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Immortyl Revolution #3

My Fearful Symmetry

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A boy becomes a vampire and fights to become a man. Only the most gifted and beautiful Immortyls are chosen to serve Mother Kali as adepts of the ancient arts...

For nineteen-year-old Cedric MacKinnon, the promise of eternal youth and celebrity sounds like a dream come true. It becomes a nightmare when a master vampire plucks the boy from the London streets and spirits him away to India. In the fabled ashram of the adepts of the ancient arts, Cedric undergoes the grueling process of training as a temple dancer and courtesan.

With the threat of revolution hanging over court, the chief elder employs the boy he names Shardul in dangerous games of seduction and intrigue. Hated by the chief's mistress and abused by those he entertains, Cedric struggles with visions of a violent destiny that seem to come from Kali herself. The stakes are heightened when the rebel leader, Loki, is brought to India for trial and Cedric is forced to choose between the protection and patronage of a powerful elder and his love for a beautiful female adept.

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First published June 1, 2011

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Denise Verrico

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I grew up in Western PA and attended Point Park College, where I majored in theatre. I've acted, directed, designed and written plays. For seven seasons I belonged to the Oberon Theatre Ensemble in NYC.

I'm the author of the Immortyl Revolution urban fantasy series, Cara Mia, Twilight of the Gods, My Fearful Symmetry and Servant of the Goddess. I've also written an anthology of shorts featuring my three main characters, Mia, Kurt and Cedric.

I live in Ohio with my husband and son. We have six pet parrots. Every summer, my family rides as many roller coasters as possible. Feel free to share your thoughts and favorite books with me. I love fantasy and historical fiction best, but I read all kinds of books.

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Profile Image for David Watson.
434 reviews21 followers
August 4, 2012
The star of My Fearful Symmetry is nineteen year old Cedric MacKinnon. He makes his living as a prostitute in England and has recently discovered he has AIDs. He gives up prostitution and starts to perform as a street musician. One night he meets a mysterious stranger named Raj. Raj is a vampire and promises to give Cedric wealth and eternal youth if he agrees to join him.

Cedric agrees thinking that his life can’t get any worse then it already is but his life is no easier as an immortal being. He has to move to a temple in India and is forced to go through rigorous training to become an adept. Adepts are dancers, artists, servants and sex toys for the elder vampires. Being an adept is one step above being a slave but adepts are taught that they are artists that perform in the name of the Indian goddess Kali.

As an adept Cedric has to give up his real name and take on the name Shardul. He lives with the other adepts and servants and gets trained by a female vampire named Sandhya. Though Sandhya is rough on Cedric a relationship starts to blossom between the two. Sandhya has taught adepts for over 100 years and she has a dark past just like the other vampires trained to serve. Adepts are held in high regard but they have very hard lives. If they can survive their initial training they are then subject to torture by some of the elder vampires and get used for sex in order to advance their master’s political interests. If things weren’t bad enough for the serving class there is also a revolution going on.

Some vampires have formed an alliance and are swearing allegiance to a leader named Loki who was named after the Norse god of mischief that was destined to destroy the other gods. Cedric at first wanted nothing more then to live with his master Raj but as an adept he starts to see things in a different way. He starts having visions of a violent destiny and has to decide to join the revolution or continue to serve his master.

My Fearful Symmetry is actually the third book in The Immortyl Revolution series of novels. Books one and two are set in a different location and about different characters in the revolution. Book three introduces a new cast and is set in a different part of the world but by the end of the book you get to see one of the main characters of the first book. You don’t have to read the first two books Cara Mia and Twilight Of The Gods to enjoy My Fearful Symmetry.

My Fearful Symmetry is more of a dark fantasy then a horror novel but it has a good story, lots of action, good sex scenes, a love story and there are some ghoulish scenes to keep horror fans happy. I loved the character of Cedric and I liked watching him change throughout the story. This is kind of like a coming of age book. You see a young teenager turned into a vampire who at first is an immature, self centered, single minded kid but by the end he is an adult who tries to protect those around him.

One of my favorite scenes was where Cedric has to go through a purification ritual and is forced to sit in a dark space for one cycle of the moon. He is able to drink only blood mixed with a herb that brings on hallucinations. I also enjoyed the sword fights in the book and finding out about the adepts training. Another item in the book that was interesting was seeing how Religion means nothing to the vampire leaders but they use it to get what they want and to keep the adepts in line. In one scene towards the end an adept spills a food tray on an elder vampire. The elder vampire insists that the adept’s master Kalidasa must kill him but Kalidasa says he can’t kill him because the adept is in the service of the goddess Kalli. Earlier in the book Kallidasa allows an adept to be sexually abused but when he fears loosing a servant he uses religion to save him. My Fearful Symmetry is a good urban fantasy that shows us a vampire society that mirrors are own. I look forward to reading the next book in the series.
1,122 reviews302 followers
May 24, 2012
Cedric MacKinnon was nineteen and dying when a handsome stranger came to him promising an eternal, opulent life as an Immortyl. After his turning, life was better than ever until he was taken to India by his master. There he was stripped of his identity and given no choice in becoming a adept, a courtesan who submits to the often dangerous vices of powerful Immortyls. When Cedric is finally shown kindness and offered shelter from a power elder, he'll need to choose between the safety of a confining life, joining the rebel leader who fights for the victims of Immortyls and the woman he loves but may never have.

In the first two books of the Immortyl Revolution series, we follow Mia and Kurt on their journey to break free of their cruel masters and start a revolution to protect those who were abused and caste out by the more powerful Immortyls (vampires). In the third installment we are taken deep into the world of the Immortyls and shown how the the alphas and elders are reacting to the revolution through the eyes of Cedric.

After the deaths of his parents, Cedric ran away from school to make a meager earning selling his body to seedy clients who prefer their partners young. After years of this difficult life, he contracts a disease that not only takes him out of his profession but also result in an early death. Before that could occur he is saved when the mysterious Raj invites him back to his home. While there he goes through an extremely painful processes of becoming an Immortyl and at first is spoiled by Raj. But before long, Raj is called back to India by his master and Cedric learns of the darkness that really lies behind Raj's pretty face. Upon Cedric's arrival in India, his name and identity is taken from him and he is told he will be trained to become a courtesan (the term used is adept) to visiting Immortyls. No is not an option.

Despite all Cedric goes through, and he is forced to bed truly sadistic men, he doesn't brake. He still rebels in his own way and the young man with the feisty attitude manages to show himself through the slave like traditions that are forced onto him. Cedric has a spirit I was drawn to and I found myself being happy along with him when he would experience a rare joyous moment and my heart would brake for him when he was forced into another situation he would have not voluntarily found himself in.

What we see taking place through Cedric is a revolution. The rats, used then discarded and often underage Immortyls, are tired of the horrific violence rained down upon them by the alphas and elders. They have rallied behind Kurt, or Loki, and are rising up to finally fight back. At first I wasn't sure how much I'd enjoy this book because I like reading about Mia and Kurt and I wanted more. After reading just a chapter I was hooked. I not only loved Cedric's character but also that we are shown another side of the revolution. Readers get to see how powerful beings react when those who are individually weaker stand together and take on centuries old oppressive laws. It was a real treat to given the chance to read another side of the story.

My Fearful Symmetry, like the rest of the books in the Immortyl Revolution series, is well written with a strong plot held together by really good characters. Cedric's journey from a dying kid on the street to a man who will go up against the very creatures who made him is heartbreaking and a very good read. I really hope to see Cedric in future books so I can continue to watch his character grow. There is a love story but if you're looking for a HEA, you won't find it here. While there is a lot of sexual talk and situations involving men with other men, there isn't a lot of details written about the acts themselves. This series is for those who like darker paranormal romance or dark fantasy.
-Stephanie
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55 reviews19 followers
June 11, 2011
My Fearful Symmetry
By
Denise Verrico
Cedric was one of the many 'lost boys' on the streets who, in order to survive had to do things, anything to survive. It was a life of heartache and shame, but he did not have to do it alone because he had a friend who stood with him, until something astronomical changed Cedric's life forever. This 'miracle' if that is what you want to call it, could not have come at a better time because Cedric had some very bad news about his health and he knew he had very little time to live. Then, out of the shadows appeared , what he thought was his 'savior'.
The one who had been watching Cedric and stepped out of the dark to offer him 'salvation', would turn out to be the worst nightmare of Cedric's life. His life would never be the same and his journey will be like no other, something out of a fairytale, but realization is, it's real, all too real.
Take this journey with Cedric. Denise Verrico has taken me to a place where my favorite creature has not been before. She has put a total new twist on it, and I have found it very refreshing along with her wonderful and colorful imaginaton. She has put great detail and work into My Fearful Symmetry and I found a nice surprise in each and every chapter. I would recommend this book to all of you out there who love the paranormal and yes, I will now tell you the "VAMPIRE". It will captivate you and take you on a journey full of different emotions with each character.
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16 reviews17 followers
July 5, 2011
Today marks the release of My Fearful Symmetry, the third book in Denise Verrico's Immortyl Revolution series: a skillful blend of science fiction and urban fantasy, thought-provoking in its examination of tradition vs. progress; science vs. dogma; and fear vs. wisdom.

My Fearful Symmetry adds another facet to this gem of a series, in the form of Cedric MacKinnon, a London rent boy who finds himself swept into the bizarre circles of Immortyl court life in India. His transformation from teen to adult is dramatically complicated by further transformation from human to Immortyl, and from Immortyl party boy to courtesan at the temple of Kali Maa, goddess mother of all Immortyls. Kalidasa, the Exalted Father (supposedly the first Immortyl ever), gives Cedric the name Shardul (“tiger”) to weaken his individuality and eradicate his western identity, but instead, it serves as a prophetic word: the beginning of a legend.

Cedric is irreverent, bawdy, and real. His early education in the school of hard knocks makes him the ultimate skeptic, which is why his encounters with the mystical and religious aspects of the Immortyls’ old ways are so revealing. As Cedric learns that the road to truth rarely follows a straight line, he also comes to realize that it is a matter of choice whether the Immortyls live as gods or as demons among humans.
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146 reviews
May 25, 2012
Street boy, Cedric is infected with AIDS. Not knowing how long he may have to live, he meets and falls for the mysterious, Raj, who manipulates him with sweet words and gifts, and then whisks him away to exotic India. Once there, Cedric loses his identity and basically becomes a slave and trained courtesan in a palace full of vampires, who use and abuse him in the worst possible way.
This book surprised me. Told from Cedric's point of view, his voice is warm, witty, sometimes sarcastic, and often full of disbelief and resignation due to his unbelievable situation in which he finds himself.
There is plenty of action, interesting characters, and a storyline that kept me riveted with some genuine surprises and a few sad and tender moments.
I really liked Li Ching and the love and tenderness he felt for the used and weary Cedric. I liked their scenes together. And wanted both to be happy.
If I had one criticism of this book it would be that the author could have been a wee bit more graphic in the sex and torture department. A little more show and less tell to truly understand the hell and trauma that Cedric sometimes had to endure.
But overall, great read. Well written, and Cedric is a very empathetic protagonist.
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137 reviews132 followers
June 29, 2012
In the third book of the Immortyl Revolution series we get to head into the heart of the Immortyl leaders. Cedric is a young prostitute who is dying of Aids. He has not had an easy life at all and when a rich man offers to change him and help him he jumps at the chance. He goes with Raj to the Immortyl court in India where he soon learns Raj has other plans for him than being his lover. He also finds out he is little more than a slave at court but he can raise to the rank of an adept if he can complete the training.He is in for a long hard road as he finds friends and enemies all around.
Let me tell you if your looking for a light read this isn't it. This is a very deep and dark book on vampires. I felt sorry for Cedric as he gets used by everyone for their needs regardless of how he may feel. He is a great character and even tries to joke with people. He has such a unique personality. The plot is very different and very original. It has love, hate, betrayal, action and lots more. A different spin on vampires. The story leaves you wanting more, you really need to know how it turns out for Cedric and the Immortyls. Will Cedric ever finds peace and love? will the Immortyls change their ways that is just some of the things you are left wondering.
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301 reviews76 followers
September 7, 2011
I wanted to give this book 4/5 but because of what I felt was a bit of lull in the middle I marked it down to 3. In the middle was lots of politics and not really any action, but that's just my taste, and honestly some bits felt a little repetitive if I'm honest. HOWEVER, the rest of the book is excellent! I just wanted to get that nasty bit out of the way first. Right away I was endeared to leading man Cedric, he's funny and not afraid to say what he's thinking ever, though he's very naive and seems to just accept what's happening to him without fighting back, he's never really decided what it is he wants right down to his sexuality (he's bisexual fyi) but i loved him and was rooting for him all the way!
I was pulled into the book right away and found it hard to put down, it's beautifully written with lots of details that had me picturing the opulence of the Indian setting, though there was the quiet bit in the middle, it was very interesting to learn about the ashram of the adepts and the culture. The end was explosive and heartbreaking and I look forward to reading the next in the series, after I go back and read the first two!
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1,290 reviews60 followers
May 25, 2012
My Fearful Symmetry is the third book in The Immortyl Revolution series; however, it is the first of the series that I've read. I didn't feel lost or as if I was missing something integral to understanding the story. This is definitely a book for adults, but it isn't explicit in its depiction of sexuality.

Cedric starts out as a dying rent-boy, who is gifted in music and beauty, and draws the eye of Raj - who is an Immortyl. An Immortyl, to use a more current vernacular is a vampire. Cedric, once transformed, becomes Shardul and begins training to learn to be an adept - a highly prized courtesan in the Immortyl world.

I enjoyed the way that Cedric really came into his own by the end of the book and discovered his own worth. In a way, it was like watching a caterpillar transforming into a beautiful butterfly. Written in haunting words, My Fearful Symmetry is a story of love, politics, possession, and understanding oneself.

The Immortyl Revolution: Cara Mia (1), Twilight of the Gods (2), My Fearful Symmetry (3)
103 reviews
July 3, 2011
Cedric is one of the many who live on the street and engage in prostitution in order to survive. He's ashamed of what he does and would like to get a real job. But then, tragedy strikes. Cedric is diagnosed with AIDS and fights to stay alive but his days are numbered. Cedric is then "saved" by a man who turns him into a vampire. From that moment on, Cedric's life will never be the same...


Cedric probably has to be one of my favorite characters in all the three books in the Immortyl Revolution series. He suffered quite a lot in the streets of London and thought his suffering would all end when he became a creature of the night.You can't help but feel bad for Cedric. I was rooting for him to get a happy ending.

My Fearful Symmetry is my favorite book in this series so far. From the first few pages I was hooked and couldn't stop turning the pages to find out more about Cedric.

I recommend this book to anyone looking for a great read with a new take on vampires.
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Author 24 books48 followers
July 10, 2011
This isn't my normal genre, so I wasn't sure what to expect, but I think this is everything the tails of the Vampire novels of late lack. It isn't cold like the horror end, and it isn't romanticized out of realistic. Instead we get a beautifully written, sympathetic main character, brought in to save his life... or so he believes...

But his maker has an agenda, and it isn't to Cedric's glorification... but Raj's. I felt the details were beautifully done, as was the world drawn of a very old ritual--a culture where 'Adepts' are held in servitude much as I imagine the Geisha--revered in many ways, but whores, nonetheless. I think the characters, language, and detail are perfect.

It isn't for everybody--the slash romance angle isn't graphic, but is ever-present. It is not 'parts detail' but it is very erotic. But keep in mind neither of those are things I normally go for and I loved this anyway--the underlying story is well developed, very human, and beautifully told.
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Author 9 books25 followers
May 25, 2012
This is the third in the Immortyl Revolutions series and unlike the first two books, this one focuses on a new character, Cedric. The tale begins with young Cedric finding out that he's dying, which results in him believing a stranger's promises of an eternal wonderful life. Too soon, Cedric discovers the seedy, sadistic side of his new life.

This installation of the series allows the reader to see the reactions of the Immortyls to the revolution via Cedric's viewpoint. It is an interesting take to see the other side of the story.

Cedric is an interesting strong character who is forced to undergo pain and torment, but still retains his sense of self. Like the others in the series, this is a darker urban fantasy story with wonderful depth of characters and an intriguing plot.

33 reviews3 followers
May 24, 2012
This was well written and kept me interested and I will pass on to friends. Good Job!
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