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242 pages, Paperback
First published October 13, 2011
If the mind is the sword that stabs
The heart and the heart is bleeding
In the art and the woman is bleeding
In the night where her love is as sweet
As a book in a boat on the hissing sea
Then could the bad that crosses the good
In her book be the quotient of all the good
And bad in the world but also especially
All the good and bad in any Good
Book and the least good book of all worlds?
And if that could be then could the light that flares
Whenever with a full heart you open the ark
Where all your promises are burning
To death and kept be the selfsame light of all things? (7)
I'm not blind. I see my legs
They are blue-green
Their knees are rouge
With small hairs.
I hate these legs
But they are mine. Built for use
Not contemplation. Like how
About I walk over to you.
The scars on my knees are still there
From kindergarten, and tar
From my bike from today. Bruises too.
If I weren't so scared of life I wouldn't be here.
If I loved my legs I could be scared
Of something else, like their eventual decay
And be a woman to buy creams. You men in my life
Are how I love today. I want to be you.
I want to love myself by what I desire
The way you do, instead of seeing
How aspects of myself could be rendered
Other than what they seem when they weigh on me
By virtue of a paradoxical game in which I refuse to try
And the refusing takes up twice as much energy
as the trying would, I think.
I want to love myself for what I want, the way you do
And watch the wanting itself change my life. (17)
It was only in ceasing to cherish the past
An iron scissor from Lodz
A silken pillow from Warsaw
It was only in ceasing to cherish my objects that are proof of our sweetness
And the fact we were all slaughtered
As we want to be
As we want not to be
It was only in ceasing
To finger these things like my library of Alexandria before it was sacked
That the bright white flame caught the wick in me and burned all loss
Into a permanent soul that can never
Never be taken from me, just as no single Africa
Could be disappeared from the breast of every person who lived and died
On the middle passage, and no language died, and no god died either
Though many went to heaven at the bottom of the sea and every oblate
Object that has ever been desecrated in all history is nothing
As my dead are nothing
As my residues are nothing and everything I ever wrote to touch them is nothing
Compared to the flame that burns in the world in the breast of those peoples
Who truly have lost it all and even accumulate to to on losing
Just to die again and again for the sake of the dead who birthed us (214-5)