Before I Say Good-bye

by Rachel Ann Nunes

After a twenty-year absence, Rikki Crockett has come home to Utah, to the same house where she grew up. When she left, she was young, hurt, and angry—abandoned by her parents and her best friend. She'd vowed never to return, but when the worst happens, home is the only place she might still find a future for her two children—a rebellious teenage girl and a sweet little boy with a learning disability. To do that, she must turn to her former best friend, Dante Rushton, and hope that he can be her hero one final time. Before I Say Good-Bye is a tender story about choices, about family, and about a woman who makes peace with her past and discovers the last and greatest hope of all.

Genres: Lds Fiction, Lds, Christian Fiction, Fiction, Chick Lit, Religion, Realistic Fiction

320 pages, Paperback

First published September 7, 2011

About the author

Rachel Ann Nunes (pronounced noon-esh) learned to read when she was four and by seventh grade knew she was going to be an author. Now as a stay-at-home mother of seven, it isn't easy to find time to write, but she will trade washing dishes or weeding the garden for an hour at the computer any day! Her only rule about writing is to never eat chocolate at the computer. "Since I love chocolate and writing," she jokes, "my family might never see me again."

Rachel has over sixty published books, including the popular Ariana series and the award-winning picture book Daughter of a King. She enjoys hiking, swimming, spending time with her family, reading, and visiting far off places.

For more information or to join her e-mailing list, visit http://www.RachelAnnNunes.com.

Reviews

[Heather · Rating 4 out of 5]

The first thing I think is absolutely perfect about this book is the cover. I love the image and colors for a Fall lay down date in stores. The second thing Before I say Goodbye has going for it is that it made me cry. Which is no small task...it takes a lot to make me cry. This one is a tear jerker. Rikki Crockett has returned to her childhood home with a teenage daughter and young son in tow. With both of her parents gone and a sure but sad future ahead of her she is seeking out her best childhood friend Dante, now married and Bishop of the local church. Each person in these two families is impacted as past meets present. Beth, Dante's wife is suspicious of why Rikki would show up again after all these years, Dante is wary to get emotionally involved on top of his ever present responsibilities as leader and father.

Told from several different perspectives, Before I Say Goodbye is a slow moving character driven story. At times I struggled with the slowness and monotony of the storyline. Rikki, main character is one I couldn't very well identify with either. She reminded me of some of the same gypsy like protagonists Nunes has used in her Autumn Rain novels and for some reason there is always an emotional disconnect for me there. But the amazing part is that I had a complete turn around my the conclusion of the book and found myself in tears. While the cynical part of me has a hard time believing there are families out there like Dante and Becca I know there are. There are those also in a church group who would swoop in and offer service when needed. Before I Say Goodbye offers hope to struggling families and those mourning loss. I would recommend it as a clean read for ages 16 and older only because the writing and theme feels more adult. Nunes shows the power one or two people can have on other people's lives and gracefully portrays the final months of someone with terminal illness. Thanks so much to Desert Book for the inspiring read!

[Julie · Rating 5 out of 5]

The book I want to review today, Before I Say Goodbye, isn't a romance, but it is still all about love--family love, friendship love, and the relationships that mean the most to us. I have to warn you, though, it's a tear-jerker. It's been years since I cried over a book and I pretty much cried non-stop through the last two chapters of this book.

The author, Rachel Nunes, introduces us to Rikki, who has sworn she'd never move back to her hometown in Utah. She had a horrible childhood and got away as soon as she could. She's come home after two divorces with her two children in tow, and she has a plan for looking up her old friend Dante.

She doesn't realize that Dante is now bishop of his Utah ward and has a wife and four kids. Dante is surprised to see Rikki show up in his ward and wonders what she's doing back here. They hadn't parted on the best of terms and it seems odd that Rikki would show up after twenty years.

Rikki's troubled daughter Kyle is befriended by Dante's daughter and Dante's wife, Becca, tries to clamp down on her jealousy by trying to help Rikki settle in. She becomes attached to Rikki's small son (whose real name is Dante but they call him by his middle name James.) Becca is struggling with some issues of her own---her husband being gone a lot, her unfulfilled dreams, trying to be a good mother. And she adds Rikki to her list of concerns.

I think what I loved most about this book was how real it is. The author doesn't sugar-coat anything. She presents a realistic picture of a ward family, warts and all, and how past relationships can affect one's future.

I think this book for me will become sort of like my Beaches video. When I need a good cry and a good message about the bonds of friendship, I will get this book out. I highly recommend it, but only if have a BOX of Kleenex nearby.

Originally reviewed on http://ldswritermom.blogspot.com

[Kathryn · Rating 5 out of 5]

WOW! you need a whole box of kleenex for this one. This story is close to my heart.My close friend is coming up on her first year anniversary of her mother's passing as a result of a brain tumor. She recently asked me how you know for sure if she really is feeling her mother near... 329 almost broke my heart, but is what I'm going to give her to read when Rikki is telling her children how much she loves them and how she will always be there watching over them in the arms of our Heavenly Father. Even though this is what we have been taught all our lives as LDS members, we are truly testing our faith when trials come at us of this magnitude especially when life is so fragile and uncertain.

When a mother is on her dying and doesn't have anyone to take her two children when she is gone, she turns to the last place on the list...home. Home where her ward family enfold her and her special children in their warmth and hearts.

This mother, Rickii didn't always choose the right when she ran from Utah and Dante, her fiancee because he chose a mission instead of her at 19, but when she was looking for someone to step in to raise her children she comes back to the one place she felt accepted and loved. She had a loving mother, but an emotionally abusive father and spend alot of her childhood with her best friend Dante. Now Dante, is married with a family of his own and happens to be the Bishop of her old family home ward. She is hoping that when Dante and Becca his wife get to know James and kyle that they will love them as she does, but their upbringing and hard external appearance don't exactly make them fit in to the LDS culture. With time Becca learns to get over her insecurities where Rickii is concerned and accept her as a friend only to find out time is slipping away. Sad story with great ending that pulls at your heart strings.

[Lisa · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is Rachel Ann Nunes' best book so far and transcends the usual book written for the female LDS reader. It's written in the first person, but from multiple points of view, something that's very hard to pull off, but I didn't get lost unless I had to stop reading in the middle of a chapter--and that's a tribute to the author and to her editor. It begins with several people's nightmares--Rikki, after 20 years, returns to the small, mostly LDS town of her upbringing with her two children after some years of hard living. She moves into the ward where her childhood friend and boyfriend, Dante, is the bishop, and he and his wife Becca have to deal with her reappearance in their lives and with her and her children's needs.

The characters of Rikki, Becca, and Rikki's daughter Kyle are especially well-developed, with witty and authentic treatment of positive and negative feelings. As the story unfolds, Nunes strikes a balance between delicacy and strength that leads to a completely satisfying conclusion that could have been a disappointment, but certainly was not. And the story's portrayal of people sincerely trying to do the right thing, follow the Lord's will, and serve where they are needed is inspiring without being preachy. Any ward could be proud of the way that Rikki's new ward becomes a family to her and her children. Well done, Rachel Ann Nunes!

[Cindi · Rating 2 out of 5]

Yea I finished the book in two days, but it was not my favorite. The mysterious reason Rikki returns to her childhood home in Utah kept me reading. Turns out she expects her childhood friend and once fiancé to take in her children since she is dying from a tumor on her brain. It was a little unrealistic that everything worked out perfectly and that Dante and his wife Becca with their for children take on Rikki's troubled daughter and son but that is the ending... However I did like that Rikki helps Becca realize her passion for gardening and reminds Dante that he has a wonderful marriage and that he is taking his wife for granted. It is very easy in marriage, especially when you have been married for many years, to take your spouse for granted and to get lost in the day to day routines of life. That is definitely a good reminder! Ages 13+

[Molly · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 stars. Really loved this one! I’m a big fan of LDS fiction. I forgot how much I enjoy Rachel Nunes novels!

[Danica is Booked · Rating 4 out of 5]

I can't believe that my computer didn't post my review of this novel already. Frustrated....but at any rate, thankfully I posted my review on my blog. Here is a part of that review. I did recieve a copy of this book from a newspaper organization to review this book. This is not my official review.

My mom fought a similar battle to the one that Rikki fought and won her battle only 3 months ago. That resulted in a deep feeling of pain and emotion from me. I immediately thought of my mom while reading and could see images of my mom while reading.


Because of experiences I've had, I knew what was going on from the very beginning. But that didn't mean I didn't like the book.


The characters were compelling, the plot was intriguing, and the writing style was fascinating. I usually don't like when novels jump from different first person views, but in this case, it actually didn't bother me in the slightest. Nunes did a good job of easily allowing me to remember who was speaking.

I loved this book and think that it would help a lot of people. I loved this book and think that many people would enjoy it. Be willing to branch out and take a chance on this book. You won't be disappointed.


For more of my unofficial review please visit http://danicapage.blogspot.com/2011/1...

[Kristen · Rating 3 out of 5]

I would say this is more like a 2.5 but I'm willing to round up. This book did not redeem itself until the last 20 or so pages, and even then it still bothered me. I had a very hard time liking the characters, or even finding one thing I could relate to them with. I felt Dante was misogynistic and didn't understand all that his wife did for him and always put his needs and everyone else's needs before hers. At times I wanted to punch him in the face. Becca had so much anger and resentment not just towards her husband but at her life in general. I didn't feel that anything really was resolved with her in the end. This book also drove me nuts because it's the typical LDS book in which to have any worth you have to have these grand, amazing callings. The dad is the bishop, the mom is in the primary presidency; this drove me nuts, they based their worth on these callings.
I did however tear up at the end. I think Nunes did a good job of conveying what's really important in our lives.
Overall, I wasn't impressed with this book. I wish she would come out with more like Saving Madeleine, now that was a great book.

[Danica is Booked · Rating 4 out of 5]

I was asked to professionally review this book for a news organization that I am associated with, this is not my professional review, but rather my opinions.

My mom fought a similar battle to the one that Rikki fought and won her battle only 3 months ago. That resulted in a deep feeling of pain and emotion from me. I immediately thought of my mom while reading and could see images of my mom while reading.

Because of experiences I've had, I knew what was going on from the very beginning. But that didn't mean I didn't like the book.

The characters were compelling, the plot was intriguing, and the writing style was fascinating. I usually don't like when novels jump from different first person views, but in this case, it atually didn't bother me in the slightest. Nunes did a good job of easily allowing me to remember who was speaking.

For a more extended (unprofessional review) please visit: http://danicapage.blogspot.com/2011/1...

[Sarah Brown · Rating 4 out of 5]

I admit it...I really like Rachel Ann Nunes as an author. My enjoyment of LDS fiction comes and goes, but I have liked every one of her books. She writes REAL. The people seem more real, the problems more real and the thoughts more real. Admittedly, they are fiction and lots of MAJOR problems happen condensed into a 342 pg book, but I like that her characters aren't perfect. That they have negative thougts sometimes that I can relate to. I like that as I read about these people and their relationships I am thinking about my life and my relationships and wondering if I'm making any of these mistakes and can I do better, but it's not a self help book so I don't feel like I'm being preached at.

This book made me cry. Pretty much any book that talks about mothers losing children, or children losing mothers will do that. I started this last night and stayed up until 3:30 finishing, if that tells you anything.

[Sheila (sheilasbookreviewer) · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was simply an amazing and very moving read. It is so emotionally packed, you will be in tears the last few chapters of the book. I love Rachel's writing, especially how she brings her characters to life. I always get so involved in the story and the characters, I forget that they are not real. The story is told from four different character's viewpoints. They all have such unique voices. This aspect shows the strength in Rachel Nunes writing.

This is a powerful story of what true love is.I am not talking about romantic love, but that love you show to others when you serve and care for others.

This is a book that has LDS characters, but you do not need to be a Mormon to read this book. If you are a Christian that believes in second chances, then you will enjoy reading Before I Say Good-Bye. I gave this book 5 truly deserved stars,and it deserves even five more.

[Katie (hiding in the pages) · Rating 4 out of 5]

Before I Say Goodbye is a tender story of a woman, Rikki, who felt abandoned by her best friend and family and left home at 18. After 20 years, two divorces, two children, and many bad choices, she returns to her childhood home to make peace with her past and to give her children, a rebellious teen and a learning-disabled son, a better future.

Each chapter is headed by a character and takes on that person's point of view. I really enjoyed that--getting into the heads and thoughts of the different characters. It wasn't confusing to me.

Some aspects of this story really hit home for me and the characters all seemed so real. Great story!!

[Carmel · Rating 4 out of 5]

Rikki made some choices that changed her life in good and bad ways. She cares deeply for her children and their welfare. She turns to her old childhood friend, hoping that she'll get help from him.

I enjoyed this story, and the familiarity of the service provided through an LDS ward family. It also affected me with the mention of foster care (or who could care for the children), because we're trying to adopt through the foster care system. The story was most meaningful and touching at the end, though. I thought it would come earlier and was surprised when it didn't hit me till the end.

[Ivy · Rating 2 out of 5]

Who knew that this was an LDS book when I picked it up at the library. The cover looked so appealing I didn't even check the back. Strangely enough the story drew me in anyway. Generally I really dislike LDS fiction. I found it laughable how the author portrays such an idyllic ward family. The family in the book certainly had their fair share of trials, and were well supported by this new ward. Perhaps I should move to Spanish Fork. It deals with many themes that hit awfully close to home: single motherhood, chronic illness, teenage challenges etc. It was pretty predictable. If you enjoy an LDS fantasy then this is the book for you.

[Aimee · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 stars

I love the cover.

The story is good. My husband would say this is a drama. Sad, really. A real life kind of drama where people don't get lollipops and sunshine every day. Bad things happen and you have to find the joy and the sunshine. I guess my problem is that I live real life. This book was no escape.

But, the story was identifiable. The characters were real and well developed. The best part of the story is the sense of family among church members and neighbors. There is safety in knowing that you have good people around you to help if you ever need it.

[Jenny · Rating 4 out of 5]

The first half started kind of slow because she gives each main character a turn to read their thoughts, so for a long time you kind of wonder what this book is about. But, it is this exact writing style of seeing into each character's head that makes them really come to life. You feel anger when they do, mourn their heartaches, triumph with their victories and, like your family and friends, really want the best for them. Expertly written, believeable characters, a story that draws you in and welcomes you as part of it.

[Suzana · Rating 4 out of 5]

Very well written. I loved how she wrote it using five different voices; three adults and two teenage kids, one from each family. I could not put it down, but I must warn before anyone starts reading it they must have tissues handy. You will cry.

What I thought about as I read it: Two people can have a similar upbringing but their lives turn out completely different because of choices they make. It is never too late to start making better choices. The love of friends. No matter how well we are doing, we can always do better.

[Angela Whiteley · Rating 5 out of 5]

I honestly thought this book would leave me feeling a little depressed since the story line is sad. Instead, whenever I put the book down I found myself happier than normal. I enjoyed my kids and husband more than normal. This happened up until the last couple chapters, which while not making me happy did not make me depressed. This book has a way of helping you see life from others perspectives or to put yourself "in their shoes". It leaves you with a desire to help others instead of being self centered or feeling entitled which is refreshing.

[Rebekah · Rating 5 out of 5]

I had a hard time with this book.... It is so very bitter sweet..... I couldn't read it fast enough but yet I didn't want to read it... This is defiantly one to make you cry throughout the book... I 'felt it' from the beginning.... I just want to give them all a HUGE hug and help out too... I feel so attached to all of them.... It also touches a little too close to home since my 9 1/2 year old nephew died from a brain tumor... Another AWESOME book by Rachel

[Debbie · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was a great book! My daughter and I really liked it. Rachel Ann Nunes is a great writer. This is the story of a woman and her children. They move back to her parents house to be closer to her childhood friend, who is married and has a family. The reason why they moved back is interesting.
I just reread this book. It is really great! I cry when I read it. It is a very touching story.

[Mina · Rating 3 out of 5]

LDS chick lit. I like Nunes novels for good, solid, clean romance stories. (Although this particular one wasn't so much romance.) My biggest complaint is that they tend to be pretty predictable.

This is the story of a mother returning to her home town and ward with her children after two decades away. She befriends her old flame and his wife and kids, and is looking for something in return.

[Heidi · Rating 2 out of 5]

I had a hard time with this book. Right away from the beginning I was able to guess what was going to happen, and the book continued to foreshadow the entire way. I felt like it was dragging on, and I just kept waiting to get to the main point, which happened in the last few chapters. Truly the best part of the book was the ending. It was easy to put down, I couldn't read more than a few chapters at a time before it would start to lose my attention.

[Heather]

A thought-provoking & poignant story as Rikki deals with all the regrets she has in life and the short time in which she has to live in order to rectify them.

It was interesting reading from the various characters' perspectives, although the "teen" voices sounded just like the "adult" voices.

Overall, a story that leads the reader through a tough journey that ultimately has a satisfactory end.

[Andrea · Rating 4 out of 5]

Rikki ran away from Utah when she was 19, hoping to never return. But, 20 (hard) years later she finds that coming home is the only hope for her children.

This book exceeded my expectations. At times I struggle with LDS fiction when it's not humorous or historical, but this was smooth and the story really drew me in. And I cried, a lot. It was touching and made me think about my priorities, especially where my family is concerned.

[Robyn · Rating 3 out of 5]

Another book my Mrs Nunes that held me captive. I had pretty much figured out what was going on from the get go, but I liked that the book took its time unfolding the story. Nobody was perfect yet everybody did their best. The story took the view points of four of the main characters and kept switching them around. The gospel was present but not pushed on anybody. No swearing, no sex and no violence.

[Lisa · Rating 5 out of 5]

I really loved this book. So many wonderfully honest and heartbreaking moments. A story of family, friendship, regret, love and faith. I couldn't put it down and will tell you to be prepared to shed some tears. Thank you Rachel Ann for restoring my faith in the power of a loving community.



I received this book free through a Goodreads giveaway.

[Kari · Rating 3 out of 5]

Good book. While this novel doesn't have much action or excitement, Nunes has a way of writing that makes her characters so real and emotions so true that I couldn't help but get involved. I could so closely relate with Becca, Rikki, and Kyle that the ride through their journey acted somewhat as a balm to some of my own personal emotional hurts.

[Jessica · Rating 3 out of 5]

This one included a little too much Mormon culture and doctrine for my taste. However, I felt myself highly engaged and connected to the characters. I could really relate with one of the characters and it made me self-evaluate. When a book pushes me to do this, I have to say thank you to the author.

[Patty · Rating 4 out of 5]

I found myself enjoying this book more than I thought I would. It was somewhat predictable, but that didn't seem to matter. Good clean fiction. The family is pretty much " perfect" , although the author does throw in some problems to make it seem like they aren't. I would recommend this book. It does give you a good idea of what a good family can be like.

[Spring Clark · Rating 5 out of 5]

I laughed - I cried - I loved it! This was a very different book from other Rachel Ann Nunes books. It is a touching story of redemption and love and service. It made me want to hug my children and husband closer and make sure that I was serving my neighbors as I should.