Annie Dunne is getting old. At fifty-nine her hair is grayed and she lives with her cousin, Sarah, two years her elder, not exactly as charity, because she does the bulk of the work around the farm they occupy, but certainly as a person without property or standing. Billy Kerr is a forty-five year old man who hangs about the place, doing small chores, and schmoozing Sarah, and Annie sees him as a threat, a man who wants to acquire a farm and is not adverse to any method of acquiring it.
Into this scenario come two children, Annie’s nephew’s children, to stay for the summer while their parents relocate the family to London. Their presence stirs Annie’s memories and sensibilities, and heightens her awareness of the vulnerability of her age. There is also an undercurrent of bewilderment about the presence of children in this world of disillusioned adults--can Annie even know what innocence is any longer?
What is this growing old, when even the engine that holds our despair and hope in balance begins to fail us.
This story has a sad, haunted quality from the first sentence.
“Oh, Kelsha is a distant place, over the mountains from everywhere. You go over the mountains to get there, and eventually, through dreams.
And yet, there is something so beautiful and lyrical about Barry’s writing that it soothes the soul. His descriptions drip, like rain, onto the page. I would read him for the sheer lilt of his voice, even if there were no such marvelous tale to hold his words together.
At length against the long impulse of the night I go out into the starry yard to comfort the long ropes of my muscles and the field sticks of my bones. I carry the bed heat on the surface of my skin and the soft breeze of the night shows great interest in me, raising the hairs on my arms.
I took an immediate liking to Annie, who finds beauty in the simple, ordinary tasks of life and in the world of God’s creation. It is this that buoys her and keeps her afloat in a world that has truly not been kind.
The summer offers a general peace, perhaps the very peace that passeth all understanding. God may have been thinking of the Irish winter when he wrote that in the good book. My spirit is altered by the deepening length of the days, the pleasant trick that summer plays, of suggesting eternity, when the light lies in the yard, and Shep is perpetually stricken by that light, the heavy weight of heat on those special days. Hopefully heaven itself will consist of this, the broadening cheer of light as I walk out into the morning yard.
But her peace is fleeting. She is lonely, feels the emptiness of never having married and had her own children, and she fears the position she occupies as someone who has been and can be again easily discarded. She is paranoid, always waiting for the other shoe to fall, and I began to see her as an unreliable narrator, unable to sort through her own feelings, let alone accurately determine the feelings of others.
Barry is a master at building tension with the use of everyday situations. There were times in reading this that I felt literally trapped, trapped as Annie is in the life she has been given, her back humped by polio, always just outside the circle of family and community that she so longs for. She drowns in her isolation and no one notices, because she fronts herself with anger or disinterest, or silence. She ponders how to even tell Sarah, "That always I have expected to be cast off, discarded, removed…my hurts and thoughts discounted.
I closed this one with a kind of sorrowful soul. I suspect we are all like Annie in a way, too much inside ourselves sometimes, not in touch with anything but the surface of the others around us, hoping, somehow, that we will leave a footprint behind, but knowing we are mostly treading in dust that will be covered as soon as we are gone with other footprints, also destined to disappear.