3.5ish
It is such a guilty pleasure book. I have to commend the author for writing in such an engaging way. The story is gripping, the writing style is easy to suck you in, you want to what happens next... I mean, I read this 500+ page long novel in one sitting.
I also loved the drag queen representation. I am a huge fan of performing arts in general, and I support drag art 100%... and it is so nice to see such positive representation in an "older" novel (I know, older in this case is relative, but talking about drag culture has become hip and common in the past few years, as far as I know), and to see how gently and preciously Cole writes about the drag queens in the novel... also, I read a translation, so I could just guess about the original language, but when it came to the narration, I did not find any derogatory term for them, but only when it was said by someone probably less educated in a dialogue, and that makes so much sense. I would not have minded seeing more of the everyday life of the bar.
On the other hand, this one was such a soap opera. So over the top, so exaggerated, so tacky at times. It was a typical criminal / mafia love story, just done a little bit better on the writing front than all these cheap novels coming out these days. Too much blood, too much violence, and really problematic views on love, attraction, sex and loyalty... some of which were sort of questioned at the end, but too little, too late. There was this overarching notion that true love is this devouring, destructive, all-consuming feeling where you love the person just because of some attraction, no matter what they do and no matter how badly they treat you or who else they have a relationship with... which I don't agree with at all. I also found it strange how some of these characters were supposed to love each other to the moon and back, but they somehow "cheated" on them with hundreds of people and betrayed them or cut them off for the pettiest things. There was almost no character growth in any of the characters, but especially not in the male lead, even though the story covers 30 years.
Also, this novel had quite a few really bad tropes that are so common in this genre, like:
- almost everyone meeting the main heroine or the main hero either fall in love with them or want to have sex with instantly
- the main heroine felt like a wet dream rather than an actual realized person - like this wonder woman, who we supposed to see as angelic and virtuous and so much more elegant and classy than all the other women, but at the same time swears like a sailor... the whole characterization felt like a rouse to see the main heroine as unique rather than creating a believable personality... sort of like a "for men's magazine" take on a strong-willed woman, which was kind of offputting
- putting in every shocking thing under the planet just for the shock factor / when the author felt the plot was slowing down... you know "we have had rape, sex trafficking, homophobic attacks, pedophilia, mafia standoffs, drug abuse... how about we add non-consentual incest and mention zoophilia as a bonus?"... it did not feel shocking in the end, just so uninspired and self-serving.
I also felt that the plot got too convoluted for my taste towards the end.