The Sick Rose
By Erin Kelly
Okay. I don't usually like rating any book bad, but I have to make an exception for this one.
What was this book even about? 🤕
Did I miss something? I mean, really!
Let's start from beginning. Paul and Louisa have their own past. Louisa likes a guy named Adam Glasslake, and that guy is basically her everything even though he acts all mysterious sometimes without even giving any valid reason why.
He gets defensive when she tried to pry into his life, and STILL expects her to be goody two shoes girlfriend, why?
I don't know.
Coming to Paul and his past. His beginning started very depressing. He witnessed his father's shocking death which leaves him to be like a kid who's not social enough and a even a tiny sight of blood makes him go nauseous and makes him lose self control. And then there are these psychotic inhumane classmates of his who bully him for being a fatherless child.
I mean, what?!
I don't get these kids from schools. How can you get the satisfaction from bullying a kid for witnessing his father's death? For being without his father? Are you even human? (>.<)
Anyway. Such behavior makes them move to a different place, where he was treated like a normal student, but not for long. The bullying started again soon by some nasty students, but then Paul makes a friend called Daniel.
Daniel is quiet. Without any friends. And Paul soon realises Daniel has knowledge but he is an illiterate. He can't read or write. So they make a deal. Paul will be helping him manage his life being an illiterate, and Daniel will be his bodyguard, watching out for him whenever he is in trouble.
We all knew Daniel from the snippet of this plot anyway. What surprised me was that Daniel.. seemed like a nice guy. When he saved Paul for the first time, he shouted at those guys asking the very same questions which I wanted to ask, "Why do you go around bullying innocent people?!"
So, he's nice, isn't he? What made him go wrong? How did he turn out to be a criminal?
After turning few pages, we realized this Daniel has temper issues. If someone hits a nerve at the wrong place, they might as well be dead by Daniel's hands. And that's what happened that one fine day.
So we come to the present. Knowing just that Paul is treated as a witness and not as an accomplice to the murder, which murder you ask, yes, I'll get to that. And he'll be getting sent to some place in the meantime until the Trial starts, and that place is where Louisa works, and also hides herself from the world.
Why is she hiding? Or more like WHAT is she hiding? We don't know. She has this weird ritual now and then, where she gets herself drunk and watches Adam's videos and listens to his songs and cries. Clearly he's dead, but why is she doing all of this? We don't know.
And we won't know any of it, what Louisa is hiding or how/why did the murder happen to which Paul was a witness, until half of the book. And the half was all about Paul and Louisa meeting and getting to know each other. And also having a relationship!
And the entire time I was thinking and processing, what could this book even be about? Simply just about what happened in their past, is that it? I came to know.. That WAS it.
Sometime later in the book, when Paul gets paranoid about Carl's calls, when he's about to confess to Louisa about what his "crime" was in the first place, Louisa confesses hers, and tells she has killed Adam Glasslake.
Till that point it was pretty much clear she might have been Adam's murderer. But the why and how were the mystery which gets solved.
Louisa became this possessive girlfriend, where the idea of Adam cheating on her haunted her dreams. And that's fair, but she should have known what kinda guy Adam was before getting into all of this. I mean, he WAS seeing a girl when she met him, remember? He dumped that girl for Louisa, who's to say he won't dump her for someone else?
We come to know it wasn't any girl he was cheating her with, but with that guy Ciaran himself whom he keeps fighting with all the time.
She was relieved and hurt at the same time. But this time the hurt was more. And she was done. Done with him.
And she wanted to know she was done by pushing him away when he tried to forcefully kiss her, but it was unfortunate that the direction where she was pushing him towards, there was a car passing by just a short distance away, getting driven by a drunk person that too. Both of them realized what is going to happen. Horror was shown on both their faces. Adam gives out his hand to her and she almost takes it to pull him back, but he had got this smirk on his face which expressed, "Of course you'll save me.", which apparently Louisa didn't like?
And she doesn't try any harder to retrieve his hand to pull him back.
So he falls. He gets hit. He's terribly injured.
And Louisa hides in the shadows while the nearby residents come out, shout out names and numbers and checks his pulse, only to pronounce him dead.
Louisa goes home believing that. Hides in her home waiting for the cops to come, but they don't. Waiting for Adam's band mates to barge in accusing her of his murder, but they don't.
She waits, but none of that happens, and life goes on.
In present, soon it's new years. Louisa had gone to her sister's place while Paul was snooping around trying to find information on Adam. There's news! Paul comes to know Adam didn't die after all. He was saved and lost his 2 years memory. Didn't remember any people except for his mother. And there's another news, Adam was his band name, his actual name was Alan Murray, and Louisa wasn't aware of even that. So much for being a girlfriend?
Anyway. When Paul informs her with all this information, hoping that Louisa will be super happy knowing she isn't a murderer after all. Knowing she won't have to hide anymore...
But that doesn't happen. Louisa was more upset than be happy. Upset and scared, that he might be searching her for some revenge? And also that she spent 20 years of her life crying about someone who had been alive all this time.
Paul thought this information will bring them closer, but it did just the opposite. She became distant, and cranky.
And when that one fine day, she opens up about all her frustration, someone else overhears it too, none other than Carl Scatlock, father of Daniel.
He came to threaten Paul into taking his statement back, but he didn't need to. He got this juicy information already. All he needed was to blackmail Lousia with this and asking Louisa to hand him her entire savings.
Louisa readily agrees. Anything to save her life, and to save the secret she has been hiding all these years. But as soon as Carl left, they sat and thought through it. Who's to say he'll stop at this. Who's to say he won't return to end their life once he got what he always wanted?
What do they do? These two stupids decide to be murderers officially and devise a plan to kill Carl himself.
And funny part is, they took this seriously. Thought about all pros and cons. Practised tripping and hitting him at some place they planned. Apart from the guilt feeling gnawing at them, they were all set to get this plan into action.
But there was one thing which Paul said which pissed me off to a great extent.
He said, he would rather watch his father die again than be in this predicament.
REALLY? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?
I hope you are.
What kinda son says that?
If I were you, I'd simply hand over myself to the police. Heck, Adam didn't even die! What could the police have even done to me? I could pretend I left him on the pavement minutes before the accident, where's the evidence which can put me in trouble?
And these two idiots set off to commit a freaking murder for that.
As if one wasn't enough for each.
Yes, coming to the murder for which Paul is a witness for the trial now. What happens? Even this wasn't a surprise. Daniel and Paul were committing another burglary, but this time they get caught by a caretaker of the area, an old man names Ken Hillyard. He has already called the cops, and tells Daniel that there are secret cameras around recording his every move, couldn't he read? Yep, that was the question.
Daniel, asked him to repeat the question, which he did.
"Can't you read?"
And like we all guessed, that hits the nerve, it was as good as the person handing himself over to him in a silver platter.
But, he didn't know he was doing that. He didn't know in another second, with just a stroke, he would lose his life by a weatherpane which the guy in front of him was holding. The old man, Ken Hillyard, dies. Just like that.
And all this time Paul was simply gaping at him, didn't try stopping him fearing he'd get caught in the camera.
What do they do? Make a run for it. Hoping one of them goes free. They get to Daniel first. And eventually Paul the next day. And we know what happens next.
Coming to the present, Paul and Louisa are all ready to do their good deed. But lucky for them, on the way they get blocked by a traffic jam, as the cops are redirecting the route because an accident has occured. And while rerouting they realize, the accident which occured and the person who passes away in that is none other than Carl Scatlock.
Wow. So lucky.
They rejoice and recoil. Former as they don't have to commit their good deed anymore. And recoiling at the harsh reality of the former. That they were ABOUT to be murderers. How sick.
Well, happy realization.
So, what else now? Everything is sunshine and rainbows from here. Nobody to threaten them anymore. And even the organization planning to film the garden cancels their plan to shoot and simply decide to visit the garden instead. Louisa is ecstatic. As she didn't want to be filmed and get exposed to the outer world anyway. All is well and good.
So what happens next? Of course. Let's kill the two main protagonists as we got nothing to do x))
Sorry for the spoiler. Anyway this whole review is a spoiler.
How do they die?
Hear me out.
So there's this guy called Hash who got adopted by Carl as some temporary son. After losing both Daniel and Carl he loses his sanity, and wants to kill Paul. He leaks the gas near the caravan where he thought Paul is living, which he is, with Louisa, and this was his payback for a sweet revenge.
What can Paul even do, run for his (and Louisa's) life as fast as he could and make sure Louisa survives the impending explosion. He makes it. She's alive. Or at least till that point.
On the other hand, as soon as Louisa sees Paul returning she panics, as there are Adam's stuff lying around and she doesn't want Paul to see them and realize that Louisa loved him due to his resemblance with Adam. What does Louisa do, collect them at one place and burn that down.
Little did she know she's about to burn not just that but the entire place down. Taking hers and Paul's life along with it.
So, yes. They die.
The End.
Or.. Is it? Wait. There's more.
There's an epilogue too.
Apparently a family of four visit the garden to have a family time. It is from the father's perspective. It doesn't take a brain to guess who it might be.
Alan Murray of course.
But it isn't revealed until the last page, where he sees an inscription on a fountain which says it's dedicated to Paul Seaforth and Louisa Trevelyan for their contribution to the garden, as they are no more in this world after passing away from a tragic accident.
Louisa.. Louisa.. Alan recollects the name. Memories starts coming to him. His already existing headache worsens tenfold when he starts remembering everything and.. He screams.
THE END.
Yep, the end.
Now, I.. Have questions. Obviously.
What is the meaning of this? What is the entire plot even about? Louisa and Paul die? Just like that?
What about Daniel's trial? What about Paul's poor mother? She's already expecting, how did she feel she's about give birth to a new life knowing her first born is no more?
And what about Hash? He gets to get away from this horrific murder so easily? When the entire book was almost about how scared Paul and Louisa are for their lives for the murder they were part of when they didn't want to?
And Alan/Adam, whatever you wanna call him.
Where was he all these years? Started a family, has two kids too and his mother there is waiting for him to return?
His memory worsened that he forgot his mother too?
And what was the meaning of his scream?
Did he scream in anguish, knowing after recollecting who Louisa is, she isn't alive anymore? Or knowing she isn't alive for him to kill her again with his own hands? As, you know, she WAS the reason he lost all his memories and has had this terrible headache all these years.
So, yeah. You see my frustration?
That's my point.
-sigh-
Never mind.
Quote from the book:
When a new rose is planted on the same spot as an old one, you get a sick rose; it doesn't bloom and it'll probably die. No one really knows why, but it's not worth replanting.