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It’s the big question. Where do we go, when it’s all over?
What happens to all that unfinished business?

At 20:08, Detective Ian Gisbon is murdered.
At the same instant as he dies, on the other side of the country, Suzan Halford is born.
Nobody could guess that locked in her head is the key to unmasking Ian's killer.

All Suzan has to do is grow up and remember it.

Before she’s aware of her knowledge, a chance discovery sets an unstoppable chain of events in motion, and Suzan's life spirals out of control.

What’s happening is impossible, it’s destroying her family. And driving her crazy.

There's only one person she can turn to, the only one who can help. But they’ve been gone for years. Finding them will mean that justice can finally be done.

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Profile Image for M.J. Mallon.
Author 18 books227 followers
April 21, 2023
Great idea, very inventive story, don't think I've ever read anything quite like it before! Characters are intriguing.

I've been privileged to read a number of Richard's novels and there are a great variety ranging from crime capers, fantasy, sci-fi, etc, whatever he writes I am always impressed by his breadth of imagination and great character building.

This is so different! Imagine the trauma when you realise you are not dead, but are stuck in the mind of newborn baby girl!

This is a murder mystery crime thriller extraordinaire! Detective Ian Gisbon knows who the killer is but how can he convey this? Cry? Scream?

It is frustrating, to be a part of this other person's life and she is female... so he remains in her head for years... growing and shaping her as she gets older. Hoping one day to bring justice.

Great read, which I beta read. Fab.

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Author 11 books144 followers
September 3, 2023
This is a very different story. It begins with the fatal stabbing of Detective Ian Gibson while he was on a stakeout, and a simultaneous birth of Suzan. It seems the good detective’s soul was instantly reincarnated into Suzan’s body – and mind. A very clever plot whereby the dead detective’s soul is living alongside Suzan’s, within her, making this exciting read both a crime mystery with a twist of paranormal.

As Suzan grows, we get narration from Ian who, despite his soul getting stuck in Suzan, seems to have his own thoughts and agenda while ‘trapped’ in Suzan’s life. Ian is still determined to close the crime he was working on when he was murdered by same murderer he was seeking.

As the story develops, and as Suzan grows into a young girl, she begins having weird dreams that are actually Ian’s memories of the crime scene. Her parents begin to worry about her with all this new ‘research’ she’s been doing on Ian Gibson as she is driven to find out what happened to the detective whom she is sure of his ghost living inside her. Enough to drive anyone mad!

Suzan sees a newspaper article of Ian’s killing and begins having strange dreams about the night Ian was killed and who killed him. She doesn’t want to share her unease with anyone for fear they’ll think she’s crazy. As a young teen a chain of unfortunate events begins to unfold, an accident kills her father, and her and her mother have no choice but to leave the cozy farm and good neighbors behind as they move to a new town.

Suzan finds herself lonely and confused in her new home, and with having to leave her best friend Peta behind and then being taken for psychological exam, she manages to get mixed up with the wrong crowd. She was then put on heavy medication to quash her inner madness while still unaware of why this person who lives in her head persists to talk to her and asks for her help finding his killer.

Ian asks Suzan to go visit his widowed and newly remarried wife Beth, and retrieve a box with evidence he hid there. Of course, Suzan had her work cut out for her at first convincing Beth she isn’t a psychopath knocking on her door. Suzan then tells her mom she wants to go visit Peta and spend a few days with her. Once there, Suzan spills the beans to Peta about all that has been going on in her head, Ian, and her mission to go to retrieve evidence. Good friend Peta happily agrees to help her. And not long after they retrieve the box, the evil heats up and Suzan and Peta ultimately come face to face with Ian’s henchmen who work for Harold Malvis, the killer.

There’s some good suspense to keep us turning the pages in anticipation to discover how the girls will escape their fatal destiny, and then again when they are caught and brought directly to the killer. No spoilers!! A great read that kept me turning the pages.
51 reviews3 followers
July 3, 2023
An extraordinary page-turner that keeps you on the edge constantly

I have read a number of Richard Dee’s books over the years and I have always been extremely impressed by the literary landscape and world building this author creates. I remember everything is no different. It is a superb example of storytelling at its very best. A complex and at times disturbing book that held me rapt, enchanted and at times quite angry. It’s a book you read and absorb. It stays with you. Makes you question what you understand about life and death, and holds you captured in its magical spell. For this is a truly magical book. By the way it handles the subject of possession by a spirit or mind energy – a subject that has been addressed in other books and films – is extraordinary. With its well-drawn characters, colorful descriptions and a highly unique and affecting plot line, this is a book delivers an incredible read.

The two central characters Ian Gibson and Suzanne Halford are unusual in that both characters are within one person. The premise starts with a person waking up but realising they are in the body of another. That person is policeman, Ian Gibson, who was murdered by crime lord Harold Malphis at the exact moment when Suzan Halford was being born. Gibson soul or spirit force was somehow transferred into Suzan’s body or more accurately her mind and remains there throughout her childhood and formative years to early adulthood.

The book’s treatment of such a mind shattering occurrence is both genuine and from a psychological point of view very authentic. It is clear that such an event of discovering you have a person in your own mind for a child is not so damaging as if it were to suddenly happen to an adult. For a child’s mind is much more susceptible to imagination. Although the premise of having Gibson’s mind inside of Suzan’s mind may seem, by a reader to be extremely strange. The fact that his mind was installed whilst she was a baby and all she had ever known was his voice inside her head, and thus, over the years she naturally accepted this as being normal. It is only when she started to get older that she started to question what was going on and by her close relationship with Peta, her best friend did she realise that having a man’s voice in her head was not natural, and from that point her life started to unravel.

As I read more into the book, I started to feel a certain dislike to Ian Gibson. That may be unfair, as he was murdered and taken from his family much too soon in his life, however, he had a singular obsession to take down Malphis, his murderer at almost any cost. It’s obvious that Gibson was a good man, but his rage at betrayal and his need for retribution overshadowed the fact that he was manipulating the mind of a young girl. By this act, despite his drive for right and good, the character of Gibson was shown to be very flawed. In many ways, Gibson’s logic had left him, perhaps as a result of his brutal demise, and it would seem, at times, a form of insanity took over, such was his insistence at Suzan to pursue the investigation and locate the killer Malphis. Replaying graphic scenes of his murder in the mind of Suzan as a young child, had a tremendously negative effect on Suzan. At first, she’d thought they were only nightmares but as she entered teenage-hood she came to understand there was much more to her night terrors then she could ever have believed. Despite what had happened to Gibson, he should not have done this to someone so psychologically immature. It is often with Mr Dee’s characters that their personalities are sometimes questionable, and they adopt a form of anti-hero. This is definitely the case for Gibson.

Mr Dee’s writing is emotionally charged, depicting the life of a lovely young girl, who had an idyllic and homely life with her parents on a farm, who suddenly and unexpectedly, had to handle immense tragedy and loss. Had Gibson not selfishly revealed too much of last minutes of life, thereby influencing Suzan to focus and obsess on the criminal Malphis and the murder of a policeman that happened years before, she would not have experienced so much pain and anguish in her life. By the time Suzan enters adulthood Gibson had already realized his mistake, but by then the damage to Suzan’s life has already been done.

There is something else about Mr Dee’s writing, and that is an honest need to want to discover what ‘else’ is there? A metaphysical question that is embodied in I remember Everything, ‘where do we go?’ At points in the book, this question is assessed objectively, although an assertion is also made about the possibility of people everywhere have voices within their minds that are the souls of dead people who still were tethered to this world, due to unresolved issues, just like Gibson. From this reader's point of view, this is quite a concept, and one I haven't heard of before. Perhaps, it may give rise to further books from Mr Dee's writing stable!

As with all Mr Dee’s books, the storyline is peppered with metaphors, and analogous parallels. Such as the almost parasitic nature of Gibson’s relationship to Suzan, and his ability to influence and drive the ‘host’, thus stimulating a dependency position for Suzan, mirroring drug addiction, a dealer’s greed and their obsessive nature to control an addicts life. It is thus, rather ironic that Gibson, who, originally was a good guy trying to put away people, such as drug lords and crime bosses like Malphis, developed such an unhealthy, addictive and obsessive relationship with Suzan. Many readers may say, he had no choice in the matter, as he – or rather his soul – ended up in Suzan’s mind, but even then, he could have tempered his volatile, incendiary thoughts, especially knowing that he was in a young girls mind.

If Gibson is an anti-hero, Peta is definitely a heroine. I really liked Peta from the moment she is introduced, and I found her a balancing force in Suzan’s life. Her common sense, but unshockable nature is refreshing and heart-warming, and the reader can see Peta is a sturdy rock that Suzan can cling to when she needs to. The fact she welcomes Suzan in to her London home, even after many years apart with virtually no communication between them, only serves to underline the unwavering friendship the girls have, and the strength Peta has as a woman. That strength, as the book’s denouement approaches, turns into extraordinary bravery, as Mr Dee’s writing encapsulates a forward thinking, feisty woman, who is unafraid despite an untenable situation.

Again, Mr Dee has scribed an outstanding book that tackles complex and often uncomfortable subject matter with stark clarity and visceral story-telling, delivering a page-turning thriller that is frankly, breath-taking, and for this reason, it has my highest recommendation. Just read it, you won’t be sorry!
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Author 96 books78 followers
February 10, 2023
Richard Dee generally writes science fiction, so in the opening pages of a novel about a police detective who has just been murdered, I was looking for the twist. Had his brain been uploaded into a computer? Is he a clone? Or in an android body? What I did not expect was that he had been reborn into the body of an infant little girl. And what I really didn’t expect was that that little girl would be growing up with this dead man in her head. It’s a fascinating premise and one which I think Dee explores very well.

The actual plot is interesting too. The dead detective wants justice—which also means vengeance—on the man who murdered him. To get it, he’s going to have to wait a long time, as the girl grows up and discovers there are some big disadvantages to having someone else living in your body—especially when friends and family find out. But slowly, as she gets older, it becomes possible to start investigating the murder of this man. There are a lot of surprises along the way, and I found it all very satisfying.
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Author 9 books71 followers
July 2, 2023
When Ian Gisbon is murdered Suzan is born at the exact same moment. By some freak Ian somehow reborn in Suzans mind.
As she grew there was always something different about Suzan, she started off as a difficult baby and her first word made no sense. However as she grew she calmed and was way ahead of her peers at school. Ian, who was Dave in her head, guided her as much as he could. A rainy day and discovery of a memory box starts off a series of events neither Ian or Suzan can stop.
One constant in Suzans life was Peta, on of my favourite characters. They had one of those truly special unique childhood friendships and she was still there for her friend.
I loved the sense of friendship often being stronger than family. I love the talk of ripples as well. How one action has many impacts along the way.
This was such a cool, unique, intriguing story. I read it in one go, I couldn't put it down. This is the first I've read by this author but won't be the last.
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1,409 reviews58 followers
June 20, 2023
At the exact time that policeman, Ian Gisbon is murdered by Harold Malvis, Suzan Halford is born.

Ian Gisbon realises that he is in Suzan’s head and until she’s 12, he helps her to get ahead in her schoolwork. That all changes when he shows Suzan in her dreams what happened to him.

As a young child, it was too much and she couldn’t cope, which caused a ripple effect. Ian cannot go anywhere until he brings Malvis to justice.

Wow! This is an amazing and interesting read. I have never read a book like this before and I know it’s one that will stay with me.

I loved the friendship between Suzan and Peta. Even when there had been no contact for years, they were there again for each other.

A great concept and a unique idea. This is the first book that I have read by the author and I look forward to reading more.
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Author 12 books13 followers
March 17, 2023
That little voice in your head telling you to read this book... listen to it!

I loved this new release from Richard Dee. A unique story that keeps you hooked throughout.

At the same time a Detective is murdered a young girl is born. Detective Ian Gibson's consciousness is transferred into Suzan Halford's body and there it remains, watching over the young girl until she is old enough to help him uncover the truth, catch a killer, and bring about justice.

The ending was bittersweet but satisfying and the pace we pitch perfect throughout.
Another success for Richard Dee and I suspect not the last!

5 stars - highly recommend!!!!
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Author 52 books53 followers
January 23, 2024
‘I Remember Everything’ is a fascinating psychological thriller from the pen of Devon author Richard Dee.
The story is woven around the lives of the two main characters, Suzan and Ian. Dee’s portrayal of Suzan growing up in Devon and the trauma she overcomes is both tender and sensitive. While the mixed emotions of Ian, a good man whose life was cut short too soon, as he tries to protect Suzan while finding justice, jumps out from the pages of the novel.
‘I Remember Everything’ has a great many twists and surprises. The plot is wonderful and keeps you guessing until the very end of the story.
I highly recommend this novel to everyone who enjoys crime, thrillers, and science fiction.
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Author 29 books209 followers
August 7, 2023
I've read several books by Richard Dee, and I think this is my favourite (so far!). It starts with a birth, and as the story unfolds, an unsolved crime is revealed. Intriguing and full of suspense, bit by bit the story is pieced together, keeping you gripped until the end.

I can't say too much about the story without ruining a few surprises, but it's a well-written book with plenty of twists, and an enjoyable read - one I highly recommend.
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Author 5 books29 followers
March 1, 2023
Just as he feels the last of his life ebbing away Detective Ian Gisbon locks away the name of his murderer. At the very same moment, a little girl is born, Suzan Halford. Ian is aware of his continued existence, and the knowledge of who his killer is. But trapped in the mind of a baby girl, his ability to follow leads and hunt down the killer is severely hampered. What follows is a trail of devastation and broken families through a second life and pursuit of justice.

Over the years, having started with reading his Andorra Pett series, I’ve now read a range of Richard Dee’s books. These include cosy crime, hard sci-fi and fantasy. I Remember Everything is something different yet again. At its heart, it’s a crime thriller. We know from the word go the identity of the killer. Which is odd for a mystery thriller. We often don’t find out the identity of the killer until the very end of the book. The thing that sets this apart is the inability to actively act on this information. And the fact that he had to find a way to communicate with the person whose body he inhabits without triggering concerns for her or those around her makes for an interesting concept.

Throughout the book the character development is fantastic. We have Suzan maturing from a baby, through childhood, teens and young adulthood. At the same time, we have Ian, so used to being able to say and do as he pleases now constrained – the mind of a middle-aged man, husband and father whose speech and physical abilities are tied to those of the body he inhabits. The story is fast-paced, at no point feeling like it languishes in the growth of Suzan. It’s filled with drama, heartbreak, regret and redemption. A fantastic read with a wonderful story running all the way through
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Author 9 books28 followers
August 29, 2023
An intriguing, absorbing story like nothing I have ever read. Imagine you see your life flashing before you and then the next thing you know is you’re dead… only to wake up in the mind of a new born baby! Your voice screams for justice, knowing you’ve just been murdered, but all you can do is cry? But can you also imagine what it’s like for the child growing up?

Susan has sense she is not alone, but who does the voice in her head belong to and what is it trying to tell her? As Susan reaches school age, she confides in her close friend, Peta. Then one day the girls stumble across a memory box in the attic - things Susan’s parents stashed away on the date she was born, including a newspaper from that day - but reading the story of a young police detective killed in action causes flashbacks and so the chilling truth starts to emerge.

Detective Ian Gibson remembers everything, including the moment he took his last breath. As a growing child, however, Susan finds this hard to process, until a tragic incident changes everything. Leaving home, she goes off the rails, suffers terrible mental problems and gets into drink and drugs. The drugs she is prescribed though, suppress Ian’s soul, rendering him speechless.

But as the years roll by, how can this murder be resolved? And as Ian’s killer gets closer, threatening all who stand in his path, including Susan and her friend, it is a race against time for redemption. I have read several novels by this author, (mainly sci-fi and futuristic fiction), and this one is quite different. Love, friendship, betrayal, loss and revenge all feature in this well-written gripping thriller.
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1,226 reviews12 followers
May 23, 2023
Wow, what an interesting book to read.  It is so different from what I usually read. I loved it and could not put it down. When Susan was born, Ian was killed at the same instant. Somehow his soul enters Susan. He needs her help with getting revenge against his killer. Susan is such a likeable character and she has such a great friendship in Peta. I received an ARC of "I Remember Everything" and I am voluntarily leaving a review.
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3,392 reviews85 followers
September 7, 2023
Set aside a full day for this fast-paced PG contemporary supernatural murder mystery set in England where Susan Halford is born at the moment Detective Ian Gisbon dies. I had an ARC via Bookfunnel and this is my voluntary review. 5*
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