I’m trying to be more zen. I feel like it’ll be better for me. My default my whole life was to feel aggrieved at the smallest of things. So who better to teach me than the Dalai Lama himself?
It was going pretty good. Recognize that every single person is trying to avoid and get rid of suffering. Cool, ya that makes sense. When things are going crappy, react with grace to prevent worse consequences from karmas that you would have to experience in the future. Ok, I can get on board. Recognize that attachments to food, clothes, etc are actually kinda twisted and you should be satisfied with adequate and use the rest of your time, money, etc trying to help others suffering and meditate so that you can overcome more problems. Difficult, but understandable.
Then there was a bunch of stuff about taking the path to enlightenment by making homage to Buddha and making offerings to the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas. Don’t worry, no sacrificing babies or puppies. Regret the horrible things you’ve done and don’t do them again. And some other stuff about making sure those who are enlightened to teach their ways. No effing clue how you do that, but still it makes sense.
Then came my favorite part, how to meditate! Dalai wants us to wake up in the middle of the night to do it. That’s tough. But I can wrap my head around it. I learned that I had kind of been meditating the wrong way, so this book opened my eyes to that, which I appreciate.
But just fricken wait for this sh*t. This last part of this book about “wisdom”. Let me just give you some quotes. “The fundamental cause of suffering is ignorance…” YES I GET IT. But then let me finish the gd sentence “…-the mistaken apprehension that living beings and objects inherently exist.” That’s like, the opener of the section. The “easy” part. “…if there was such a separate I — self-established and existing in its own right—it should become clearer…as to whether it exists as either mind or body, or the collection of mind, or different from mind and book. In fact, the closer you look, the more it is not found.” Ummm what? I read that 8 times and had to type it out here and I still have no clue what it said. And there’s more. There’s much much more.
There’s a whole section called “Do Objects Exist?” Let me give you this whole paragraph!
“Since, as we have established, when any phenomenon is sought through analysis, it cannot be found, you may be wondering whether these phenomena exist at all. However, we know from direct experience that people and things can cause pleasure and pain, and that they can help and harm. Therefore, phenomena certainly do exist; the question is how. They do not exist in their own right, but only have an existence dependent upon many factors, including a consciousness that conceptualizes them.”
Huh? Huh? Huh?
There’s a whole style of meditation called analytical meditation or special insight that forces you to think about emptiness. And so Dalai Lama tries to give us a real world analogy of this. Want to see how much this helps?!:
“A plant does not inherently exist because of being a dependent-arising.
You begin by reflecting on the fact that a plant is a dependent-arising because its production depends on certain causes and conditions(such as a seed, soil, sunlight, and water), but eventually the reasoning process must be supported by direct perception, or it cannot stand. We can see with our eyes that plants change; they grow, mature, and finally dry up. In this sense, inference is blind, since it must eventually rely on direct perception. Inference depends on reasoning, which in turn rests on basic, shared, indisputable experience through direct perception.”
You see what I’m working with here?! So I tried. I really flipping tried to understand what the heck this dude was talking about and I just couldn’t. Here’s the SUMMARY of that section:
“Frequently reflect on how phenomena arise in dependence on causes and conditions, and try to see how this opposes the way persons and things appear to be so solidly existent, to exist in their own right, to exist inherently. If you tend towards nihilism, reflect more on dependent-arising. If, by concentrating on causes and conditions, you tend to reinforce the inherent existence of phenomena, then put more emphasis on how dependence contradicts this so-solid appearance. You will probably be pulled from one side to the other; the true middle way takes time to find.”
So my brain just cannot comprehend what the heck this man is even trying to say and therefore I am not yet a Buddhist. I prob need Buddhism for dummies.