Grizzly bears terrify me. It doesn't matter that I've never been, afaik, near a Grizzly in the wild, or that I live in a place where the great bear is now extinct. I had a nightmare when I was a kid that shook me up so bad I still remember it.
In the dream, my family was trapped on a ship that had a sort of carnival on board. One of the carnival animals, who all were roaming about the ship scaring everybody half to death, was a giant Grizzly. The bear caught up with my family and ripped my little brother apart, with agonizing dream-sluggishness, while we stood around unable to do a thing to stop it. It seemed so real that when I saw my brother the next morning I threw up.
Ever since then, I've had this Grizzly thing and I still have dreams from time to time. I had one in early January 2009, about bears attacking people along a river and me unable to help and just terrified.
A few days after I had that dream, I was walking around the Calaveras library and this book with a black spine and the title in bold white letters, "BEAR ATTACK," grabbed my attention. I of course had to pull it out, and it turned out to be what I discovered later is one of if not the classic, comprehensive work on aggressive bear behavior and attacks by an animal behaviorist, Stephen Herrero.
Well, I thought to myself, maybe this is just what I need, some actual *facts* to dispel mystery and fear, and so home it came with me.
I, shall we say, devoured the book in two days, my heart pounding and stomach turning flip flops pretty much the whole time.
This is not a sensationalist book, although it includes all the frightening details you could possibly want to scare yourself half silly. The author sets out to illustrate categories of bear behavior in various situations, with the goal of greater understanding to help both bears and people be safe in bear country. Discussions of the differences between typical black bear and Grizzly temperament are carefully covered. His research encompassed decades of documentation from all over North America plus his own extensive field observations, and struck me as intensively thought out and balanced. He reports the details of attacks using the best information available, including personal accounts as often as possible. He includes accounts of attacks that resulted in human injury and death, as well as attacks that did not.
I learned a lot. I don't think reading Herrero's book has not magically cured me of Grizzly Night Terrors. However, I did gain a much greater understanding of what might prompt an actual attack, and what strategies might keep me alive should it ever happen to me, and also how rare attacks are. Even more so for me personally, since I'll probably never even see a Grizzly in the wild.
Probably most helpful to me was the sense of sadness I got from learning about how bears have been impacted by humans. Herrero illustrates how bear behavior is dramatically altered by the presence of our garbage dumps in and near wilderness areas, and by humans treating wild bears like curious pets, feeding them and pestering them, trying to get close to them and take pictures, making stinky messes in campgrounds that attracts bears. I was sad to learn that the result of this human idiocy is often that a bear learns to associate humans with food, which leads to trouble, which then leads to the bear being destroyed. This on top of what I learned in further reading about humans wiping out most of the bears in North America just because they feared and hated them. The California Grizzly, for example, was driven to extinction in just a few years after the invention of the repeating rifle.
So now I am still terrified of Grizzly bears, but my fear is tempered by a sadness for what humans have done to the bear, rather than the other way around.
The next time I feel afraid of an imaginary Grizzly coming at me or someone else, I'll try to keep that in mind.
Caution: Although Herrero has not set out to sensationalize, he does included very scary details in order to help support his thesis. I do NOT recommend that any sensitive persons read this book if you are not already having nightmares. The accounts of injury and death are detailed and gruesome, in several cases being first hand accounts of being chased, chewed on, crunched, tossed about, or watching it happen to somebody else. So do be aware of that before reading.