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152 pages, Paperback
First published November 3, 1987
There is a kind of eucalypt that grows all round the district where I grew up, not a blue gum yet its leaves give off a shimmering haze of blue, and it is the blueness that stays in my mind when I remember the day my brother Edward came home from Pentridge.So begins Part One, in which Kate, aged twelve at the start of the novel, narrates her youth and passionate love for horses and for Joe Byrne, one of the Kelly gang. It's beautifully done.
Joe, why did you leave me? Why did you let them take you and defile you? Why will you not leave me now? Must I drag myself after you burning in my brain for the rest of my life? (p. 147)Bedford never falls into the trap of explaining anything: readers must make their own sense of what Kate tells us. Such conviction is immensely impressive in what was the author's first published novel. I've already put another of her historical novels, If With A Beating Heart, about Claire Clairmont, on my to read list.


I did not realise how like a frog a person could become.Frogs: totally romantic and sexy.
Also they loved my brother. They loved him as much as men can other men without it being the disgusting thing Aaron later suggested. I do not know what physical release men can find together, but I cannot believe it is the mockery that Aaron made it out. Not that I think they loved like that — yet, maybe they did. They had all been in prison where they such things are common and they lived without women for long stretches. It horrified me when Aaron suggested it, but now I hope there were times when they moaned away their need and their fear in each other's arms.I get the feeling that there was too much overthinking going on and not enough self-editing when this was written. I also get the sense that I was about to run smack bang into a wall of homophobia and oh god. But then the writing veers frantically away only to veer back and it's just a car crash of a paragraph. And then I start thinking about the incestuous undertones in it, about Kate hoping her brother and her lover "moaned away their need and fear in each other's arms…"
