We are among the Expelled, evicted from our original childhood happiness for an uneasy edginess.
We try to gainsay our paltry estate to those we love, but resistance is futile. We have seen our Shadow and he is us. And here we thought ourselves successful graduates of the lower and more knotty chambers of Dis. We thought we were free.
It is no use arguing with this trumped tramp. He IS his own nothingness.
Then, a shaft of sunlight. We have found our mirror selves in a hall of mirrors: Beckett’s Reject. Should be a happy occasion, right? It would be, if we could extricate our minds from its ragged dregs.
It seemed an endless day for us. First the expulsion. Then the calmative: that Balm of Gilead, proffered broken compassion for our Lostness, that aimless cab ride to the Zoo and brief final rest in a Manger for Emaciated Beasts, presaging Jesus’ salvation through crucifixion offered to us expelled ones.
Is it time for Salvation from Human Misery, then?
Later, later - not quite yet. For Dawn is breaking, and the Quest continues. We must go on, for we have no choice.
But we are now at one with our Unadorned Original Selves once again, our wailing selves long before our doting parents lavished upon us their bells, whistles and other gewgaws.
When we made the descent to our abject original basement with this expelled one, we thought we were free of ourselves and our worries.
Then our worries drove us to the Pit, where we saw ourselves as we once were when Expelled from our Mother’s Womb.
But we had lost ourselves before we started, these original selves…
Syllogism is forever cancelled out by another. Life is eternally circular. Being is borderless, the sum of contradictory syllogisms that don’t mesh. Our Being just IS.
So what are we going to do with these selves, now that we’ve found them and we’re free?
Do like me.
Read Beckett till the Cows come Home, to remind us of our Littleness.
The Self that is Expelled from illusion is forever perched on the Edge!
Dare we join him there?