“In the Mountains” by Elizabeth von Arnim, a Review (a LONG review)
Written, 1920.
We meet the narrator through her diary as she writes from her high Swiss mountain chalet. Set at the end of the first World War, our friend has fled London life for the solace and peace of mountains. “I want to be quiet now. I crawled up here this morning from the valley like a sick ant—struggled up to the little house on the mountainside that I haven’t seen since the first August of the war, and dropped down on the grass outside it, too tired even to be able to thank God that I had got home.”
For never specified reasons, our friend, the narrator (for the life of me I can’t recall if we ever learned her name…diarists don’t usually write their own names as they detail their lives, I suppose) has left her home and perhaps her family (like I said, details are murky), broken in spirit and looking for healing.
She relates that after doing virtually nothing but laying on the grass outside the chalet for a couple of weeks (she has servants, so she can do that) she feels that her breath is coming back and she might decide that life can become bearable again.
She reminisces, of all things, about meeting Henry James (and rereads a letter he wrote to her), wanders about the hills, feels cowed by her staid servants, is slightly interested in the dog and the farmyard, and writes in her diary. At this point she shares this thought as she has become closer to healed up:
“The only thing to do with one’s old sorrows is to tuck them up neatly in their shroud and turn one’s face away from their grave towards what is coming next.”
Soon after this, two women in black dresses and funny old-fashioned petticoats, English widows to be correct, show up at her door, having lost the trail on their way from what they hoped would be a cheap lodging house (but was no longer) in the mountains. It is late in the afternoon, much too late for them to safely make it back down the mountain so, rashly, our heroine invites them to stay.
These women, two sisters, are such interesting characters. Mrs. Barnes (Kitty), a fifty-ish, well-meaning but very buttoned-up woman and her sister Mrs. Jewks (or Juchs as we discover) (Dolly), a forty-ish, shy but charming. I love little details that make stories rich. Such a one (and even better that I know so many people who share this problem), as told by Mrs. Barnes, about her and her sister’s Christian names:
“‘Our dear parents, both long since dead,’ said Mrs. Barnes, adjusting her eyeglasses more comfortably on her nose, ‘didn’t seem to remember that we would ever grow old, for we weren’t even christened Katherine and Dorothy, to which we might have reverted when we ceased being girls, but we were Kitty and Dolly from the very beginning, and actually in that condition came away from the font.’”
What follows is rather a lovely story of friendship and healing with a little mystery (a very little) and romance (a very, very little) added.
I don’t think this author is widely read anymore. Sad. It’s true that I’m only just becoming acquainted with her and can’t make a definitive judgment on her caliber over all. However, I have read her works described as fluff and the like. I suppose that may be true in a sense, maybe. But, to me, an author who can tell a story almost about nothing but, by way of wit, tenderness, humanity and true observations about real life, a story that touches and entertains me, is not who or what I’d put in the fluff category.
This story is full of silly little details and a lot of nothing happening, but then you come across these gems that show you how the author really lived, observed, and loved. Try this one:
“We don’t know what we’ve got inside us each of disorder, of discomfort, of anxieties. Perhaps there is nothing: perhaps my friends are as tidy and quiet inside as out. Anyhow, up to now we have kept ourselves to ourselves, as Mrs. Barnes would say, and we make a most creditable show. Only I don’t believe that keeping oneself to oneself attitude. Life is too brief to waste any of it being slow in making friends. I have a theory—Mrs. Barnes isn’t the only one of us three who has theories—that reticence is a stuffy, hampering thing. Except about one’s extremest bitter grief which is, like one’s extremest joy of love, too deeply hidden away with God to be told of, one should be without reserves. And if one makes mistakes, as if the other person turns out to have been unworthy of being treated frankly and goes away and distorts, it can’t be helped,--one just takes the risk. For isn’t anything better than distrust, and the slowness and selfish fear of caution? Isn’t anything better than not doing one’s fellow creatures the honour of taking it for granted that they are, women and all, gentlemen? Besides, how lonely…”
Oh my goodness, isn’t that the truth? And how many of us out there aren’t earnestly endeavoring to hide or keep closed what, if shared, could and would touch and bless lives? Can we have too many people dear to our hearts? Can we have too many opportunities to touch hearts? I absolutely love the line “goes away and distorts.” It is so accurate, but as our dear narrator so wisely continues, such connections, moments of humanity bordering on godliness, are worth the “risk.”
"’Do you,’ she asked. ‘Do I what?’ ‘Hold with love.’ ‘Yes,’ I said. ‘Whatever happens?’ ‘Yes,’ I said. ‘Whatever its end is?’ ‘Yes,’ I said. ‘And I won’t even say yes and no, and the cautious Charlotte Bronte did when she was asked if she liked London. I won’t be cautious in love. I won’t look at all the reasons for saying no. It’s a glorious thing to have had. It’s splendid to have believed all one did believe.’ ‘Even when there never was a shred of justification for the belief?’ asked Dolly, watching me. ‘Yes,’ I said; and began passionately to pin my hat on, digging the pins into my head in my vehemence. ‘Yes. The thing is to believe. Not go round first cautiously on tiptoe so as to be sure before believing and trusting that your precious belief and trust are going to be safe. Safe! There’s no safety in love. You risk the whole of life. But the great thing is to risk—to believe, and to risk everything for your belief. And if there wasn’t anything there, if it was you all by yourself who imagined the beautiful kind things in the other one, the wonderful, generous, beautiful kind things, what does it matter? They weren’t there, but you for once were capable of imagining them. You were up among the stars for a little, you did touch heaven. And when you’ve had the tumble down again and you’re scrunched all to pieces and are just a miserable heap of blood and brokenness, where’s your grit that you should complain? Haven’t you seen wonders up there past all telling, and had supreme joys? It’s because you were up in heaven that your fall is so tremendous and hurts so. What you’ve got to do is not to be killed. You’ve got at all costs to stay alive, so that for the rest of your days you may go gratefully, giving thanks to God that once…you see,’ I finished suddenly, ‘I’m a great believer in saying thank you.’”
I’d certainly give something to know someone who actually talked like that (or be one myself)! I agree! Life is too short to be stingy with loving. I don’t mean promiscuity, you know; I mean actually being willing to entertain the fact that the person you are next to right now (no matter how normal or how abnormal or how good or how bad) is a being of light, a beautiful, eternal entity who could, if you let them, and without them actually doing a thing, touch your heart and open your mind and allow you to see what it must be like, just a little, to be God. Humans are incredible.
Our narrator does find soul healing up on her mountain. Would she have found it if she had been alone? Perhaps. Often, though, our healing happens because we have the opportunity to minister to others’ wounds and miseries and thereby find solace for our own.
“A little happiness—what wonders it works! Was there ever anything like it? This is a place of blessing. When I came up my mountain three months ago, alone and so miserable, no vision was vouchsafed me that I would go down it again one of four people, each of whom would leave the little house full of renewed life, of restored hope, of wholesome looking-forward, clarified, set on their feet, made useful once more in themselves and the world. After all, we’re none of us going to be wasted. Whatever there is of good in any of us isn’t after all going to be destroyed by circumstances and thrown aside as useless. When I am so foolish—if I am so foolish I should say, for I feel completely cured! as to begin thinking backwards again with anything but a benevolent calm, I shall instantly come out here and invite the most wretched of my friends to join me, and watch them and myself being made whole. The house, I think, ought to be rechristened. It ought to be called Chalet du Fleuve Jordan. But perhaps my guests mightn’t like that.”
(is that something like “The House of the River Jordan?”, I’m not sure. But it surely seemed that the people crossed into their own lands of Promise or were on their way by the end of this short novel.)
Our narrator later shares this wise reflection:
“Like the almond trees in the suburban gardens round London that flower when the winds are cruelest, the autumn crocuses seem too frail to face the cold nights we are having now; yet it is just when conditions are growing unkind that they come out. There they are, all over the mountain fields, flowering in greater profusion the further the month moves toward winter.”
Do I flower most profusely the more I’m pushed and tried? The colder it gets? I’m afraid not, but I’m learning.
At a few points in the novel the narrator talks to herself as if she’s writing to her older and more wise self. It was confusing for just a moment until I realized who the old lady was she was talking about and when I did realize, it was so adorable! I want to talk to myself that way. To realize that one day I’ll laugh at and yet sympathize with the frazzled, fearful woman I once was. It’s good to be reminded that most elderly people probably think this way and look back on their lives in this manner. I certainly do it already and wonder and chuckle at how worked up I’ve gotten about things that felt absolutely terrifying or shattering or even crippling at the time.
“Then today I remembered my old age, and the old lady waiting at the end of the years who will want to be amused, so I’ve begun again. I have an idea that what will really most amuse that old lady, that wrinkled philosophical old thing, will be all the times when I was being uncomfortable. She will be so very comfortable herself, so done with everything, so entirely an impartial looker-on, that the rebellions and contortions and woes of the creature who used to be herself will only make her laugh. She will be blithe in her security. Besides, she will know the sequel, she will know what came next, and will see, I daresay, how vain the expense of trouble and emotions was. ‘You silly little thing!’ I can imagine her exclaiming, ‘If only you had known how it all wasn’t going to matter!’ And she will laugh very heartily; for I am sure she will be a gay old lady.”
Love, love, love. Highly recommend to those who don’t need thrilling plot and or totally-purpose driven reading and who are willing to spend some time up in the mountains. I certainly did.