活着活着就老了

by Feng Tang, 冯唐

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288 pages, Paperback

First published December 1, 2008

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[Barack Liu · Rating 4 out of 5]

151-Alive to be old-Feng Tang-Essays-2008
Barack
2018 / 01 / 01
2020/06/04


——Between the world of life, like a white horse crossing the gap, suddenly it's gone.

"Living Alive and Getting Old" was first published in China in 2008. It records the words that Feng and Tang sent with feelings, expressing the author's free, fashionable, avant-garde thoughts, sharp and humorous writing, both ridiculous and old-fashioned, rich in philosophy, often with amazing words, which can make readers laugh, but also Can give readers new enlightenment.

Feng Tang, formerly known as Zhang Haipeng. Born in Beijing in 1971. He studied at Peking Union Medical College and obtained a doctor of clinical medicine, majoring in gynecological oncology. He received an MBA from Emory University. Representative works: "All Things Grow", "Thirty-Sixth National Congress", "I'll Be Old When I Live", "Give Me a Girl at the Age of Eighteen", etc.

Part of the catalog
1. Those books
2. Those people
3. Those things
4. Those places

" No matter in terms of quality or quantity, Chinese novels and Western novels are not in the same heavyweight class as a whole. The modern American library selected the top 100 English novels of the 20th century, and the competition was enthusiastic, and it was impossible to settle down again and again. After that, Asia Weekly followed the trend and launched the top 100 Chinese novels of the 20th century. The dust settled soon. The heroes of all walks of life were scheduled to take the first place. Lu Xun’s "Scream" was the first, and the Er Yuehe "Yongzheng Emperor" was the 100th. read the news, I first want to feel happy, as if desperate to hear Tsinghua University Tsinghua University campus beauty elect a hundred, fourth began to feel silly looks like a strong woman. the second feeling miserable, " world without heroes , Fang made Zhuzi famous.” Third, I felt excited, as if Xiang Yu saw Ying Zheng sitting and shopping, “He can take his place”. I told my mother my feelings, and my mother said, you can’t change it. After so many years, my opinion is still the same as Lu Xun’s original opinion: If you like novels, read more foreign novels, read less or not read Chinese. There are two reasons for the low level of Chinese novels. The first is that the Chinese characters are too clear. briefly, it is difficult to bear weight. The second is the Chinese literati Jeunet outside the village, does not suffer. "

In fact, I do not agree with this view. Feng Tang here may mainly refer to Chinese vernacular novels. Compared with the history of vernacular novels in classical Chinese , the history of vernacular novels can simply be called "the fire of candles, and dare to compete with the sun and the moon . " The use of vernacular Chinese is only about 100 years old. And during this period of time China has experienced many turbulences. At certain moments , literati dare not write at all, cannot write, and are not allowed to write. Use vernacular novels as a product of this special environment. Ignore the classical Chinese vernacular novels accumulated over two thousand years in China . Isn't it ridiculous ?

" Fiction reading is not high or low. It is a funny thing to rank art. If you imagine a piece of ripe waxy orange amber against a pee in the snow , it can only show that your skill is extraordinary. If you like it The last girl who was deaf and mute felt that she did not lack anything. Other women either spoke too viciously or were too narrow-minded, which can only show that you are a lover. "

The so-called literature has no first and Wu has no second. Art cannot be ranked . But there are indeed good and bad points in the general sense. And this kind of pros and cons can be distinguished by most readers . A book that can infect many ordinary readers, we have reason to believe that it is better than those books that cannot resonate with most readers.

"The writing of a novel is not important, the structure is not important, and the talent is not important. The most important thing in a novel is to let you feel the touch of life. Just like a girl, the most important thing is to let you experience love and hear hormones in your veins. Make noises or heartbeats. Until I read a sufficient number of good novels, I don’t believe in any ghosts or ghosts. However, good novels simply use black and white to inject the life experience of an author thousands of years ago into mine without any effort. Life, let me experience the immortal touch of life. I began to doubt the existence of the soul. "

" So behind closed doors, so to study, so reread plus Bartholomew 's" Plague Plague, "the story takes place in 1941 in a small town in North Africa". ": After a plague in Oran somehow coming, raging about it, but somehow leave One called Bernard • in Ecuador how doctors and his comrades face of death. everything strangely similar. "April 16 morning, Bernard • when the doctor came out of his Rehab clinic at the stairs A dead mouse kicked in the middle. "It was also April. After that, it also experienced several stages of shock, denial, anger and depression. "

In 2003, Feng Tang studied behind closed doors because of SARS. In 20 years, I also studied behind closed doors because of the new crown. Sometimes history is always an amazing coincidence. But he read the "plague" and other books , and I spent from two 0 Year 0 1 Yue 0 6 Yue six months time to read during the master's diploma 2 60 books and re-read it again.

"When I think of going to medical school, an old professor of internal medicine said to us: "Don't think that modern medicine is omnipotent. Even a small pneumonia will make a comeback. "When he said this, it was ten years ago. Behind his glasses, I saw an instant flash of light. After that, it was the correct and tedious preaching: The virus is always there, not everyone has it. Just like pretty girls are there all the time, not everyone feels temptation. "So, you must learn to be in awe and do something. Do things like an abyss, like walking on thin ice. "I think this also applies to people who have four legs who eat except for the bench. "

In the 17 years from 2003 to 20 years, medicine can be said to have made considerable progress. But even so, when the new crown appeared, people still seemed stretched. The more touching the stories that occurred during the epidemic, the more it illustrates that human beings are unable to cope with such things. A matter that is under control, how can there be too ups and downs in the plot , it often seems monotonous or even boring.

" In those simple, clean and beautiful past years, the richest erotic education came from books. The first is Chinese textbooks. The teacher talked about Jia Yi, "Guo Qin Lun", Zhen Chang Tse and Yu Nei, said that policy is a whip, long policy It's a long whip. The bad boy in our class took the stubble and said, "I can't handle the whip. " Xue Xia Yan 's "Bao Shen Gong", "Urination loudly on the toilet less than a foot away from someone's head", "Get up half naked Open the door and grab the trousers to fight for the toilet." The bad boy in our class told me that he didn't realize the miserable life of the contract workers. He closed his eyes and imagined, feeling very lustful.

The second is ancient books. Simplified publishing mess horizontal, necessarily abridged version, delete Devon gas full cut, a rabbit, have been cut chicken chicken is good, the result of the tail and ears have not been let go. Of the 20 volumes of Li Yu's complete works, three of them are Li Yu's commentary on Jin Pingmei, which is so abridged that it has almost become a quotation text such as the Analects. The first omission I found was a copy of Sanyan Erpai by Shanghai Ancient Books Publishing House . Because of the photocopying, it was not abridged. Because it was expensive (hard-covered binding, a set of five copies), bad boys couldn’t afford it and only veterans could afford it. So I didn't delete it . What Jin Hailing wanted to die, and what Sui Yang Emperor Yiyou Zhao condemned were all there.

I told my mother that I want to buy a photocopy in a few words. My mother asked, why? I said, learn ancient Chinese. My mother asked, why not buy "Annotation to the Thirteen Classics" for learning ancient Chinese. I said that Chinese has a process of evolution from ancient times to middle ancient times , from ancient times to middle ancient times, the Book of Songs, pre-Qin prose, Han Fu, Tang poems, Song Ci, Yuan Qu, Ming and Qing novels. That is, Ming and Qing novels. My mother asked, why not buy the cheap simplified paperback version? I said that if you want the original flavor, Yang Guifei wearing a hurdle vest with the words " labor pacemaker" can't seduce An Lushan and Li Taibai. My mother said, okay, I'll give you 50 yuan, my monthly salary, don't lose it.

Benefits ancient read more, I know traditional characters, I read the ancient Chinese do not look up, and I know that chick chicken more than thirty kinds of nicknames, I looked at the traditional characters of ancient Chinese hard up, I do not Worried about the Chinese exam. The downside is that the brain is broken, believe in karma, believe that sex is harmful to health, believe that masturbation is extremely sinful. "

" After thirty people, the world has become clear. It is found that entrepreneurs are basically liars and scientists are basically fools. The ideals of the past have gradually disappeared. The only unrealistic idea is that I will write ten novels in this life. One is a yellow book, I think, this merit is infinite. "

When I was in high school, I bought a copy of "Three Words and Two Beats" in a bookstore by chance . When read read Hailing the king of that chapter . I felt restless after reading. Deeply ashamed. So he ran outdoors , lit the book with a fire and burned it down .

" Labor Lawrence is one can hear thunder in the silent office (Kundera is another). One of the greatest tragedy is not in the outside world, not the earthquake, the tsunami is not, but in his heart. Labor before dying himself Lawrence His life is summed up as: A savage enough pilgrimage (a cruel pilgrimage). Perhaps it is this kind of suffering, this kind of demanding that will never let go of one's own soul, which created the power of words. The most unbearable thing for Chinese literati is the heart Suffering, stressing love, poetry and wine, internal and external Confucianism, peace of mind is the most important thing. Perhaps, the difference between the article, the difference between Chinese and English, is the difference between people in the end. But I believe without reason, any kind of text If you don’t endure hardship, you don’t experience suffering, and you can’t write about bitterness, a writer will never become a master. "

" I yearn for his superpowers. Thousands of years after my death, through my words, my soul entangled an equally dark and thin unknown boy, making him feel like a knife, and his chest swelled. At that time, I began to practice my The text, spread out on 400-character page of manuscript paper, light green, produced by the printing plant of Beijing Tram Company, and the pen moved on the paper. I saw the red fire in the alchemy furnace, and the elixir-like text beads were round and jade. These texts will live forever. I sat black and thin in front of the table, with more bones and less meat than a handful of firewood. On the firewood was a red alchemy furnace. My writing had almost nothing to do with me. In an instant, I was a medium, just like ancient times. The wizard, the so-called heaven, transmits a certain sound through these media. My words have their own will, which in turn determines my actions and thoughts. When the words come out like an elixir, I am exhausted, I feel awe, and I have my heart. I am grateful. I feel a power that is far greater than my body and myself. When words pour out like rubbish, I am exhausted, my body is like ashes, and my life is rubbish. "

" If man is a kind of wine glass, life is the wine contained in this wine glass. There are two kinds of people in this world who know how to experience life. The first kind of people who know how to experience life lifted the glass gently, in the wind and flowers In the snow and the moon, slowly tasting the wine in the glass while the lover’s smirk , the years are merciless, and when the wine runs out, people will quietly disappear. Such people include Tao Qian, Xiao Du, Li Yu, and Ji Yun . The second kind of people who know how to appreciate life, grabbed the cup and drank it, yelled, "Good wine." Then threw the cup and made a loud sound. Such people include Jing Ke, Huo Qubing, Haizi, and Sanmao. .

However, there are more of the third kind of people in this world, ordinary people. They earn no more and no less salaries and do not important work. In the office are vulgar section chiefs and female colleagues who do not have any evil thoughts about him. When I got off work, I saw my wife with Chai Rice, Oil, Salt, Sauce and Vinegar Tea and his son who was sleepy during the day while sleeping at night. A certain proportion of car accidents, impotence and premature ejaculation, sexual intercourse 0.8 times a week. The wine in the glass evaporates slowly, I can't think of drinking it, and I don't know how to drink it. When the wine is gone, there is no need for the cup, as if the oil ran out and the light went out. So people who are unwilling to be ordinary begin to look forward to a fresh life, longing for rare indulgence, at least hope to read another kind of life in the book, and understand the life that people have. So there are martial arts novels, Jin Daxia and Gu Daxia. "

" Even if the text is rotten, it is like a girl you are used to day by day. If you meditate and experience it carefully, there is absolutely no lack of beauty. For example, the "ecstasy" used by UHF in Song Ci: no need to "break", no need to "damage" , And use "pin", it is slow, secret, but unstoppable, unforgettable! It is not "bone", not "meat", but "soul", the soul is gone , what is left? What's the meaning of those? There are also poems. These three-character vocabulary used by ci writers without a little attention, when you think about it carefully, they are all wonderful words with sentiment, scenery and context: lotus leaf cup, phoenix shadow, dot Crimson lips, like a dream...

[Jaime Zhang · Rating 4 out of 5]

其实早就读完了只是忘记了更新。是一本闲暇之余可以看的好书。

[Annie Yang-Perez · Rating 3 out of 5]

冯唐确实有点才，看他的游记和对自己内心本真的追忆最过瘾，常能令人恍惚间瞥见漫天繁星、听见鸟鸣花落、感受流水蔓藤拂过指尖继续流淌生长，能在现实俗世之中僻出一处鸟鸣涧、桃花源，任想像疯长。然而也许俗世缠身久了，笔力不及，他这种送人上天入地的能力只能闪现，好像林间的斑驳阳光，无法连点成片成面成汪洋大海成山巅白雪。你能窥见他一颗温润柔嫩像花苞静静绽放一般纯真美好的真心，金子般闪耀，然而毕竟包裹在浑浊的皮囊里，竟然只有微光偶现了。

[Xialin · Rating 3 out of 5]

在机场买的，翻了几篇觉得一般。但昨天重新翻开又读了几篇，好像还有些许意思。