I have been absent for a little while as I have been busy writing my book “Awakened Children” which I’m now excited to say has deadlines in place. I am hoping to publish 2022 and will continue to keep everyone informed on its progress. I have also been putting together an authors website I will soon be sharing.

There are many positive and exciting things to look forward to in my life however a week ago there was a very tragic, sad, human experience that happened within our family.

I lost my godfather who was very dear to my heart. He was like a second father to my siblings and I. It was completely unexpected and has been a terrible shock to family and friends.

He was an amazing soul who I am so very proud to call my godfather.

Here were some beautiful words written by his family for his obituary;

As a dedicated teacher and caring Principal, he had an immeasurable impact on so many. Over his 35 years as an educator, his love of physical education and his belief that everyone can succeed, inspired countless students and colleagues. His deep commitment to learning and inclusivity was unparalleled in his field.
He left a giant footprint that influenced so many people. This was especially evident in his role as a coach and mentor. His tremendous impact will continue to live on through the numerous athletes and coaches he worked with. His jovial and infectious spirit will always be remembered through his family and friends. His legacy is one that we are honoured to carry on for him. 
As Dad always said, “Teach gently, entertain greatly!”

With all that I know spiritually I find the grief unbearable at times. It has been a roller coaster of emotions. For some reason I cannot seem to grasp the fact that he is gone and I will never see him again here in the physical.

I thought to myself this past week why is this so unbelievably difficult for me being as spiritual as I am? You should know this is my first true loss in my adult life. I have lost grandparents but I was young and the emotions were different. I have yet to experience the raw human emotions that comes with losing a loved one as an adult.

I was writing with my writer this past Sunday and told her in so many words I felt like I needed to be stronger for my family because I am so spiritual but was struggling with my own emotions. She was able to put it into perspective and said “You are still human Erin and this a tremendous loss so allow yourself to grieve.”

I am spiritual and know with every part of my being there is life after death and we all reunite with our loved ones but I also know we are all still human and feel all of the human emotions that come with grief.

This past week I have been seeing how grief affects everyone in completely different ways. Some become very strong and quiet with little emotion, some are in denial, some get angry, some want to talk it out, there are many ways people grieve. I cope best with difficult experiences in my life by writing. Heck I wrote a book on spirit to deal with all of our experiences over the years. When I’m feeling sad or anxious writing seems to bring me to a calm and peaceful place.

I posted this tribute to my godfather on social media & it did bring me some peace knowing I will see him again.

My heart is completely broken I loved you for 40 years here in the physical & I will continue to love you for the next 40 years until I cross over to the other side and give you the longest & biggest hug. You were given the role as my godfather but were so much more. You were mine, and my siblings second father. You were there for every major milestone in our lives. We could always count on you to show up and be present. Your heart was so big and you would do anything for family. Having you & our Aunt in our corner all these years has been a true gift & blessing in our lives. I will forever cherish you dancing with my sister and I to your go to song for us “My Girl” or taking my brother under your wing, & teaching him to play and fall in love with the sport of basketball. I knew when I walked into a room with you I would always, and forever be your Er Bear.

You were one of the brightest lights in my life & I thank you from the bottom of my heart. My sister found the 1st photo (a photo that I had shared on social media) with my daughter & Riley and it took my breath away as she pointed out how it encompasses every single part of my Book. Your death has shown me the magnitude of true grief and the unconditional love I have for you & love I know will surround me for the rest of my life. You have been a huge part of my journey & your passing is now part of my story. I will love you always & forever!! All the way up to the sky and back down again times a billion the sky never ends!!

I will see you on the other side.

I am spiritual but I am still human and this loss is one of the greatest I will feel and experience in this lifetime. He hasn’t reached me yet but I know he will visit when I am truly ready to receive.

“Grief is the last act of love we have to give to those we loved. Where there is deep grief, there was great love.”- unknown

Sending Love & Light

Erin