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The Refuge #5
Deserving Lara
Callen “Owl” Kaufman thought dangerous missions were a thing of his past. As a former Night Stalker Army pilot he’d been in his share of dicey situations. But rescuing Lara Osler from a serial killer who’d become obsessed with her was definitely one of the most memorable. But now that she’s safe at The Refuge, and healing, Owl is having trouble hiding his feelings for her. But he’d never do anything that might make the strong yet vulnerable woman uncomfortable.
Kidnapped by a boyfriend? Check. Held against her will by a serial killer? Check. Falling in love with her rescuer? Triple check. Lara thought her life was over, but then her best friend showed up to save her with one of the most intriguing men she’d ever met. Owl is funny, considerate, and makes her feel safe. As time passes after her rescue, she becomes stronger…because of the man who opens his home to her, comforts her when she gets scared, and who encourages her to be exactly who she is.
But the serial killer is still out there, watching and waiting for his chance to steal back what he feels is his…Lara.
** Deserving Lara is the 5th book in the The Refuge Series. Each book is a stand-alone, with no cliffhanger endings.
Kidnapped by a boyfriend? Check. Held against her will by a serial killer? Check. Falling in love with her rescuer? Triple check. Lara thought her life was over, but then her best friend showed up to save her with one of the most intriguing men she’d ever met. Owl is funny, considerate, and makes her feel safe. As time passes after her rescue, she becomes stronger…because of the man who opens his home to her, comforts her when she gets scared, and who encourages her to be exactly who she is.
But the serial killer is still out there, watching and waiting for his chance to steal back what he feels is his…Lara.
** Deserving Lara is the 5th book in the The Refuge Series. Each book is a stand-alone, with no cliffhanger endings.
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Published February 6, 2024
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New York Times, USA Today, and Wall Street Journal Bestselling Author, Susan Stoker has a heart as big as the state of Tennessee where she lives, but this all American girl has also spent the last fourteen years living in Missouri, California, Colorado, Indiana, and Tennessee. She's married to a retired Army man who now gets to follow her around the country.
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May 15, 2024
4.5⭐️ These two were so adorable! 😍
I am foaming at the mouth for Stone’s story!! October cannot come soon enough.
I am foaming at the mouth for Stone’s story!! October cannot come soon enough.
April 2, 2024
I loved seeing Lara come back to herself in this one, loved how patient Owl was with her and how both realized their feelings changed. It was good that Lara made the first move, on the advice of all the girls, because Owl would never have. From there it was full speed ahead for them and it was great! Both of them deserved to find the happiness they did. It was fun to see how everyone else chimed in with their thoughts, always respectful of where Lara was in finding her new normal. Just having all that support seemed to help as she started to venture out in the world again.
Towards the end, what should have been a fun trip, went to hell fast. I'm glad that calm heads were kept as needed. I liked part of the outcome, hate the other. But at least now Lara and Owl can face their future with no threats.
On a side note, I loved the words that Lara had for Stone about the hotel room and about the dreams. Both were what he needed to hear and I know that when bad days come again, she will be there for him.
Towards the end, what should have been a fun trip, went to hell fast. I'm glad that calm heads were kept as needed. I liked part of the outcome, hate the other. But at least now Lara and Owl can face their future with no threats.
On a side note, I loved the words that Lara had for Stone about the hotel room and about the dreams. Both were what he needed to hear and I know that when bad days come again, she will be there for him.
February 10, 2024
2.5 Stars
February 7, 2024
Carter's reign of terror is still ongoing....
..but Lara is far stronger than she ever imagined and having Owl to support her only makes her stronger again.
Carter turns out to be more devious and depraved than they ever could imagine - and what they both experienced and imagined was horrific, but Lara and Owl are a formidable team and together they manage to rescue themselves....kinda! It is a roller coaster of emotions as we ride through Lara's spiralling and debilitating fears, her hopes as she faces those fears and then the crash as everything comes tumbling down around them and even Owl is worried as they face their worst nightmare. I love the two of them together and whilst Lara thinks the support is one way, she has given Owl a peace that nobody else has succeeded to provide, she stills his mind and provides him a safety that allows him to sleep. Something he never imagined was possible.
Whilst they are all pretty safe at The Refuge, they all seem to have enemies that just won't quit and they come back to haunt them far too regularly, but no matter how shaken, dinted and battered they are when they return The Refuge Family will support them as they heal and rebuild themselves and their defenses. We have to believe this for Stone's sake.
An emotional journey with unfinished plots that tie to books six and seven. I strongly suggest that if you have not read the rest of the series, you do so before reading this book, especially book four as the plots and character arcs are ongoing throughout the series and Carter who has targeted Lara is a character carried over from book four.
..but Lara is far stronger than she ever imagined and having Owl to support her only makes her stronger again.
Carter turns out to be more devious and depraved than they ever could imagine - and what they both experienced and imagined was horrific, but Lara and Owl are a formidable team and together they manage to rescue themselves....kinda! It is a roller coaster of emotions as we ride through Lara's spiralling and debilitating fears, her hopes as she faces those fears and then the crash as everything comes tumbling down around them and even Owl is worried as they face their worst nightmare. I love the two of them together and whilst Lara thinks the support is one way, she has given Owl a peace that nobody else has succeeded to provide, she stills his mind and provides him a safety that allows him to sleep. Something he never imagined was possible.
Whilst they are all pretty safe at The Refuge, they all seem to have enemies that just won't quit and they come back to haunt them far too regularly, but no matter how shaken, dinted and battered they are when they return The Refuge Family will support them as they heal and rebuild themselves and their defenses. We have to believe this for Stone's sake.
An emotional journey with unfinished plots that tie to books six and seven. I strongly suggest that if you have not read the rest of the series, you do so before reading this book, especially book four as the plots and character arcs are ongoing throughout the series and Carter who has targeted Lara is a character carried over from book four.
February 7, 2024
So I went a little out of order by jumping straight to this book but you know I was anxiously awaiting the release of this one! And it was so worth the wait!
This book picks up right where Cora's book left off. Lara has been rescued and she's attached herself to Owl as her security blanket. We're starting this book a few months after her rescue I believe and she's still sticking to him like glue. But there's more brewing under the surface not just on her side, but his too. Of course, I love Lara's strength in this book. She's finally starting to heal from her ordeal and taking things into her own hands by taking the lead with Owl. And boy does that not disappoint.
There's suspense all the way through. We get a better picture of who Stone is and how he and Owl are best friends. But the way that Lara helps to take care of Stone is pretty awesome. But now I'm worried about Stone!
I'm not going to give anything away but I will let you know that there's a secret that's revealed in this book that, if you're anything like me, you were desperately waiting for. You're questions will for sure be answered.
Downside... just like any other SS book, the epilogue gives you information about the next book, but we're going to be sitting on pins and needles now waiting for that one to come out later this year. I don't know if I'll be able to wait that long!
This book picks up right where Cora's book left off. Lara has been rescued and she's attached herself to Owl as her security blanket. We're starting this book a few months after her rescue I believe and she's still sticking to him like glue. But there's more brewing under the surface not just on her side, but his too. Of course, I love Lara's strength in this book. She's finally starting to heal from her ordeal and taking things into her own hands by taking the lead with Owl. And boy does that not disappoint.
There's suspense all the way through. We get a better picture of who Stone is and how he and Owl are best friends. But the way that Lara helps to take care of Stone is pretty awesome. But now I'm worried about Stone!
I'm not going to give anything away but I will let you know that there's a secret that's revealed in this book that, if you're anything like me, you were desperately waiting for. You're questions will for sure be answered.
Downside... just like any other SS book, the epilogue gives you information about the next book, but we're going to be sitting on pins and needles now waiting for that one to come out later this year. I don't know if I'll be able to wait that long!
February 8, 2024
Owl & Lara
I love Lara & Owl, and their friendships with Cora & Stone. The unique things they have in common. The way they heal each other from their harrowing experiences. Lara's strength & Owl's protectiveness. Very emotional times here as well!
Owl really is swoony! I love his vulnerability with Lara, which helps her heal - and also helps him continue his healing process. Lara feels like she's being too clingy, but the way he shows her he needs her just as much as she needs him is so perfect!
We get some 🔥🔥🔥, adventure, and a few surprises and reveals in their story. Great, quick read - bc I did NOT want to put it down! 😉 And the lead ins to the next books... shoooeeyyy!
😍😍😍
I love Lara & Owl, and their friendships with Cora & Stone. The unique things they have in common. The way they heal each other from their harrowing experiences. Lara's strength & Owl's protectiveness. Very emotional times here as well!
Owl really is swoony! I love his vulnerability with Lara, which helps her heal - and also helps him continue his healing process. Lara feels like she's being too clingy, but the way he shows her he needs her just as much as she needs him is so perfect!
We get some 🔥🔥🔥, adventure, and a few surprises and reveals in their story. Great, quick read - bc I did NOT want to put it down! 😉 And the lead ins to the next books... shoooeeyyy!
😍😍😍
February 21, 2025
I was really excited to read this book after I finished reading the last book because the characters were secondary characters in that book, so I was excited to read their story! After reading, I can say that I absolutely loved this book! The plot had me hooked and it only took me a few sittings to read because I didn’t want to put it down! There was a lot of romance in the plot and I loved the way it developed because the characters both had their own issues and they worked together and were very supportive of each other! The romance allowed for some steamy scenes too! There was also action and suspense in the plot, which added a lot to it and made me enjoy it more! I loved that a big scene happened at the end that has definitely changed everything for the next book! The characters were also amazing and made this book even better! Lara was the main female character, and in this book she was trying to come to terms with what she had been through and my heart completely went out to her! Lara came such a long way in this book and she deserved to be happy and she was surrounded by people that cared about her! I loved Lara a lot and she definitely found her strength as this book progressed! Callan ‘Owl’ was the main male character and love interest of Lara! Owl was such a special guy and he was always there for Lara and helped her start to come to terms with what she had been through! I had a lot of respect for Owl because he let Lara go at her pace and he didn't push her! He had also been through a difficult situation that changed Owl and made him the way he was! This book was written from both Lara and Own’s point of views! I was obviously expecting it to because all the other books have been written this way and the synopsis gives the impression that it was going to be! I loved that it was written from dual point of view because it helped me connect more with both characters and see their feelings for each other grow and see how they were dealing with what they were going through! It allowed for a few more things to happen in the plot as well, even though Lana and Owl spent pretty much all of the plot together! I now can’t wait to read the next book in this series! I can’t wait to find out what’s happened to the main male character and get introduced to his love interest! His love interest hasn't been introduced yet, so I can't wait to learn more about her! I'll definitely be making the next book my next read! I also love the cover for this book a lot and it would draw me to the book if I didn't already know the author's name! I love how well it suits the covers for the other books in the series and the cover model is also the perfect Owl!
February 17, 2024
Susan Stoker has complete control of my emotions in this 5th installment of The Refuge series!
In Deserving Lara, book five of The Refuge series by Susan Stoker, Susan once again plays my emotions like a fiddle! Excellently written, Susan's words evoke laughter, tears, sighs, and more than a few "Hell,Yeah" fist bumps! Deserving Lara is a roller coaster of "feels" with an underlying current of slow burn sexual tension of a new romance, and all the suspense I have come to love in a Susan Stoker romance novel. Deserving Lara is sure to be another best seller!
This story involves Lara, who was rescued by her best friend Cora, the co-owners of The Refuge in the previous book, and the most notable owner to Lara, Callen "Owl" Kauffman. Owl, unlike the rest of the owners, is not Special Forces but an expert Night Stalker helicopter pilot. He is no less of a hero than his friends, but like everyone who seeks healing at The Refuge, his personal demons bar him from recognizing his strong points. It is those demons that make him the perfect support person for Lara. Lara is a strong survivor, but only through Owl's patience and caring will she ever believe it. Their journey is so lovingly documented, the characters so well-developed and three-dimensional, Lara and Owl become real and believable. I was more than a reader, I was a like a back-stage observer as their adventure and love story enfolded. Again, Susan Stoker's flawless planning and execution created an edge-of your-seat suspenseful romance story.
I especially love the dual themes of "found family" and recognition that PTSD survivors are "bent not broken!" Throughout the series, I have been grateful for Susan's awesome sensitivity and empathy for my military brothers and sisters who have seen the worst that men can do to one another and struggle to rejoin a society far removed from the one they fought in. Susan brings their stories alive while giving us all hope that a happily ever after ending is possible for all of us. After reading these books, I pray that men and women of The Refuge are out there somewhere building more sanctuaries and treatment centers dedicated to holistic healing for returning veterans.
Well done, Susan! I can hardly wait for the next two books. Meanwhile, I will continue to read your other series while praying all goes well with the drafting of Deserving Maisy.
In Deserving Lara, book five of The Refuge series by Susan Stoker, Susan once again plays my emotions like a fiddle! Excellently written, Susan's words evoke laughter, tears, sighs, and more than a few "Hell,Yeah" fist bumps! Deserving Lara is a roller coaster of "feels" with an underlying current of slow burn sexual tension of a new romance, and all the suspense I have come to love in a Susan Stoker romance novel. Deserving Lara is sure to be another best seller!
This story involves Lara, who was rescued by her best friend Cora, the co-owners of The Refuge in the previous book, and the most notable owner to Lara, Callen "Owl" Kauffman. Owl, unlike the rest of the owners, is not Special Forces but an expert Night Stalker helicopter pilot. He is no less of a hero than his friends, but like everyone who seeks healing at The Refuge, his personal demons bar him from recognizing his strong points. It is those demons that make him the perfect support person for Lara. Lara is a strong survivor, but only through Owl's patience and caring will she ever believe it. Their journey is so lovingly documented, the characters so well-developed and three-dimensional, Lara and Owl become real and believable. I was more than a reader, I was a like a back-stage observer as their adventure and love story enfolded. Again, Susan Stoker's flawless planning and execution created an edge-of your-seat suspenseful romance story.
I especially love the dual themes of "found family" and recognition that PTSD survivors are "bent not broken!" Throughout the series, I have been grateful for Susan's awesome sensitivity and empathy for my military brothers and sisters who have seen the worst that men can do to one another and struggle to rejoin a society far removed from the one they fought in. Susan brings their stories alive while giving us all hope that a happily ever after ending is possible for all of us. After reading these books, I pray that men and women of The Refuge are out there somewhere building more sanctuaries and treatment centers dedicated to holistic healing for returning veterans.
Well done, Susan! I can hardly wait for the next two books. Meanwhile, I will continue to read your other series while praying all goes well with the drafting of Deserving Maisy.
February 12, 2024
Owl and Lara - love and healing
Phew - the feels in this book - laughing, crying, swooning, cringing, teeth gritting, and cheering. It packs quite an emotional punch as the love deepens and the tension slowly ratchets up. The story was expertly written, meticulously planned and flawlessly delivered and included engaging dialogue, three dimensional characters who grow, and a captivating storyline. Susan Stoker is the undeniable queen of military and quasi-military romances. Lara was held captive and assaulted for months by a serial killer. Callan/Owl and his friends rescued her because of the urging of her best friend (Deserving Cora) but her tormentor escaped. Owl is former Army Night Stalker pilot. He was a POW and is no stranger to being an abused captive. He is also a coowner of the Refuge, a resort that caters to veterans and other people suffering from PTSD. When Lara was rescued, she attached to Owl. He is her safe space and for months she had trouble if he was out of her sight for too long. In the months since her rescue, Lara has been living with in Owl in his cabin. Owl is in love with Lara but understands he’s her safe space and her friend so he keeps his feelings locked down. Lara is also having feelings for Owl but does not think he’d want a needy clinger. Their relationship deepens and develops organically and naturally as Lara continues her healing journey. I just loved the way Owl gently, lovingly, and beautifully helped Lara come out of the prison of her trauma and begin to shine even when he knows he might only have her in his life briefly. Of course the love and the healing is tempered by the knowledge that Lara’s tormentor is out there and wants her back. The story included sweet moments, painful pasts, spicy scenes, supportive family and friends, healing, evil actors, danger, excitement, and love. I especially love the central theme of found family in this series - that you can create the family you need - and that people can be dented without being broken. I cannot wait to read the next book in this series.
Phew - the feels in this book - laughing, crying, swooning, cringing, teeth gritting, and cheering. It packs quite an emotional punch as the love deepens and the tension slowly ratchets up. The story was expertly written, meticulously planned and flawlessly delivered and included engaging dialogue, three dimensional characters who grow, and a captivating storyline. Susan Stoker is the undeniable queen of military and quasi-military romances. Lara was held captive and assaulted for months by a serial killer. Callan/Owl and his friends rescued her because of the urging of her best friend (Deserving Cora) but her tormentor escaped. Owl is former Army Night Stalker pilot. He was a POW and is no stranger to being an abused captive. He is also a coowner of the Refuge, a resort that caters to veterans and other people suffering from PTSD. When Lara was rescued, she attached to Owl. He is her safe space and for months she had trouble if he was out of her sight for too long. In the months since her rescue, Lara has been living with in Owl in his cabin. Owl is in love with Lara but understands he’s her safe space and her friend so he keeps his feelings locked down. Lara is also having feelings for Owl but does not think he’d want a needy clinger. Their relationship deepens and develops organically and naturally as Lara continues her healing journey. I just loved the way Owl gently, lovingly, and beautifully helped Lara come out of the prison of her trauma and begin to shine even when he knows he might only have her in his life briefly. Of course the love and the healing is tempered by the knowledge that Lara’s tormentor is out there and wants her back. The story included sweet moments, painful pasts, spicy scenes, supportive family and friends, healing, evil actors, danger, excitement, and love. I especially love the central theme of found family in this series - that you can create the family you need - and that people can be dented without being broken. I cannot wait to read the next book in this series.
February 24, 2024
In the previous book, “Deserving Cora,” Lara is rescued, but the killer escapes, vowing to recapture her. Much of this book deals with her obvious trauma from both her imprisonment and torture. It also covers the emotional ramifications of that horror and her changing relationships with everyone, as well as the fear pervading every moment of her life because she expects him to return.
This book is a new release of the time I write this review, so I don't want to give too much away. Everything I’ve mentioned is either in the blurb or can be inferred by the type of story it is.
I read the previous book in this series, “Deserving Cora” a few weeks ago and did not review it, which I wish I had, but I have read several other things since then and do not feel it would be fair to review that earlier book at this point since I didn't make any notes about my reactions.
Let me just say that I put this book on my calendar so I’d read it as soon as it came out because I was that excited to read the next story!
The reason I mention this is because, while “Deserving Lara” is a standalone novel, the setup for this book happened in the preceding novel when Lara's best friend goes through a series of increasingly complicated schemes to get help for her friend who she correctly believes has been kidnapped, though the reality is far more horrible and twisted than Cora could have guessed.
All of the books in the series can be read independently, but this is a book that is much better understood with the information from the prior novel. Plus it was an enjoyable read, despite the fucked up nature. It was detailed with that being graphic if that makes sense.
One of the things I enjoyed most about this particular story was that both main characters had hugely traumatic events that shaped who they are, which is not terribly uncommon in romantic suspense, especially by this author.
This book is a new release of the time I write this review, so I don't want to give too much away. Everything I’ve mentioned is either in the blurb or can be inferred by the type of story it is.
I read the previous book in this series, “Deserving Cora” a few weeks ago and did not review it, which I wish I had, but I have read several other things since then and do not feel it would be fair to review that earlier book at this point since I didn't make any notes about my reactions.
Let me just say that I put this book on my calendar so I’d read it as soon as it came out because I was that excited to read the next story!
The reason I mention this is because, while “Deserving Lara” is a standalone novel, the setup for this book happened in the preceding novel when Lara's best friend goes through a series of increasingly complicated schemes to get help for her friend who she correctly believes has been kidnapped, though the reality is far more horrible and twisted than Cora could have guessed.
All of the books in the series can be read independently, but this is a book that is much better understood with the information from the prior novel. Plus it was an enjoyable read, despite the fucked up nature. It was detailed with that being graphic if that makes sense.
One of the things I enjoyed most about this particular story was that both main characters had hugely traumatic events that shaped who they are, which is not terribly uncommon in romantic suspense, especially by this author.
September 5, 2024
DESERVING LARA by SUSAN STOKER 🌟🌟🌟🌟
Deserving Lara is the #5 book in Susan Stokers ‘The Refuge’ series
Lara Osler, lifelong romantic is kidnapped by the man she thought was her Prince Charming and horrifically abused by him and his bodyguard. Thanks to Lara’s best friend Cora and the men from ‘The Refuge’, Lara escapes (see: Deserving Cora).
Callen ‘Owl’ Kaufman, former Night Stalker Army pilot, is struggling to hide his feelings for Lara. From the moment he rescued her they have spent every minute together, Owl is determined to do everything in his power to help this brave but vulnerable woman heal.
As time passes, Lara begins to recover, determined to get her life back she and Owl slowly start a relationship. Owl has issues of his own but they vow to move forward, supporting each other.
The future looks bright, both their relationship and The Refuge are thriving but when Lara & Owl together with a colleague travel to purchase a new helicopter everything goes to hell. Lara & Owl are once again kidnapped and their colleague ‘Stone’ disappears.
With no one knowing where they are they only have each other to rely on. Can they rescue themselves and get back home? will they find Stone or is Lara’s time up?
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(This book is a standalone but you would have a clearer understanding if you read ‘Deserving Cora’ book #4 in The Refuge series)
I liked this story. Stoker deals with Lara’s ordeal and Owl’s history sympathetically, though it could be triggering for some. Their relationship is believable and written delicately. The baddies really are obnoxious and the action is fast paced and thrilling, placed throughout the book well to keep the tension running. Overall this is a good book.
Deserving Lara is the #5 book in Susan Stokers ‘The Refuge’ series
Lara Osler, lifelong romantic is kidnapped by the man she thought was her Prince Charming and horrifically abused by him and his bodyguard. Thanks to Lara’s best friend Cora and the men from ‘The Refuge’, Lara escapes (see: Deserving Cora).
Callen ‘Owl’ Kaufman, former Night Stalker Army pilot, is struggling to hide his feelings for Lara. From the moment he rescued her they have spent every minute together, Owl is determined to do everything in his power to help this brave but vulnerable woman heal.
As time passes, Lara begins to recover, determined to get her life back she and Owl slowly start a relationship. Owl has issues of his own but they vow to move forward, supporting each other.
The future looks bright, both their relationship and The Refuge are thriving but when Lara & Owl together with a colleague travel to purchase a new helicopter everything goes to hell. Lara & Owl are once again kidnapped and their colleague ‘Stone’ disappears.
With no one knowing where they are they only have each other to rely on. Can they rescue themselves and get back home? will they find Stone or is Lara’s time up?
——————————————
(This book is a standalone but you would have a clearer understanding if you read ‘Deserving Cora’ book #4 in The Refuge series)
I liked this story. Stoker deals with Lara’s ordeal and Owl’s history sympathetically, though it could be triggering for some. Their relationship is believable and written delicately. The baddies really are obnoxious and the action is fast paced and thrilling, placed throughout the book well to keep the tension running. Overall this is a good book.
February 4, 2024
Susan you've done it again. These guys, these women. What a journey each book takes us on.
This story dealt, yet again, with a delicate topic and delved into the h's handling of what happened to her.
The first part of novel lulled me into a warm feeling of the h getting better with the H being the best a man could be to help her.
It was swoonville.
Then as I listened all about Owl and his demons it seemed to be such a poignant pairing of the 2 as PTSD influenced so much of their life. Which the refuge being the perfect place.
Every time I listened to the protagonist plotting it gave me bumps and I got so angsty...I just knew Susan was going to drop a doozy, it's the lulling into a false sense of security. I just wanted to stop with Life is Good.
But in true Susan form I knew what was coming and it had me fidgeting, I just
had to hang on for the dreaded shoe to drop, and drop it did, with twists and sinister turns.
And I'm proud to say my hunch was right. It was just awesome and I happy danced which turned out to be a relief as the suspense Susan cleverly wove was just perfection. What a ride the action side of this plotline was.
It was a beautiful beginning and an action packed ending
I am in awe of Emma Wilder, her narration was brilliant especially the male voice. Aaron Shedlock is one of my faves so it was an amazingly brilliant listen.
Susan Stoker is just gah! Wonderful.
And the epilogue 📚❤️📚❤️📚❤️🎶🎧📖
This story dealt, yet again, with a delicate topic and delved into the h's handling of what happened to her.
The first part of novel lulled me into a warm feeling of the h getting better with the H being the best a man could be to help her.
It was swoonville.
Then as I listened all about Owl and his demons it seemed to be such a poignant pairing of the 2 as PTSD influenced so much of their life. Which the refuge being the perfect place.
Every time I listened to the protagonist plotting it gave me bumps and I got so angsty...I just knew Susan was going to drop a doozy, it's the lulling into a false sense of security. I just wanted to stop with Life is Good.
But in true Susan form I knew what was coming and it had me fidgeting, I just
had to hang on for the dreaded shoe to drop, and drop it did, with twists and sinister turns.
And I'm proud to say my hunch was right. It was just awesome and I happy danced which turned out to be a relief as the suspense Susan cleverly wove was just perfection. What a ride the action side of this plotline was.
It was a beautiful beginning and an action packed ending
I am in awe of Emma Wilder, her narration was brilliant especially the male voice. Aaron Shedlock is one of my faves so it was an amazingly brilliant listen.
Susan Stoker is just gah! Wonderful.
And the epilogue 📚❤️📚❤️📚❤️🎶🎧📖
February 8, 2024
I loved this book!
Through the other books, I got the impression that Owl (hero) was sort of a ho-hum character, not an alpha at all, except when it comes to piloting a helicopter. But he is such. a. good. guy! It takes a man with his kind of patience to help Lara recover from the kidnapping and torture he helped rescue her from.
A former fabled Army Nightstalker helicopter pilot, he, too, was imprisoned and tortured after he was shot down in the line of duty. The horrifying, humiliating experience has left him with chronic insomnia and some serious self-doubts. His journey in this story was awesome. He's never going to be the alpha male (well, except for maybe in the bedroom ;) ), but he IS the guy you want by your side when the going gets tough. (as in facing down a serial killer or seeing your best friend get kidnapped again)
No spoilers on how everything is resolved. But I loved how Lara could help him heal, just as he helped her recover from her trauma. At first glance, the world might see Owl and Lara as victims--but together they are an unbeatable team. Can't wait for Stone's story!
(Sidebar: I want to know more about Lucas. ;) Ms. Stoker does a great job of making even characters who aren't on the page for very long seem intriguing.)
Through the other books, I got the impression that Owl (hero) was sort of a ho-hum character, not an alpha at all, except when it comes to piloting a helicopter. But he is such. a. good. guy! It takes a man with his kind of patience to help Lara recover from the kidnapping and torture he helped rescue her from.
A former fabled Army Nightstalker helicopter pilot, he, too, was imprisoned and tortured after he was shot down in the line of duty. The horrifying, humiliating experience has left him with chronic insomnia and some serious self-doubts. His journey in this story was awesome. He's never going to be the alpha male (well, except for maybe in the bedroom ;) ), but he IS the guy you want by your side when the going gets tough. (as in facing down a serial killer or seeing your best friend get kidnapped again)
No spoilers on how everything is resolved. But I loved how Lara could help him heal, just as he helped her recover from her trauma. At first glance, the world might see Owl and Lara as victims--but together they are an unbeatable team. Can't wait for Stone's story!
(Sidebar: I want to know more about Lucas. ;) Ms. Stoker does a great job of making even characters who aren't on the page for very long seem intriguing.)
February 7, 2025
This book had me feeling all the emotions— crying, laughing, swooning, frustration, and cheering. Lara’s journey of healing after months of captivity and torment was heartbreaking yet beautifully written. Abandoned by her boyfriend and left in the hands of a serial killer, her worst fear came true—being used for her money. But when Owl and his team rescued her, she knew she was finally safe.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (5/5)
🔥 🔥 (2/5)
Owl, a former Army Night Stalker pilot and former POW, carries his own painful scars, but the way he patiently supports Lara through her anxiety without judgment or pressure was everything. Their relationship develops naturally, a slow and steady journey of trust, healing, and love. Despite the looming danger of her tormentor still out there, Lara begins to reclaim her life—with Owl by her side.
I loved the found family theme in this series—proof that people can be dented but not broken. And of course, Lara and Cora’s friendship brought the perfect mix of humor and heart.
“And life goes on. It doesn't stop. The sun still comes up every morning and goes down each night.”
A deeply emotional, suspenseful, and heartwarming read—I can’t wait for the next book (I need to know what happened to Stone!)!
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (5/5)
🔥 🔥 (2/5)
Owl, a former Army Night Stalker pilot and former POW, carries his own painful scars, but the way he patiently supports Lara through her anxiety without judgment or pressure was everything. Their relationship develops naturally, a slow and steady journey of trust, healing, and love. Despite the looming danger of her tormentor still out there, Lara begins to reclaim her life—with Owl by her side.
I loved the found family theme in this series—proof that people can be dented but not broken. And of course, Lara and Cora’s friendship brought the perfect mix of humor and heart.
“And life goes on. It doesn't stop. The sun still comes up every morning and goes down each night.”
A deeply emotional, suspenseful, and heartwarming read—I can’t wait for the next book (I need to know what happened to Stone!)!
April 7, 2024
I have read 49 books from most of the series by Stoker. The Refugee is my least favorite. And this book, "Deserving Lara," is my least favorite of all her books. The premise is off-putting to start with. Lara has been sexually, physically, and emotionally abused by a serial killer in the previous book, "Deserving Cora" who is Lara's best friend. As heavy as the subject is, Owl the guy who becomes her security blanket has had a similar experience as a POW. The whole thing is depressing with no emotional relief.
But when the author describes Owl as looking like Ed Sheeran, I completely lost interest. Sheeran is an amazing song writer, singer, and performer. But he is not a handsome man...and that's being generous. I realize this sounds shallow, but if I'm going to read fiction, I want my heroes to be good looking and hot! It's my right as a reader. Why do you think we read fiction? And if the publisher has used a likeness of Sheeran on the cover, I doubt anyone would have to wait on a "hold" list for this book.
I abandoned this book about half way. Now maybe I'll find something by Kaylea Cross or Samantha Cole.
But when the author describes Owl as looking like Ed Sheeran, I completely lost interest. Sheeran is an amazing song writer, singer, and performer. But he is not a handsome man...and that's being generous. I realize this sounds shallow, but if I'm going to read fiction, I want my heroes to be good looking and hot! It's my right as a reader. Why do you think we read fiction? And if the publisher has used a likeness of Sheeran on the cover, I doubt anyone would have to wait on a "hold" list for this book.
I abandoned this book about half way. Now maybe I'll find something by Kaylea Cross or Samantha Cole.
February 7, 2024
A total wow, this story is so amazing that I am not sure what to say. At one point I was angry, sad, I cried and then am so happy it's not even funny.
First, I wonder if anyone noticed how Lara and Heather as so close, both have gone through hell and then they find just what they needed.
Owl and Lara go through so much that it made my heart ache. Even though I know it's just a story, but as we all know this world is wacko, crazy people out that. Well thank God most of us not touched by such evil.
The strength that Lara has is well one lacks words to say it, Owl is just as strong as Lara, and they had it in spades when they needed, and will need it in the future to find Stone.
And the little thing that Susan snuck by about Tiny, well I can't wait till his story to find the background, And Ryan, heck she is also a surprise that sprung on most of us, am sure Tex will recruit her just like he did Elizabeth.
Susan thank you for another amazing story and know am looking forward to more.
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First, I wonder if anyone noticed how Lara and Heather as so close, both have gone through hell and then they find just what they needed.
Owl and Lara go through so much that it made my heart ache. Even though I know it's just a story, but as we all know this world is wacko, crazy people out that. Well thank God most of us not touched by such evil.
The strength that Lara has is well one lacks words to say it, Owl is just as strong as Lara, and they had it in spades when they needed, and will need it in the future to find Stone.
And the little thing that Susan snuck by about Tiny, well I can't wait till his story to find the background, And Ryan, heck she is also a surprise that sprung on most of us, am sure Tex will recruit her just like he did Elizabeth.
Susan thank you for another amazing story and know am looking forward to more.
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February 27, 2024
"Deserving Lara" is the fifth book in The Refuge series, and it was fantastic from beginning to end. With the prompting of Lara's best friend Cora, the team went in and rescued her from a serial killer in the previous book. Now Owl, a former Night Stalker helicopter pilot with demons of his own, vows to keep Lara safe. The serial killer got away but promised to get Lara back and it is impossible to go on with her normal life until he is caught.
Owl is so kind and protective of Lara, he doesn't mind that she is using him as her security blanket. Owl and everybody at the Refuge looks out for her, knowing that at some point her worse nightmare will come back for her.
This book is loaded with laughter, friends, emotions and suspense. As time goes by Lara becomes stronger, can even be away from Owl for short periods of time, but will it be enough when the inevitable happens?
Five "Bent not Broken" stars for this one!!!
Owl is so kind and protective of Lara, he doesn't mind that she is using him as her security blanket. Owl and everybody at the Refuge looks out for her, knowing that at some point her worse nightmare will come back for her.
This book is loaded with laughter, friends, emotions and suspense. As time goes by Lara becomes stronger, can even be away from Owl for short periods of time, but will it be enough when the inevitable happens?
Five "Bent not Broken" stars for this one!!!
November 26, 2024
THIS BOOK! OH MY WORD!
We initially met Lara in Deserving Cora, as it was her capture that brought Cora and Pipe together. Lara's story is one that hits different. You can feel all of her emotions throughout the story. The fact that she's drawn so close to Owl is no surprise. He was essentially her rescuer. But that only plays a small part of their relationship. It is everything that has happened after that rescue that has built the base in their relationship.
Once again the relationship was amazing, and the steam well that is always good.
That suspense though, again, it just stole the show. Witnessing everything that was going down, and how it was all settled just had my complete attention. Honestly I didn't really want it to end. But thankfully I know we will see these characters again, so that helps. Again though I was really drawn to Ryleigh, and that need to know her story is STRONG.
We initially met Lara in Deserving Cora, as it was her capture that brought Cora and Pipe together. Lara's story is one that hits different. You can feel all of her emotions throughout the story. The fact that she's drawn so close to Owl is no surprise. He was essentially her rescuer. But that only plays a small part of their relationship. It is everything that has happened after that rescue that has built the base in their relationship.
Once again the relationship was amazing, and the steam well that is always good.
That suspense though, again, it just stole the show. Witnessing everything that was going down, and how it was all settled just had my complete attention. Honestly I didn't really want it to end. But thankfully I know we will see these characters again, so that helps. Again though I was really drawn to Ryleigh, and that need to know her story is STRONG.
January 14, 2025
Susan Stoker delivers yet another heart-pounding romantic suspense in "Deserving Lara". The fifth installment in The Refuge series masterfully blends action, romance, and healing. Callen “Owl” Kaufman, a former Night Stalker pilot, and Lara Osler, a survivor of unimaginable trauma, share an emotional connection that is both tender and empowering. Owl’s patience and protective nature create a perfect contrast to Lara’s strength and vulnerability, making their love story compelling.
Stoker excels at crafting a suspenseful plot, with a lurking danger that keeps readers on edge. The tension builds steadily as the serial killer remains a constant threat, ensuring that readers remain invested until the very last page. At its core, this book is about second chances, resilience, and the healing power of love. Fans of romantic suspense will find "Deserving Lara" an engrossing read that tugs at the heart while delivering plenty of thrills.
Stoker excels at crafting a suspenseful plot, with a lurking danger that keeps readers on edge. The tension builds steadily as the serial killer remains a constant threat, ensuring that readers remain invested until the very last page. At its core, this book is about second chances, resilience, and the healing power of love. Fans of romantic suspense will find "Deserving Lara" an engrossing read that tugs at the heart while delivering plenty of thrills.
February 7, 2024
sempre più intensa questa serie
dunque ecco la storia di lara, rapita e tenuta in condizioni terribili e salvata nel volume precedente dalla sua cara amica cora
il suo salvatore callen "owl" ha subito le sue stesse torture e violenze in una missione, per questo la protegge e la capisce più di tutti, lui considerato solo un sosia di ed sheran..........
la storia è molto concentrata sul lentissimo percorso di recupero di lara, che è davvero doloroso; ben descritti anche i passaggi in cui lei ha il dubbio di essersi innamorata di owl in una sorta di sindrome di stoccolma al contrario
una serie questa molto molto attuale ben raccontata e che in questo volume finisce con un cliffhangher davvero davvero che non vedo l'ora di leggere di stone
l'ottima traduzione ed editing si sentono e si vedono tutti!
quattro stelle e mezzo
dunque ecco la storia di lara, rapita e tenuta in condizioni terribili e salvata nel volume precedente dalla sua cara amica cora
il suo salvatore callen "owl" ha subito le sue stesse torture e violenze in una missione, per questo la protegge e la capisce più di tutti, lui considerato solo un sosia di ed sheran..........
la storia è molto concentrata sul lentissimo percorso di recupero di lara, che è davvero doloroso; ben descritti anche i passaggi in cui lei ha il dubbio di essersi innamorata di owl in una sorta di sindrome di stoccolma al contrario
una serie questa molto molto attuale ben raccontata e che in questo volume finisce con un cliffhangher davvero davvero che non vedo l'ora di leggere di stone
l'ottima traduzione ed editing si sentono e si vedono tutti!
quattro stelle e mezzo
May 18, 2025
Lara returns to the Refuge frightened and traumatized by her kidnapping by a serial killer. Overall the story was good and I liked Lara’s re-emerging into herself, enjoying child care again, and having fun with the helicopter simulator. I have a big complaint with this book. I read the ebook. 3/5.
February 8, 2024
Dangit Susan!
We first met Lara in Deserving Cora. She is Cora’s best friend. Her only family. Lara was kidnapped by a serial killer. She was horribly traumatized. Owl was with the team that rescued her. He suffers his own trauma from being a POW. But Lara latches on to him as her protector. As she recovers they fall in love. But the serial killer is still alive and plans to take her back. This was a beautiful story of recovery, for both Owl and Lara. But, Dangit Susan, only you could give us our HEA and then turn around and give us not one, but TWO cliffhangers!!! Not fair! 12/10 recommend this series and this book! And now anxiously awaiting the last two books in the series.
We first met Lara in Deserving Cora. She is Cora’s best friend. Her only family. Lara was kidnapped by a serial killer. She was horribly traumatized. Owl was with the team that rescued her. He suffers his own trauma from being a POW. But Lara latches on to him as her protector. As she recovers they fall in love. But the serial killer is still alive and plans to take her back. This was a beautiful story of recovery, for both Owl and Lara. But, Dangit Susan, only you could give us our HEA and then turn around and give us not one, but TWO cliffhangers!!! Not fair! 12/10 recommend this series and this book! And now anxiously awaiting the last two books in the series.
February 10, 2024
Love how Owl has helped Lara become so strong
Even though Lara hasn't let Owl be too far away from her since she was rescued and they brought her to The Refuge. Now she is getting mad and wants her life back and quickly she is feeling more like herself. So much so, that she feels good enough to go with Owl and Stone to check out a helicopter with them even though she still fears Carter is still lurking in the shadows waiting to get to her again. Then things go bad and Stone is kidnapped and her and Owl are drugged and taken to Carter's new island. What will happen when they both wake up in Carter's house? How will they get away? How do they guys at The Refuge find out Stone, Owl, and Lara are in trouble? Can Lara overcome being kidnapped by Carter again?
Even though Lara hasn't let Owl be too far away from her since she was rescued and they brought her to The Refuge. Now she is getting mad and wants her life back and quickly she is feeling more like herself. So much so, that she feels good enough to go with Owl and Stone to check out a helicopter with them even though she still fears Carter is still lurking in the shadows waiting to get to her again. Then things go bad and Stone is kidnapped and her and Owl are drugged and taken to Carter's new island. What will happen when they both wake up in Carter's house? How will they get away? How do they guys at The Refuge find out Stone, Owl, and Lara are in trouble? Can Lara overcome being kidnapped by Carter again?
February 10, 2024
Deserving Lara❤️🩹
Deserving Lara is the next book in The Refuge series and is a must read❣️
Lara’s bestie in the previous book, knew she was in trouble, when she up and left her job that she loved to move in with her boyfriend…red flags. Turns out Cora was spot on and Lara was indeed in trouble. After being rescued, she’s been at The Refuge for a while now and has Owl as her link to feeling safe😍
As they spend more time together and Lara bravely retakes control over her life, she realises what she feels for Owl is more than as a friend, but will he reciprocate?
I can’t wait to read the last few books in this series, my only complaint is October and January next year feel too far away😭
Deserving Lara is the next book in The Refuge series and is a must read❣️
Lara’s bestie in the previous book, knew she was in trouble, when she up and left her job that she loved to move in with her boyfriend…red flags. Turns out Cora was spot on and Lara was indeed in trouble. After being rescued, she’s been at The Refuge for a while now and has Owl as her link to feeling safe😍
As they spend more time together and Lara bravely retakes control over her life, she realises what she feels for Owl is more than as a friend, but will he reciprocate?
I can’t wait to read the last few books in this series, my only complaint is October and January next year feel too far away😭
February 10, 2024
I love the premise of this book. Yes there's drama, suspense, danger and a bad guy but the overarching theme is the power of love to heal. Lara and Owl have both suffered unspeakable trauma at the hands of others. That makes them kindred spirits and gives them an understanding that others may not have. As Owl becomes Lara's steadying rock by remaining stoically and constantly by her side, he too begins to begins to close the gaping psychological wounds he still suffers from. Lara, slwly and surely, emerges from the shattered shell she was when first arriving at The Refuge. Their feelings for one another are apparent to those around them an with gentle encouragement from friends these two finally express their love.
February 11, 2024
The way the suspense built in this story, while still being hopeful, was scary! You knew what the pinnacle point would be, but even then, a twist was thrown in that was completely unexpected. You couldn’t help but be there with Lara and Owl for the big steps, the small steps, the set backs, and the springs forward. The bond and relationship between Cora and Lara were some of the most touching moments in the book. A BIG secret is reveled, to a point. Peril and pain walk right beside the happiness and hope as one couple has a happy ending, one couple is completely at odds, and the big problem everyone can’t stop thinking about looms. Loved Lara and Owl, their story, and that they got their HEA, and cannot wait for more in this series <3
March 30, 2025
I want to move to The Refuge!
There’s something about this series that resonates with me. Men and women with PTSD being helped by former elite teammates battling their own demons is a brilliant premise!
Lara had been held prisoner and sexually assaulted for months by her former boyfriend and his lackey until she was rescued by her best friend (Deserving Cora) and three men from The Refuge. At the time of her rescue, Lara attaches herself to one of the men, Owl, and doesn’t feel safe unless he’s near. This book is all about Lara’s strength and commitment to healing, and Owl’s determination to be everything and anything Lara needs.
Emma Wilder and Aaron Shedlock give brava performances in this outstanding audiobook!
There’s something about this series that resonates with me. Men and women with PTSD being helped by former elite teammates battling their own demons is a brilliant premise!
Lara had been held prisoner and sexually assaulted for months by her former boyfriend and his lackey until she was rescued by her best friend (Deserving Cora) and three men from The Refuge. At the time of her rescue, Lara attaches herself to one of the men, Owl, and doesn’t feel safe unless he’s near. This book is all about Lara’s strength and commitment to healing, and Owl’s determination to be everything and anything Lara needs.
Emma Wilder and Aaron Shedlock give brava performances in this outstanding audiobook!
September 27, 2025
WOW!!!! What a ride this was!!! Lara took months to get back to her old-new self. She was realizing that she wanted to live and not be scary. Owl knew that one day Lara would do anything she set her mind on. Owl had his own demons and Lara helped him work though his in a way. Stone, Owl and Lara went to get a helicopter and that's when things went crazy. I knew it was her to be the anonymous person!!! The friendship and the relationship in these books are amazing!!!! I really can feel the love, the respect, the fear, the gratitude and the bonds in these characters. I can't wait to read Tiny and Ryan's but first Stone's book... I can't wait to see how that will go... I'm so glad that I picked up this book and I love the author's story telling.
February 7, 2024
Full story
Owl and Lara. We have seen Owl in other books and met Lara when she was rescued in the previous book. Now we see them help each other heal, face some overwhelming odds in danger, and get their HEA. Additionally we see the other couples and members of the Refuge and I love seeing that growth and dynamic. Tiny is enigmatic as always and I can’t wait for his story and what it entails for Ry😜 Tex made a somewhat appearance I hope to see him a lot in Tiny’s story 🙈 Stone has me worried and I hope the next book comes soon! As always I flew through the book, any Susan Stoker book always keeps me captivated. The story is full of action, danger, humor and love.
Owl and Lara. We have seen Owl in other books and met Lara when she was rescued in the previous book. Now we see them help each other heal, face some overwhelming odds in danger, and get their HEA. Additionally we see the other couples and members of the Refuge and I love seeing that growth and dynamic. Tiny is enigmatic as always and I can’t wait for his story and what it entails for Ry😜 Tex made a somewhat appearance I hope to see him a lot in Tiny’s story 🙈 Stone has me worried and I hope the next book comes soon! As always I flew through the book, any Susan Stoker book always keeps me captivated. The story is full of action, danger, humor and love.
February 9, 2024
5 stars for Deserving Lara by Susan Stoker
This was an incredible book with lots of feels, love, laughter, sadness, heartbreak mixed in with resilience, strength, friendships, and lots of love. Amazing storyline with everything in it. I just loved Owl's and Lara's love story. They love each other so much. The strength that both of them have to even get out of bed every morning is unimaginable. So strong. They are not afraid to talk to someone. Henley is perfect for another perspective of taking back their power and life. Can't wait for the next installment of The Refuge, but I can't wait for Stone's and Ryleigh's stories.
This was an incredible book with lots of feels, love, laughter, sadness, heartbreak mixed in with resilience, strength, friendships, and lots of love. Amazing storyline with everything in it. I just loved Owl's and Lara's love story. They love each other so much. The strength that both of them have to even get out of bed every morning is unimaginable. So strong. They are not afraid to talk to someone. Henley is perfect for another perspective of taking back their power and life. Can't wait for the next installment of The Refuge, but I can't wait for Stone's and Ryleigh's stories.
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