The concept of this book is interesting but I was disappointed as I read on.
At the start of the book I believed the story would revolve around grief and I was looking forwarding to learning from the main character, Tera, and experiencing the healing process with her. Unfortunately this was not the case because the logistics of how Tera resolved her shame felt off and didn’t seem like she grew much as a person.
The suspense of what Tera had done in the past and the guilt she felt increased my expectations for the book, so I was expecting somewhat of a crazy event, but it was underwhelming to find out she wasn’t even directly involved in her friend’s death yet believes she was responsible for it.
For most of the book I had believed Tera had murdered her friend due to her feeling extremely detached from her relationship with her boyfriend, not seeming to be able to live a normal life like everybody else, and being afraid and extremely anxious when going back to her old town.
In the end of the novel, it made more sense that she was afraid because her father had sent her off in such a hurry and the friend’s father was angry and threatened to kill her, but I didn’t understand her fear of her father hating her.
My impression of Tera is that she was a pushover and was consumed by her guilt for too long for illogical reasons, which made it difficult to root for her. She seemed very immature for her age, especially the crush on Lane she had that seemed to prevail above all else a decade later.
Maybe I’m not the target audience for this book because the character is supposedly consumed by their grief and shame and I cannot resonate with it, because I find it crazy that it affects her so strongly 10 years after the incident occurred, so realistically she would have dealt with it better as she matured.
Overall I wouldn’t recommend this book because it was unclear whether the goal was to experience grief with the character or whether this was a romance novel, which is a stretch since I resonated with somebody’s comment saying she spent more time with her new platonic guy friend than the love interest.
Also the random drama at the end where it seemed like there was this big scandal with her father cheating on her mother in the past, and her friend actually being her sister was a desperate attempt to make the ending more interesting and ruined the story line since there wasn’t much leading up to it.
There are more things I could add but I feel I’ve critiqued this book enough. Apologies to the author if there were personal experiences reflected in parts of the book but I couldn’t make sense of the story.