this book is part 1 of all the 4 books. i read 3 of them, and the first n 3rd book are the most emotional for me. i havent read the 4th though, and i dont think the 2nd is that emotionally hard compare to this book and the 3rd.
i gave it 2 stars. it's not bcoz it's bad. no. as a matter of fact, this was a great book, great story, great character development and all. but.. for a very PERSONAL PRIVATE "POV" reason on my side, i am feeling unsatisfied or unconvinced or emotionally conected in some of the "character-plot wise", it's hard for me to say," woah.. what an awesome-heart wrenching-touching book and what a very real character as closed as in reality ". you knw, it's like watching a movie, great story line, heart rob actors/actresses, mind blowing CGI, the rush of the adrenalin,the thriller, but then.. while your brain acknowledging all those amazing factors that the movie gave to you, your heart just cant/dont accept it.
im No Christian,i hv my own religion that i hold dear to "Restrict" me or to remind me before i recklessly did something that cross the line. It doesnt bother me to read as many book from all genre, culture or other religion. i personally "hunt" the second chance genre who has infidelity as the basic factor of the problem. why? bcoz only A FEW of books that i had read can deal amazingly satisfying w/this kind of problem. infidelity is a heart wrenching cause that can affecting everything, it's deal w/betrayel, trust, broken love, lying, manipulation, uncontrol lust, ego, and "pride".
cruel situation where at the end of the rope, you realise that when your most loving person that lived, breath, laughing, crying, having kids with, depends to, first faced you see when you wake up in every morning and the last faced you see when you having a rest after working and building your own empire, the first person that came running to you when you hurt, sick, the first person that pat your shoulder and pull you into embraced whenever you feel down, dissapointed, the very personal person that knws everything about your preference in food, your most fave placed to go, your size, your every inch of body, and intimately sharing all those amazing activity for years of years starting when you still have all black/blonde/red/brunette hair color on your head till you have a strike of grey hair here and there, the MAN that VOW to loved you, cherish you, the man that had the biggest smiled, twinkling stary eyes and sweaty hands when he wait for you to say "yes" to his proposal., and then forgeting all those amazing things bcoz he cant help not to think of other women's attractive face, lustful body, younger-freshly action,
HE then BETRAYED you, FORGOTTEN about your presence, MANIPULATING his time to stay put w/his other women, and CONSIOUSLY DO THE ACTION OF ADULTERY, not under anyone influence, not under drugs, he's sobber, HE DID THIS, BY THAT VERY LOVING PERSON OF YOUR LIFE.
Yes, i have many many many objection about Chuck's character. and how he being "potrayed" as a still loving father, as a loving husband who... hey, yes i f*ck this good looking amazing body girl but i love my wife, but again, IF my wife DOESNT KNOW about my affair, I DONT THINK I CAN STOPPING THIS AFFAIR, But dont worry, I LOVE MY WIFE AND MY KIDS, I DONT WANT THEM TO GET HURT, as long as they dont knw,and they dont need to know. what? for how long? I dont knw, Coz AGAIN, THIS GIRL WANTS ME AND I WANT HER AS MUCH AS SHE WANTS ME. I CANT STOPPING MY LUST FOR THIS GIRL, but I dare to vow, THAT I LOVE MY WIFE. YES! I love My wife, i even comeback to sleep lying beside her after i f*ck this my lover, im holding my wife's sleeping body, when in my mind, im trying to find another time to f*ck This other girl, again.
WHAT. A . FREAKING. LAME. DISGUSTING. JOKE
this what i got my biggest problem is. in EVERY/mostly scnd chnce-infidelity novels. most of the author always makes the guy is CONSIOUSLY "loving" his wife, his kids, but then always makes the guy CONSIoUSLY, again, to not having a scnd thought for NOT coming back to f*ck his lover again and again and again. and most of the author ALWAYS makes this "LOVING" husband that CONSIOUSLY still loving his wife, CAN NOT STOP his affair, and still lusting his lover even after/until his wife knw about his affair. WHERE THE LOVE IN THAT "LOVING" husband who still knw and saying he love his wife?? when he got no resistant to put an effing stop to his affair when he freaking knw, he is doing a sin??and betrayeing his wife? and still dare to make this guy being potrayed to love his wife and consider her as THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE, and never stop loving her from the first time until now??
again.. WHAT. A. FREAKING. DISGUSTING. HUMILIATING. LOVE-JOKE. EVER.
you see., Chuck in this book, is potrayed as an ambitious deal breaker lawyer, 42 years fine looking man, who has his adrenalin pumping everytime he can bring a new clients to his law firm, he felt good, felt proud, felt like he is in the long road to conquer the world, he was blessing having a lovely family. Been married for 21 freaking years with 2 sons and a calm, devoting christian wife who read her bible more often that she read her morning newspaper or watch tv, who go to the church and have a very strong conection to her own circle, who love chuck more than a wife should be (oops.. this is my rant that speaking), who cant do wrong unless it's something that dent his ego and his perspective of HOW his wife life should be. other than that? he Got no freaking marriage problem except for.. ofc, Good-nasty-lustly sex life that he never ever got from his wife who then he got from his other women and what's makes him coming back for MORE AND CAN NOT STOPPING HIS AFFAIR even for his wife's honor. who put down his wife and kids picture on his desk and thinking of how he can spend another sex w/this other women, even if it's done in his own office, on the conference table AFTER he phoned his wife & told her, that he's going to come home late.AND still.. the author makes him still have "loving" feeling for his wife. that's what disgust me, and that's what makes me giving this book,2 stars.
im having a bloody, freaking objection to put and accepting a potraying situation like:
1) im bloody objected of the scenario
-he still and always feeling -"LOVE for his wife"- in the same room with -"i can not/i dont think i can stopping my affair"-
2) chuck is always crying whenever he put in the situation of how he remember he betrayed his wife, after the blew up infidelity of his, he crying when he called his mom, he crying when he confessed to phil the pastor, even braved enough to confessed his own sin in front of the church, BUT STILL feeling a moment of "rush" when his other women called him!! and he still can spontaneously feeling "GOOD" to heard her voice after he's not seeing her for weeks.
3) in the moment of being "push" by his wife to search the reason of why he did this to his wife and his family, he came to a very firm conclusion that, the reason of his attraction for tracy, ofc except from her younger face, her to die for body, her long legs, her way to dress and her amazing skill in bedding him., is... hold your breath.. ladies.. BCOZ ASIDE FROM HIS NEEDING OF A DEVOTED LOVING THE MOTHER TYPE OF WIFE THAT HE GOT FROM HIS WIFE, HE REALISE THAT HE ALSO NEED TRACY'S PERSONALITY TO FIT HIS "PROFESSIONAL-JOB" AMBITIOUS ADRELANIN RUSH WORLD. and the most disgusting line is come to his realization, chusk freaking said "HE NEED BOTH WOMEN" and i dont freaking get it the meaning of his next thought of "BUT TRACY DONT LOVE HIM, BOBIE LOVE HIM AND HE NEED BOTH WOMEN". do please enlighten me this lines, help me. does it means, somehow he hope that he has a "relationship" w/tracy? does it means that IF tracy did loved him, then where does it lead to? does it will affecting his decision to re-think his relationship w/his wife? does it means that when he decide to being a full time husband again, it will change his "basic love" to his wife? coz he found and know there's another woman that fit his half dream from his needing in a women? how can he said he needs BOTH women?? how can he being potrayed to demean his wife as low as this? when in every freaking chapters the author never rest to makes chuck always crying for what he did, always remembering the reader that, chuck love his wife?
4) what does it mean of "CHUCK WANTS bobie, but he wants bobie TO BE tracy". again, a freaking disrespect of the word of love and much more disrespect and disgustingly cheap, more so when the author put a constant reminder of how chuck love his wife in every freaking chapters without me puking first.
you knw what's my prespective says from that lines? it means, all the good things that bobie has in those 21 years living as his wife and the mother of his sons and a devoted loving friends to him and who loved him unconditionally, is UNMATCH to tracy's specks those 21 years of her devotion to chuck, is UNMATCH to tracy's full of life-attractive figure and a boost of his ego. and dont shoved a "stable" and routine marriage life reasons as a way to justified or to be one of the solid reason that trigger him to touch that bitch, not when the guy who sin still CONSIOUSLY knw that his wife is only having all the good things in her and still CONSIOUSLY knw that his wife is the one and only women that love him deeply enough to die for. no. DONT DOWNGRADING the word Love and devotion as low as in that scenario. this is what's my anger lying to. it's like im saying to my husband that, " hey love, im married to you, im making love to you for 21 years, we hav kids, we've been through ups n down,you are mostly in my mind, i always think about your happines, wont even dare to do things to hurt you, but, i want you to be like the guy that i knw at my office. but i love you, dont worry i wont ever leaving you like most of the jerk, oh and btw, i had sex w/that guy, i cant stopping my affair, not until you found out anyway, you do knw that i love you right? it's just, she wants me, and i wants her, thats' all. but i still dont knw when i have to stop my affair, coz i dont want to, honestly" you see how cruel the meaning of it, the action of what chuck did, and the still reference of how he love his wife ? when i bluntly put in a real words ?
so, lemme put my objection more clearly, YOU CANT MAKE THE SITUATION WHEN YOU CAN FREELY AND CONSTANTLY REMIND US, OF HOW CHUCK LOVE HIS WIFE WHEN HE LUSTING OTHER WOMEN, WHEN HE WAS LYING BESIDE HIS WIFE ON THEIR BED AND THINK TO MAKE ANOTHER TIME AND FOUND A WAY TO ORGANIZED HIS SCHEDULE SO HE CAN HAV SEX AGAIN W/TRACY, YOU CANT MAKE CHUCK STILL REMEMBER HIS WIFE'S NAME WHEN HE KISS AND HAVE A PRELUDE FOREPLAY TO TRACY, YOU CANT MAKE CHUCK REALISE HE DID WRONG AND THAT HE LOVE BOOBIE AND SCARE TO LOOSE HER RIGHT AFTER HE OUT OF TRACY'S BED WHEN IN THE NEXT 2 HOURS YOU MAKE CHUCK EASILY MAKES ANOTHER APPOINTMENT TO TRACY FOR HIM TO COMING AGAIN TO TRACY'S HOUSE TO HAVE SEX W/HER 2 DAYS LATTER WHEN HIS WIFE IS ON THE WAY HOME FROM OTHER CITY, YOU CANT MAKE US READER A SCENES WHERE PUTTING CHUCK AS A HUSBAND WHO WONT HURT HIS WIFE AND HIS SONS AND THEN MAKES HIM PUT THE FAMILY'S PHOTO FACE DOWN AND THEN MAKING HIM CALLED TRACY TO MAKE A SEX-OFFICE APPOINTMENT JUST A SCND AFTER HE SAW HIS WIFE'S PHOTO. nO. you cant make all those situation and STILL PUSHING US READER OF HOW CHUCK IS REALLY DO LOVE HIS WIFE. YOU. JUST. CANT. unless you make chuck loosing his love to boobie, unless you make chuck is a real jerk that really wants to have an affair and not care enough w/his wife, unless you makes chuck get bored and forgetting the word Love the moment he lied his eyes to flirt w/tracy, you can makes chuck keep coming back for sex w/tracy when he felt suffocating having a boring life w/his sons and always angry and cold to his wife. coz guess what?? THOSE THINGS ARE WHAT'S SUPPOSED TO POTRAYED CHUCK EXACTLY IN THIS NOVEL'S SITUATION. for the writer to still and keep on making chuck as a loving father and still consiously remember that he love and acknowledge his love for his wife, keep on felt ashamed of his sin and even crying many times but STILL felt a lively lust whenever he remembering his night w/tracy WHEN HE OPENLY FELT SORRY for what he did, is... INSANE! it's like you, writer, wants to convinced us that the same cakes that has sugar and covered w/chocolate all over it's body, will still TASTE THE SAME WHEN SOMEONE DUMP A WHOLE GALONE OF GASOLINE, salt, and pepper and grilled the cake and you still saying : "oh look... i still can taste the sugar n the chocolate in my cake" . no. unless you make chuck has a mental problem or a big fat jerk.coz once he crossing the line, it menas he doesnt care about his family, let alone still acknowledging and confessing/feeling that he love his wife. no. you cant do that cruel things... im... das and upset. not for his cheating, but for what seems as a smoother justifying his action as just a moment of "slip" and a moment of weakness. no. IF he was put in a celibate cold fish ungrateful, unsatsfying bitches of wife, you can do that. but not when you throwing us an amazing human being character in a form of bobie who was programmed just to love chuck after everything that he did, who forgive him just a send after she knws his bloody affair. IF you want to another plot like infact, bobie was swallowing his bible, thats why she has the biggest heart when all normal human being wife supposed to cry, yelling, punching, badly heartbroken, mentally ill, hating on her husband, chewing him, throwing tantrum, forcing his to spit the truth, confronting him, asking him directly and viciously a series of questions about what is wrong? who is this women? how does she looks? does you did this bcoz she has a dirty naughty sex skill? does she give you better sex than our 21 years marriage? does sex is all that matter?
instead of doing all those normal thing, as, mind you, bobie has that very right to act "insane", here, bobie has the most stable character that ever happened in wife's history (or maybe a christian wife is being programmed all the same like this?) as if she was a robot that has a moment of electricity shock, but then back to work again, even though there's still a repercussion like she cant be touch and sleep in the same bed w/chuck, but for me, bobie's mentally response is freaking abnormal. she even can said she loves chuck and will get him back just a day after all this things. yes. i said that. it's like she was forced to being good, forced to delusionaly not recognized that this was her 21 years marriage that chuck's betrayed, that chuck tainted, that chuck put in the vow in the most dirty garbage bin the moment tracy kissed his lips. you knw, it's like when a volcano supposed to blow up, but then the goverment put a stop by dropping tons of tons of ridiculously unimaginable snow to "cooling" down the volcano, so it wont erupt.
what bobie did and how she act, for me, is just..... unhuman... with all do respect for her graceful big heart. but mine said, this was not right, when she has all the right to be insane. 21 freaking years w/unstoping love that she pour to chuck, that chuck felt her love for 21 years. it's not a cold marriage, it's not like chuck cant feel she love him the same. no. so? why did this?
i knw a guy who cant get sexually arouse w/ other women not bcoz the other women that chasing after him isnot sexualy atractive, but it's bcoz he has no feeling to lust other women when he can only get aroused whenever he saw the girl that he love, i also knw a guy that can get erect and sexually aroused when he see an atractive revealing body of other women, but he wont cross the lines, bcoz he has honor and dignity and shamed as a MAN of honor, so he resist the temptation, not only bcoz of his religion and god, but bcoz he has his own honorable code!, i also knw there's a guy that always chasing after skirt and sexually aroused and cheating w/other women, but that's when he doesnt care of his family, simply bcoz he's a jerk.
so, when you give the title as high as "the love of your life" and "cant lived without you" but you get involved and cant get the other women's face out of your mind whenever you closed your eyes and cant stop remembering her n your sexual night right in the middle of your meeting w/friends but still being labeled that the love of his life is his wife when he's not struggling enough to put the lust down or avoiding the other women, instead of keep being friendly and keep thinking of making another appointment, is just... irrelevance and down right insane & doesnt make sense. i refused this.
in conclusion, im puking everytime chuck mentioned that he love his wife and crying for what he did, but still can affected by other women's voice even when she's no longer there, is jus... uegh..
and why make the plot easier when you want to bring out infidelity and forgiveness and the road of forgiveness and trust as the plot when you make tracy's gone? (although i knw why in the sncd book), with chuck's still cant get her out of his mind, with chuck still cant deathly closed his arousal mind to tracy? when chuck still can memorising flashes of tracy's sexual face when she made him orgasm? what if tracy still there? still at the same office, still naughtly seduced him, how strong chuck's will to not broken his vow again to boobie? how strong that chuck can resist her temptation after he knws that he hurt boobie badly?
and most of it, HOW COME CHUCK THE GUY THAT LOVE HIS WIFE, CAN HV AN UNPROTECTED SEX FROM HIS SIDE TO TRACY???
i hv a strong particular judgement of a situation sex w/condom and sex without condom. Sex with condom,mean, you still wrecking other girls but at least YOU PROTECTING YOUR WIFE FOR WHATEVER CONTACT BFORE YOU DIPPED YOUR ******* IN OTHER GIRL'S *****, and it means, you still hold a CONTROL AND NOT LOOSING YOUR HEAD.
While sex without condom means, it more intimate, why? it means, YOU PUT A HECK OF A TRUST W/OTHER GIRL THE SAME TRUST AND NATURAL TRUST THAT COME WHENEVER YOU HAVE THE SAME INTIMATE CONTACT W/YOUR WIFE, second, it means YOU LOOSING ALL CONTROL THAT YOU CAN HOLD COZ YOU JUST BLINDLY WANTS TO FEEL SKIN ON SKIN SEX WHICH BROUGHT A DIFFERENT LEVEL OF PLEASURE THAT YOU CANT HARDLY WAIT AND FEEL WITH THIS OTHER WOMEN!!. and THIRD., IT MEANS YOU ACCEPTING THAT YOUR AND TRACY'S RELATIONSHIP IS EXCLUSIVE! YOU TRUST HER TO JUST HAVING AN EXCLUSIVE SEX RELATION WITH YOU AND YOU ALONE, THAT'S WHY YOU WONT BOTHER TO SPEW THAT GROSSY FLUID OF YOUR DISHARGE INTO HER BODY.
I. WILL. BLOODY KIIL. HIM. IF I WAS BOOBIE.
and how come boobie not questioning of how can chuck not put a condom and f*cking tracy bareback and skipping all the heavy meaning between condom n not condom? why just accepting chucks reason of "hey! im not sleeping with whore!",
Why boobie's mind not driving to a more special-intimate path about the unprotective sex that chuck had w/tracy??
coz, funnily, in most of other cheesy romantic novel-un christian genre, half ero, even the most jerky-alphamale playboy get angry to his lover for this spcl reason.but not boobie?
see.... this is why i hate hate the way the writer still potraying chuck as a loving husband who love his wife, when all the blunt openly eyes action is he did all the thing that the scumbag husband of the earth did to his wife.
ok. i finished my rant and my personal perspective to chuck's character and how it i felt like what's on his mins, the way he act and the way that the writer describing his feeling is all bloody unmatch and messed up.
all in all, aside from my personal pov of what "love" means, this book is great! please do read it, and maybe you have a different oppinion from me. but again, t's a mind blowing book.