I loved the writing style of the author, captivated by her story. She parses the history of Cuba and the revolution in appropriate places to bolster the narrative. Exquisite story.
More than 3 decades ago, I spent 6 months teaching modern dance in Cuba.
vuelve (come back)
Martha Graham - brilliant, temperamental, most revered choreographer
Her quest for a body language that reflected the deepest inner conflicts and the way she used gesture and movements to stage great myths, centering them on the internal universe of a single woman -- Medea, Joan of Arc, Eve, all of them ultimately Martha herself in any case -- brought her admirers and disciples from all the arts.
Merce Cunningham - elegant, alert and unfailingly courteous. avant-garde. the modest, unassuming way he had one day taken his leave of Martha’s company where he had been a principal dancer. Without any rhetorical fuss he left behind the obsession with passion and narrative that was characteristic of Martha and her disciples; the use of dramaturgy as the connecting thread of choreography; and rhythmic music that guided the dancers’ movements like a tambourine leading a trained bear in a circus. Instead he chose to pursue the meandering paths of abstraction, chance and Zen philosophy. Yet his avante-garde experiments never interfered with the technical perfection and extraordinary refinement of his choreography. In his own way, he was a classicist.
John Cage’s delightful “prepared piano”
Those who left Martha’s studio for Merce’s were attracted to that Apollonian temperament, which demanded concentration and intensity but rejected drama.
We would go off to class in search of the miracle that would fulfill all our desires. Look at me. say I’m beautiful, say I’m for you. Choose me. Let me dance in your company.
Graciela Figueroa. She was the only woman friend I had who read Søren Kierkegaard and Theodor Adorno, and for years, against all logic, I was convinced that Julio Cortázar had based the character of La Maga in his Hopscotch on her. She was from Uruguay, penniless. -- introduced Alma to Twyla Tharp
Elaine went from one brief disaster to another, with length recovery periods in between. Graciela lived through a series of agitated experiences that, since she was Graciela, went far beyond the mere problem of male-female relations and became philosophical inquiries, repostulations of the very nature of love that always left her drained and bewildered.
No one ever asked me then, and I don’t know if I myself understood that I had a life that was not only extraordinary but real -- the kind of life that doesn’t happen by accident but is put together only slowly and with effort.
My political attitude toward the world I lived in, if I had one at all, was, I believe, a mixture of sincere elements of antiauthoritarianism, anticlericalism, horror of torture, revulsion at social inequality, defense of animals, terror of any type of violence, and distrust of anything related to big business, especially advertising. To me, this was the attitude of a revolutionary, as I felt I was in art. But my deepest conviction, so deep I would never have been able to articulate it, was perfectly elitist: I had no doubt that we artists were the highest form of human life. That conviction justified my existence.
It had never occurred to me that I had a moral obligation to protest against injustice. I’d never once imagined that I belonged to a wider community that than of my friends and fellow dancers.
zafra -- Zafra de los Diez Millones, or Ten Million Ton Harvest
sugarcane - to allow the Revolution to settle its debts to the Soviet Union and generate a surplus. Cuba would be able to finance its own development and free itself from what was becoming an alarming dependence on Soviet aid. Fidel was to announce this great victory on July 26, 1970, the 17th anniversary of the Revolution (1953)
Martha: From the vagina, girls! Movement is born in the gut!
In Merce’s view, art has to resemble nature and nothing in nature is ever the same. So there must be varying approaches to the leg warm-ups...
Celia Cruz -- There’s never been anyone else like Celia
The rumba and son have a lot to do with whorehouses, the same way jazz was born in the New Orleans brothels. And both are music played by blacks. In Cuba, among the leaders of the Revolution and the intellectuals, there’s just as much racism as there was before among la gente decente -- because they’re all decente, if you want to know the truth.
Havana: This is a city that never loses its refinement. From the slums of Santos Suárez to the crumbling buildings of Old Havana, it’s always elegant.
The USA - They’ve got us by the small hairs, said Boris - making a precise illustrative gesture with both hands. He shared with the majority of his compatriots an inexhaustible lewdness.
He was living his life in earnest, and I hadn’t found that very often outside the dance world. I valued his work as a poet (Adrian), and nothing seemed more manly to me at that point in my life than his peculiar lack of superficiality, conformism or duplicity.
una flor da una flor - a flower from a flower
Coño is a common Spanish idiom expression (somewhat vulgar) primarily used in Spain and the Spanish Caribbean - fuck or damnit. literally “cunt”
Stillness - an absolute quietude, growing out of a harmonious position of the body. It was futile. It make no sense to seek stillness in the middle of a Revolution.
In the same newsreel: images of dead Vietnamese, burned alive by napalm, of children fleeing their thatch-roof homes in terror. I had just discovered was that Evil wasn’t something that existed only in that prehistory before I was born. I had lived alongside Evil -- and in willful ignorance of it! It existed with my complicity and bloomed because I had allowed it to. Very small children were dying while I went on living, effortlessly and painlessly, and I hadn’t done so much as raise my voice in protest.
I’m everyone now, too.
Angel Castro was a gruff man without pretensions or refinements. The Castros worked hard. Angel was a determined poverty-stricken Spaniard who first came to the island in the 1890s as a soldier with the Spanish royalist troops. A few years later he returned, seeking better fortune than that offered by life as a farmhand in his native Galicia. He rented some land in the province of Oriente, at the opposite end of the island from Havana, and began growing sugarcane. By renting and then buying, he became rich. When Fidel was born, about 300 families, many of them Haitian, lent Don Angel their labor in exchange for a conuco, a plot of land on his ranch on which to grow their own sustenance. Nevertheless, the Galician was neither a man of leisure nor an oligarch. There were no luxuries on the finca, and the Castros worked hard.
Angel married and had 2 kids with a country schoolteacher. As time went by, he fell in love with a laundress name Lina Ruz. From that love affair, 7 more children were born: Angela, Ramón, Agustina, Emma, Juana, Fidel and his younger brother, Raúl. Fidel was said to have a bad temper.Heir to a certain fortune, educated in the best schools of Santiago and Havana, tall and good-looking, the young Fidel was out of control and somewhat eccentric. A parvenu (a person from usually a low social position who has recently or suddenly become wealthy, powerful, or successful but who is not accepted by other wealthy)
He participated in a popular insurrection in Colombia, and a failed attempt to overthrow the Dominican dictator Rafael Leónidas Trujillo. Fidel transformed his affinity to violence into a fundamental ideological conviction: that armed struggle alone can bring about meaningful social change.
Carlos: It’s just that we’re still living like consumers of culture here. Why do we have to be given everything? Why don’t we produce it ourselves? Right now we should be exercising our right to creativity, maybe writing a play or rehearsing. But we’re all a bunch of comemierdas who produce less and less -- who know why? Obviously, our inner resources are withering away.
Few women had any influence, but Fidel owed those few a great deal.
Vilma Lucila Espín was a Cuban revolutionary, feminist and chemical engineer. She acted as a messenger when the guerrillas were hiding in the Sierra Maestra. Celia Sánchez was messenger, intermediary, secretary, organizer, adviser, and wife. When Fidel went into exile and traveled to Mexico in May 1955, he returned to Cuba on Dec 2, 1956 aboard the yacht Gramna (named after the original owner’s grandmother) and in the company of Che Guevara. Celia rejoined him in the Sierra Maestra. Two year later, on 1 Jan 1959, the rebel army under the command of Fidel, occupied the capital city. It was the greatest moment of euphoria in the history of the Cuban Revolution.
Compañero, women must always be given what they want! [compañero = person of equal status]
I had always tried to apprentice myself to the geniuses… I didn’t yet know how very easy it would be to find another teacher, so I was interested in keeping this one, for my doubts were multiplying.
Tupamaros: hyperintellectual, improbable, rigorous, crazy
an abundance of philosophy and literature students normally swell the ranks of militant movement, but also doctors and engineers.
I returned obsessively to my eternal questions: Who was I? Who could I be?
“Well, it does a lot for me when you make me laugh, and when you’re quiet and you listen.”
Roque Dalton was assassinated in El Salvador - star-crossed and impassioned intellectual that he was
asked the question of revolutionary coherence - Is it possible to be an intellectual outside the Revolution?
I’ll diligently apply the whip to myself, if you’ll acknowledge some value to my existence or at least, allow me to go on existing. But the margins for negotiation were narrow, for the truth is that at the very moment when Roque Dalton and his colleagues were debating the question of whether spilling their blood or sacrificing their calling was the best way of contributing to the Revolution, that same Revolution had already managed to dispense with them almost entirely.
Ya Te Aviso -- I’m Warning You