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368 pages, Paperback
First published March 1, 2022
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One of the few saving graces of this book was that it was a buddy read with my friend Sya - thank goodness I didn't need to flounder through this alone. This might just be my worst read of the year, it disappointed me in so many ways it's driven me to feeling like a cat having a hissy fit. I liked the very core premise of the story but it didn't live up to a single thing it promised - where do I even start?
The Language
The very first thing that threw me off as the language and looking at other reviews commenting on the Japanese used makes me want to howl in despair. This is not Japanese! The book only promised a story inspired by Japanese culture, and that's fine. But the language is entirely made up and it's indicated nowhere. Given that this book is written for a Western audience, I'm not surprised that the majority of people seem to assume this is actually Japanese. The reasons why this bothers me so much is - for one thing - do we really need a made up language in a standalone? It's pretty common to invent languages in a fantasy setting but not everyone can pull it off and I see little point to it for a standalone.
The book had footnotes throughout explaining the meaning and and pronunciation of words which was only adding the misleading of people thinking this is actual Japanese. I would love if more books would use footnotes for works that include some words from another language but for this invented one I found it terribly annoying and pointless. This invented language was also used a lot and words were never explained more than once which after a while simply felt like a whole dump of words I don't know. At some point, I couldn't be bothered to know anymore and I just skimmed over them. I saw absolutely no point to this language and feel like it should really be highlighted that it's an invented one and in fact not Japanese.
Genre Confusion
This is meant to be a YA but it felt like a middle grade book with some casual sexual or gruesome remarks tossed in to remind the reader that it is actually YA. I like both YA and MG but this book doesn't fit in either. It was too simple and lacked a lot of depth - especially in regards to characters' thoughts and emotion - to be a satisfying YA read to me and it wasn't lighthearted enough to be a cosy MG read. The simplicity that the MG aspects felt weirdly out of place next to the more macabre parts of the story. Also, I've seen reviews compare this to Ghibli and I am so, so, so sad. Beyond that this is inspired by Japanese culture and Ghibli is a Japanese studio, I don't find they have anything in common and it was probably one of the biggest reasons this book let me down.
Forced Feminism and Diversity
Look, I'm all for diversity and feminism is in and of itself a good thing, but it needs to fit into a story in an organic way. This book was so obnoxiously preachy, it might as well have been called A Thousand Steps Toward Female Rights. Let's face it, historically, women have been disadvantaged in many corners of the world and it's still an issue today. But this book is really on the extreme side, women have literally no rights at all, they're essentially property. And the narrator does not miss a single opportunity to tell you about it. Every-tiny-thing is a case of because Miuko is a girl. Sometimes it was so random, Miuko would think "it's because I'm a girl" and I'd have to stop reading to wonder - how is this even relevant to the plot? And it didn't even contribute to the story, there was no true exploration of the issues at hand beyond Miuko's endless whining of woe is me, I'm a girl thus my life is shit. The diversity aspect is much smaller and it is essentially just the inclusion of non-binary and transgender characters which, once again, in and off itself is a good thing but the way it was done in this book felt like it was forced - clap the author on the shoulder for not only being a feminist but for being inclusive. Mind you, I might have taken less or no note of this at all hadn't the author been so obnoxious about the whole Oh no, I'm a girl thing.
Unlikable Main Character
Speaking of Miuko's whining - I liked her ok enough at the start but oh the whining. She spent the majority of the novel complaining and she threw random fits of anger toward her friends and family for reasons I couldn't follow. Yes, there's something inside her that has evil intentions but there was a very clear line between what was Miuko and what was the other thing inside of her and it was very, very, very clearly Miuko having immature tantrums. Unfortunately, a book is already kind of lost to me if I can't like the main character, so even if it hadn't been for the random language and forced feminism, I wouldn't have liked this book much better than I did.
Poor Foreshadowing and Missed Potential
The book did do a lot of foreshadowing but not in a good way. So many things were tossed in and most were forgotten long before they became relevant. Some things never became relevant again so you didn't even know what you had to look out for. I felt like there was no coherent thread to this story and so much was tossed in while nothing was genuinely explored. I felt much the same about the majority of the cast. We are introduced to several side characters along the way and most of them were undistinguishable. They were randomly added, randomly removed and then thrown back in - maybe anyway. I couldn't begin to tell you what kind of personalities they have and I couldn't relate to them all being happy friends by the end because 1) Miuko is annoying and 2) I saw no development between them. One of the things that bothered me the most and really also soured the ending for me: .
The book would have benefited a lot from multiple point of views. It could have given us a break from Miuko and shown us other things that were going on in the world. Instead, we follow Miuko and half the book feels like a repeat of the story - partially because she kept having to tell her story to others and partially because .
There were so many more elements that were missed opportunities. The story could have been good if it had been less preachy, Miuko had been more likeable, there had been a clear course of whether it's MG or YA, better foreshadowing, less repeat and less useless and random elements and for goodness sake drop the made up language. I could go and on but I think my hissy fit has lost its steam and now I will simply feel sad about the many ways this did not live up to my expectations. And remember, at the end of the day, it's all because Miuko is a girl.
“Come on. There is so much more out there than this.”
The girl's eyes glittered—with tears, or perhaps excitement. “For a girl?”
“For anyone brave enough to look.”
“Over the wild blue countryside they flew, like a pair of heroes from some ancient tale or a constellation limned in stars, and not once did she look back, for she did not need to—she had the support of her loved ones behind her, and the big, beautiful world ahead.”