This is one of those books I finished in half a day but understood only half as much. My quick reading is not to blame. It's a short book, but dense with wisdom. It definitely requires multiple readings and some deep reflection to truly uncover its value.
That said, I didn’t grasp everything in this book (no surprises there!). In fact, there were moments when I didn’t even agree with what was written. But I also recognize that I’m too naive to fully understand it right now.
Nevertheless, I read it with the objective of soaking in all the information without any preconceived notions, expectations, or objectives. Just reading, as it is.
This isn't a full-length discourse on meditation; rather, it's a collection of J. Krishnamurthy’s thoughts on the subject. Many of the quotes went over my head. Only a few lines resonated with me, not because they were poorly written, but because I haven't yet matured enough to understand them. (I’ll repeat this for my own defense, so that no part of my writing is mistaken as an attempt to discredit the book.)
Despite my limited understanding, the reading was beneficial in its own way. It has placed a few dots on the blank canvas of my mind, small dots for now. One day, those dots will connect and form a bigger picture.
This is a paradoxical situation: the teacher has arrived, but the student is not yet ready.
I’ve turned to meditation at times to calm my turbulent mind. Sitting cross-legged with closed eyes, focusing on my breath, it’s the simplest form of meditation I know. But it turns out, meditation is far more expansive and sophisticated than I had imagined. I may not fully grasp it yet because my life tends to favor simplicity.
Until that "aha" moment comes, I’ll stick to my method of sitting in silence and observing the breath.
I hope these quotes will return to me as lessons when the time is right. My goal is to get better at meditation and use it as a tool to improve my life.
This might contradict J. Krishnamurthy’s teachings, but that’s exactly what I intend to do.