I am having one of those days where I just cannot pretend to be like everyone else. Most the time I can. I am actually fairly good at it. I will smile, laugh, talk and you will have no idea that I am pretty much miserable. But today, I am paying the price for my dietary choices. And as my body detoxes, my Ankylosing Spondylitis kicks up. ( Yeeeahh, sounds fun huh? You’ll have to look it up.) My back is screaming at me, four Tylenol just laughed at me, (you think we take care of that? Dream on little girl) and I just want to go to bed.

But I can’t. Because I have a life and kids and obligations. If I hold on, I know it will get better. But today…. Ugh- today, I am tired of pretending. I am putting too much energy into not crying to pretend.

So, for all of you invisible dieses carriers. Lupus, MS-the list is lengthy. I understand. I know what it’s like to look great on the outside, while your insides are falling apart. And nobody knows why you’re a little snappy one day, they don’t understand that your pain level is off the charts.

That being said- to all your people who suffer in invisible silence, don’t let it beat you! I will get up tomorrow- or maybe the next day, and it is ON! My life will not be defined by my disease and I will not use it as an excuse to not accomplish my dreams.