The title kind of sums it up: Jana Riess tries on a lot of spiritual practices from various faiths, fails at living them as perfectly as she ought to, but still grows in the process. As someone who struggles with perfectionism, I loved this candid memoir. I'm trying desperately to set aside the checklists of gospel living in exchange for a truer conversion, a deeper relationship with Christ, and in the end, Riess finds that her intentional spiritual practices (though flawed) have done just that.
"All those unsuccessful practices, those attempts at sainthood that felt like dismal failures at the time, actually took hold somehow ... Although I didn't see it while I was doing the practices themselves or even while I was writing the chapters in this book, the power of spiritual practice is that it forges you stealthily, as you entertain angels unawares." (p. 168)
I particularly enjoyed Riess's research and thoughts about reading scripture; here are some notes I took on that:
"Oprah Winfrey once complained to novelist Toni Morrison that she would often have to go back over the same sentence serveral times to truly understand it. 'That, my dead, is called *reading,* Morrison explained." (p. 39)
Eugene Peterson: read scripture like a dog might gnaw a bone:
- at first joyful and playing
- then settle in privately, turning it over, burying it so you might come back later
The Hebrew word "meditate" means "growl," like an animal growls over its prey (p. 40)
"[Reading scripture for this challenge] feels like an academic exercise -- interesting but hardly life-changing. What's missing is that I'm not praying for inspiration. I'm supposed to approach the text *expecting to be changed*, not just hoping to someday dominate a Jeopardy category about Jesus trivia. I can't keep relating to the Bible with just my head. I'll have to find where it's speaking to my heart." (p. 44)
And I particularly appreciated this poignant insight from fairly early on in her journey:
"I've now failed, to one degree or another, at three different spiritual practices, which is demoralizing. I'm disappointed in myself, but somehow, I don't think God is." (p. 51)
Clean readers: just a handful of mild swears (the worst one being the s-word).