The Ninth Key (Part Two of the Mediator Series)
Final Response by Iolanthe Brooks
12.24.09
I think Suze is just a confused girl trying to find her way. Only for her it’s even harder. Everyone is pressuring her to do different things, things a girl shouldn’t have to worry about. Her mom pressures her to go on dates, even if it means walking into traps and her mentor, Father Dominic, pressures her to help all these ghosts. If I were Suze, I’d be all confused inside.
Normal girls lean on each other when they are going through tough times, but who can Suze lean on? No one understands her. It’s like she lost, and all alone in world where she doesn’t belong. But, what world is that?
I feel like maybe some people are just destined to not fit in. No matter how hard they try they’ll never be “right.” But, what if those people are the most kind, caring, sweet people? What happens? Can the sweetest of the sweetest endure being all alone? I don’t think they can. No one can, and just because these people are different from your average run-of-the-mill girl or boy, they’re still humans. And, no human can ever be all alone their whole life without going crazy.
I wonder if Suze is going to go crazy, I think she will. I think that Suze thinks that no one notices her, no one pays her any attention. So, she’s already started ruining her life by wearing shorter skirts and kissing random boys and hurting the ghosts instead of talking to them. Why would Suze let this happen to her? Why won't she just try to talk to the ghosts?
Maybe she can’t bear to talk to them (the ghosts). It’s like all that peer pressure to be “normal” won’t let her talk to the ghosts. Maybe, she’s mad at them. Maybe she’s mad that they ruined her social life, that they hurt her, but did they?
Maybe the ghosts don’t have to ruin Suze’s life. Maybe they only ruin her life because she lets them. She lets everyone ruin her life. And, then I think she becomes to afraid to admit that she’s let people’s words hurt her, so she lies to herself. She tells herself that she’s some super strong ghost-buster (per-say) and that no one can hurt her. So she hurts the ghosts.
I think we all do this a lot, whether our ghosts are siblings or friends, or even mentors. We convince ourselves that we don’t need others love. And, then we take out all our pain on others. We let peer pressure make us crazy, so crazy that we could hurt and kill, and do beastly things. Instead of working things out, we choose to hurt each other. And, it’s a chain. We hurt one person and they hurt another and they hurt another, and it goes on and on and on. But, hurting others never solves anything. It just generates anger.
Suze is too stuck on what her mom says, on what others say, that she can’t even hear her heart over the roar of their words. She’s lost in a world of her mom’s dreams, and other’s dreams and commands. She’s just looking for a way to be herself, a mediator, but to also be happy and loved, and not alone. But, Suze is really stuck. By lying to herself she’s made almost impossible to get out of that cycle of hate. She refuses to admit to herself, that she’s not a grown-up. And, she can’t be a superhero. She can’t do everything right, because no one can. As soon as Suze can admit that she’s made mistakes, and that she always will, then she’ll be able to live as herself. She’ll be able to be happy being a mediator, not depressed. I think that if Suze will open her eyes she’ll be free.
But, no one said that was going to be easy.