy. Looking out for others, she forgot to look out for herself.

When her father died, she became the bread winner of the family. She provided them financially and became the “MAN“ of the house. Her strong personality and blatant tongue made her “a cold-hearted woman“ in and out of the house, but the truth is, she’s as fragile and vulnerable like others. She feels so much pain until she’s totally numb of it…but she never gets numb. She even feels the pain of others and could be much brokenhearted than the person feeling the hurt.

Being through a lot, her heart still able to love. But she wonders if she could truly give love if she failed to love herself? Or is it fear that pulled her away to give love? Maybe paranoia pushed her to overthink or maybe her instinct were just right most of the time.

But whatever it is, all she knew is that she’s a girl trapped inside for years, she’s losing hope to find the light.