A Heart in a Body in the World by Deb Caletti meets Amber Smith’s The Way I Used to Be in this young adult mystery following a teen searching for the truth behind the deadly car crash that claimed the lives of her twin sister and the high school football coach.
What happens to the twin left behind?
Scottie O’Doul isn’t looking forward to starting her senior year. Last May, her identical twin sister, Cait, died in a car crash involving the school’s beloved football coach. There’s been no official report on the accident yet, but before she died, Cait told Scottie a disturbing secret. When Scottie reveals this secret, half the town turns against her, certain that Scottie is lying to protect her sister and that Cait deliberately lost control of the car.
Scottie knows her twin would never take her own life, or someone else’s, but how can she prove it? As she faces bullying and hostility at school, she starts to wonder if what Cait said was even true. Turning to running to break through her grief, Scottie finds a new world and a new sense of self outside her twinness. She also reconnects with her old boyfriend, who had a terrible accident of his own the same day Cait died. Could there be a connection?
As she runs mile after mile, Scottie keeps trying to fit the jigsaw pieces together and find the true picture of what happened to Cait and what was really going on at school before the crash.
Han Nolan is widely acclaimed for her evocative language, her gritty subject matter, and her ability to plumb the psyche of her characters. Her books include Dancing on the Edge, which won the National Book Award, Send Me own a Miracle, a finalist for the National Book Award, Born Blue, A Summer of Kings, and several other acclaimed novels. She and her husband live on the East Coast.
Scottie is ostracized and tormented in her small town after her twin dies in a car crash with their small town's hero coach - because the twin told Scottie that she'd been raped by Coach. In between bouts of self-harm and bullying, Scottie lets her big mouth commit to an ultramarathon. In order to succeed at the running thing, she needs to accept help and guidance - along the way learning to accept help with her anger, her grief, and her abandonment by her mother, who has descended into alcoholism and eventually is in rehab. Stunning. Works with trauma in an empathetic, never exploitative way. Mystery, some suspense, realistic physical training, a little romance. Sexual abuse of athletes and a town's willingness to turn a blind eye. Great demonstration of how everyone suffers when lies happen.
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this really also needs to include a tw for self-harm at the start & in my arc copy the formatting was skewered for part of the second half of the book. Besides for that, this was a good intriguing read and I liked that the main character was in therapy. I liked the running journey & the mystery. Many of the characters sucked in this book but there were a few redeemable ones
I loved this story so much! Not only did it have a good mystery and lots of suspense, but it also had an uplifting ending. The story was not just a mystery story, but also a story about hope. It was both a very sad book but also a feel-good story.
The book did a great job of delving into the complexities of mental health and how it can affect relationships and daily life. The characters felt very real and relatable, making the emotions and struggles they experienced feel authentic and raw. The themes of resilience, healing, and finding strength in the face of adversity are portrayed beautifully throughout the book. The author's writing style was engaging and kept me captivated from beginning to end. The exploration of forgiveness and redemption was handled with sensitivity and depth, prompting the reader to reflect on the power of forgiveness in healing. The book also sheds light on the importance of self-care and seeking help when needed, emphasizing the message that it's okay to not be okay and that reaching out for help is a sign of strength. The way the author intertwined the various themes and storylines throughout the book was masterful, creating a rich tapestry of emotions and experiences for the reader to navigate. The ending of the book was satisfying and left me feeling hopeful, despite the heavy subject matter, showing that there is always a possibility for healing and growth after experiencing trauma and loss.
This was excellent, but not really a middle grade book. I'll send it on to the high school.
Scottie is starting back to high school after truly horrific events; her sister was driving a car with the popular football coach, Jory Wilson, in the passenger seat when she drove straight into a wall, killing them both. There were some odd things about the accident scene, but Scottie is getting the most grief about information she revealed afterwards; her sister Cait had been raped by the coach. Reeling from the deaths, many people in the school have chosen to give Scottie a hard time, including her former friends Amber and Jasper, who got a lot of help from the coach, and Lissa, whose father was the coach's best friend. Even Dr. Mead, the principal, holds Scottie responsible for "drama" going on in school, such as dog poop being put in Scottie's locker. After several humiliating experiences, Scottie finds herself saying that she is going to run an ultramarathon. She even attends the Exercise Physiology class, run by Dr. Senda, and runs a 5K race on the track wearing jeans an old tennis shoes that she wore on hours long walks in the woods all summer. She finishes, but falls near the end and bashes herself up. The other students make fun of her, but Senda admires her tenacity. Her mother, an art professor, is on unpaid leave, and spends most of her time drinking or going out with her boyfriend, Mac, instead of paying attention to Scottie. Scottie has been self-harming, pouring boiling water on her hands and making the blisters worse, and running gives her the same kind of release that causing herself pain does. She buys equipment, commits to running a longer race, and even gets a job at the local running store, working for Senda's son, Ichiro. This also causes some problems, as Amber works at the store, and Coach Wilson's widow shows up there. Scottie does have some support from her friend Nico, a gymnast who suffered an injury in Cait's presence on the very day of her accident. Scottie joins a running group, and continues to put up with problems at school, but things get worse when Mac tells her that he has taken her mother to a drug rehab facility after an accidental alcohol poisoning overdose. Not knowing what to do, and feeling unsafe in her home, Scottie sleeps at the running store. She is found by the owner, Claude, whose son Jacques was devastated by his coach's death. He and his wife take Scottie in, and she is relieved by to have some stability in her life. She is in therapy, which helps a little, and continues to run, which helps a lot. Eventually, she and Nico uncover information about the day of the accident. Was Cait really guilty? The truth is even darker than anyone imagined.
This Young Adult title includes mentions of suicide, self-harm, and rape, but does not go into details. It is also circumspect in its language and situations. Nolan, whose 1997 Dancing on the Edge and 2011 Pregnant Pause also tackle tough issues, does a fantastic job of scaffolding Scottie's extensive personal and social problems on the horrific situation of her sister, and the unfolding mystery of what really happened. On top of that, this is an ode to the curative powers of running that had a lot in common with The Terrible and Wonderful Reasons Why I Run Long Distances by Matthew Inman (The Oatmeal).
Scottie is an incredibly resilient character who is dealing with more than any teen ever should have to. Her mother is completely devastated by the events, and takes no care of Scottie at all. It was good to see that she at least had Claude and his wife, that she was in therapy with a doctor she liked, and that she had Nico in her corner.
The mystery was also intriguing, and had a similar feel to the pell-mell investigations in Otis' At the Speed of Lies. I don't want to ruin the twists and turns, but did enjoy that fact that Scottie and her sister were vindicated in the end because the truth was even more devastating that what Scottie thought had happened.
Running is often used in Young Adult Fiction to showcase how to deal with grief, and this is another great book to add to a list that contains Toor's On the Road to Find Out, Van Draanen's The Running Dream, and Currinder's Running on Empty. The ultra marathon race has only been covered in Carroll's 2013 Ultra, which is one of my favorites.
This book was all over the place in the worst ways, but it was so bad that it was funny so I didn't actually hate it. That said, it's still just a really bad book. The only thing I truly liked was the running aspect--it was pretty detailed and I thought it was interesting. It was also the only part of this book that I thought was good. Now getting into the bad...
First of all, the synopsis promises a mystery but the majority of this book focuses on running and bullying and a guy with no personality. There's little to no detective work done by Scottie, our main character. We just get information dumps every once in a while and very rarely, she'll ask people questions or break into their garage. For the rest of this book, Scottie is either a) learning about running, thinking about running, or actually running; b) being absolutely tormented by nearly everyone in this town; or c) thinking about Nico, the love interest who is so boring, bland, and shitty (as a person and character).
As for the tormenting, it's actually insane. Every person in this book is pissed that she said the Coach was a bad guy, so naturally they physically and verbally assault her, break into her home and destroy her stuff, TRY TO RUN HER OFF THE ROAD, mess with her locker, and vandalize her house. And no one cares. Not the police nor any adult in her life. Her teachers actively support the students making her life hell. It's so unrealistic in so many ways and it's not even solved at the end of the book, so it's totally unsatisfying.
Onto Nico. There's not much to say about Nico. He's spineless, he has no personality, and there's absolutely no chemistry between him and Scottie. He only starts talking to her again because he can't hang around his other friends anymore. He's a bad friend so I'm surprised he was even the love interest. He doesn't stand up for her even though he knows that she's being bullied, he doubts her for the majority of the book, and there's multiple times where he doesn't really want to be seen with her. It's never really shown why he likes her or why she likes him. Multiple other characters are missing their personalities, too, like Lissa. She's one of Scottie's oldest friends-turned-stranger, but there's not much to her at all.
There are events that take place in this book that don't make sense, either. The biggest one is when her mom just disappears to rehab one day and is gone for a month? Doesn't tell Scottie, but her boyfriend does, and she has to scramble to find housing. She was just going to sleep in the storeroom of her place of work but then someone she runs with is nice enough to house her. Her mother then refuses to speak to or meet with Scottie until she shows back up out of the blue, completely healed from her alcohol addiction. She doesn't tell Scottie she's coming, doesn't apologize for abandoning her, and doesn't see anything wrong with refusing to communicate while at rehab.
We're also told everything rather than shown. Nico keeps telling Scottie that she holds him at an arm's length and pushes him away but we're never actually shown that; he just keeps telling her over and over. We're told how great Nico is but he's never shown being great. This pattern continues on for the entire book and it's frustrating because it messes with what I know about the characters.
Furthermore, every bit of dialogue is clunky, the ways that people act are illogical and obviously messy just to push the narrative forward, and the actual writing style is all over the place. The ending isn't an ending; it just ends with the word 'closure' and nothing is actually solved. It's said that it's up to the football players to come forward and that's it. A student literally tries to kill her during a run by choking and then shoving her down a mountain, it's never discussed again, and then the book ends. Cait's name isn't cleared--it's MAYBE hinted that that will come, but who knows? I don't. Overall, I thought it was strange and not in a good way. I don't recommend this to anyone looking for a thrilling mystery.
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Content Warnings: sexual assault, bullying, death of a child/sibling, alcoholic parent.
This was a heartbreaking book, one that discusses loss, grief and finding yourself again. I couldn’t give this a higher rating because there were times when the book felt stilted and dragged on. I felt like there were parts in which the book didn’t go deep enough for me to care.
Running Past Dark follows a girl named Scottie, who just lost her twin sister in a car accident. Also in the car was the small town’s god-like football coach. Apparently Scottie’s sister told her that the coach raped her. But things just kind of….happened. We’re dumped right into the story, which is usually fine, but there’s no one on Scottie’s side in this situation—at least at the beginning. There was no sense of place in the book, the location felt bland. All I got was that it was a small town.
However, I did appreciate the topics that were covered. It goes to show that small towns rally around sports because there’s not much else. It’s what makes young boys look up to players and coaches, like they can’t do anything wrong.
Twinless twins. That’s what twins who lose their co-twins are called. I can’t imagine a sadder loss. Caitlin and Scotland were monozygotic twins; identical twins formed when a fertilized ovary splits early on in pregnancy. Studies have shown some identical twins can feel each other’s pain, literally not just figuratively.
Scottie feels the loss of Cait down to her soul. Cait told her twin that their school’s beloved Coach raped her and then Cait and Coach die in a car accident that appears to be suicide. Scottie takes up long distance running to heal her pain and the bullying she’s receiving for speaking out against Coach.
Han Nolan digs deep into Scottie’s heart, through the agony and quiet desperation toward the healing power of dogged-determination.
A perfectly paced, beautifully voiced YA novel about Scottie, who’s trying to make sense of the death of her twin sister in the middle of the brutal hostility of her community and the crumbling relationship with her mom. As Scottie trains for an ultra-marathon, she must push through the pain of training, the humility of feeling she's not good enough for her sport, the guilt of being left behind by her sister’s secrets, and the mystery surrounding the circumstances of her twin’s death as she fights to find her place in life. This is a great addition to any youth library.
More like 3.5. I'm glad I stuck with this, because the biggest problems I have with it are evident at the beginning: the dialogue is sometimes clunky and the bullying Scotlyn is experiencing just seems too...cliche, or on-the-nose, or something. Also, there's a character named Reid Reed and no one EVER points out how weird that is? Anyway- story-wise, it pays off in the end, with a resolution to the question of what happened when the car crashed that I genuinely did not expect, and the running content was interesting, too.
Incredible book. The way that Scottie progresses from self-harm to cope with her sister's death to running as a form of self harm to building herself (and her team) through running was compelling. Some of the bullying scenes were incredibly difficult to read. The mom's arc from alcoholism to recovery and building a more honest relationship with Scottie was also so well done.
Plus, with the running action and the mystery, I couldn't put it down.
So this was intense - both the subject matter and the ultra running stuff. It took me a bit to get into it, but by the end it was pretty compelling.
Content notes: intermittent harsh profanity and mature subject matter including bullying and physical/sexual assault. SUBJECT MATTER MAY BE INAPPROPRIATE FOR YOUNGER/SENSITIVE READERS.
Meh. Born Blue was one of my favorite novels back in the day, but I can’t find any of that original voice here. The dialogue is clunky, and the mystery revealed in information dumps by secondary characters. Very disappointing overall, but I did like the extreme running details.
This book should have come with hella trigger warnings, but I loved it. I first read Nolan's books when I was still a teenager, and I loved them so much that I've kept on reading well into adulthood.
I liked the moral of this story and the growth these characters went through after a trauma but, WTH was that ending??? We get no closure? No answer to why he did what he did to cait? No justice? What the heckins
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So many issues and a captivating read. Ultra running, running to heal grief and trauma,self harm, loss, alcoholic parent, sexual abuse, bullying, therapy, letting others in . . .
Running Past Aark is about a girl dealing with the death of her twin sister while almost everyone hates her because of what her and her sister did. When I first got it I was expecting it to be a horror book and in a way it was but it wasn't the creepy monster book I was expecting. I've read it twice now, and both times I could not put the book down. I only planned on reading it once but when I realized I didn't have any new books to read I immediatly picked this book back up. I think its been about a year since I last read it and I still find myself thinking about the book, especially whenever I touch water that is a bit too hot(you'll understand after you read it). I think that Running Past Dark is one of my favorite books. Whenever someone asks me what my favorite book is I usually say that I don't have one because I've read so many but in my mind I'm saying Running Past Dark.