I have 9 days until my first book launch event. Nervous doesn't even begin to describe how I feel! I've always been someone who struggles to speak to strangers, but I try to be warm and engaging. This is the first event where the focus will be on me, and that's outside my comfort zone. I prefer to work behind the scenes and be a cheerleader for others - it's so much easier. Honestly, I have a hard time accepting love and compliments. God is still working on me with this. I'm hopeful He'll use this event to help me grow in this area. I'm not sure why it's easier for me to give love than to receive it. I think that's a downfall when you're used to being in the background - people don't really see you and the light God has given you. We have to remind ourselves how God sees us - like a town on a hill that can't be hidden (Matthew 5:14). If you're like me, I encourage you to deepen your prayer life and ask God to show you how He sees you. Allow Him to reignite that light within you. Ask Him to reveal why you feel the need to stay comfortable in the background. For me, it was definitely related to my weight gain. I've gained over 100 pounds, which is the most I've ever weighed. This has caused me to dislike my appearance and withdraw, just like the main character in my book. It took me a while to start seeing myself the way God does, and that required a lot of self-care on my part. In order to receive love, we have to learn to love ourselves first. I'm excited to see how this event turns out, and I'll be sure to keep you updated!One Look