Incorporated into a radiant vitality without ceasing…
You want more than that?
Of course you do: you want the steady
mosquito-drone to go on and on, ceaselessly,
you want to be the one who gets to do the perceiving
forever, of course you do.
Earlier this year I read Mark Doty’s Sweet Machine, a collection of poems about rising from the ashes, moving beyond devastation and grief and learning to live again. School of the Arts, published about 10 years later, seems to take death rather than life as its focus, but there’s a sense that the lessons of the past have been reckoned with. Here, death is not something to fear, but something to contemplate and understand, and the result is luminous. Heaven is depicted as it might be for several of Doty’s loved ones: heaven for his friend Helen; heaven for his neighbor; heaven for his partner Paul; heaven for each of his dogs. Doty takes the role of the resister, the reader’s role. In “Heaven for Paul,” a dangerous plane landing seems to bring out Paul’s radiance, his readiness; Doty faces the possible crash with less equanimity: “I couldn’t think beyond my own dissolution. / What was the world without me to see it?”
Still, as Doty watches his beloved dogs get older and more frail, as he observes the changes on his beloved Cape Cod, as he endures another death-defying plane trip, he eventually comes around. In “Time and the Town,” he reveals, “When I say I hate time, Paul says / how else could we find depth / of character, or grow souls? / Of course he’s right.…” Indeed, making peace with time is the main theme of this book and its greatest triumph:
Dangerous, to hate the thing that brings you all of this:
that flower wouldn’t blaze if time didn’t burn…
Brief, but no one wishes it never.
Doty’s dogs, Beau and Arden, make frequent appearances in this collection, so it’s fitting that one of them provides the last word on the subject. “Heaven for Arden” recounts the dog’s uncertainty on walks, and his happiness when Doty would finally turn around and start them both heading for home:
…Sooner or later, the turn would come;
we’d gone far enough for one day. Joy!
As if he’d been afraid all along
this would be the one walk that would turn out to be infinite.
Then he could take comfort
in the certainty of an ending,
and treat the rest of the way as a series of possibilities;
then he could run,
and find pleasure in the woods beside the path.