In the final line of his memoir, Rochus Misch wrote, "I had no choice but to become a soldier."
This comes after he refers to war as the "worst thing men do to each other."
I am more interested in knowing if the author felt he had a choice to join the SS and become Adolf Hitler's bodyguard right up until "the boss" committed suicide in the Furherbunker.
"Choice" is complex AF. Misch never hits the complexity head-on. Or maybe he does by way of sheer simplicity. Rochus Misch comes off a young man who meant well, did what he was told, and never asked any questions. He wasn't alone and still isn't. Who wants to ask too many questions?
I have read three memoirs written by people who knew Adolf Hitler and am about to read a couple more. Heinz Linge's is my favorite so far. As a writer, Rochus Misch comes off as well meaning and simple as I imagine he came off in person. (The footnotes in this book bothered the fuck out of me. At some point I became tired of third-party intrusions. Yes. I understand I am reading a memoir written by one person with a particular perspective. Let me read what this person has to say.)
One of my favorite moments in this book was when Misch notes how old Berlin dies in flames and the new one is reborn in music, guitars to be exact. Likewise, I found the author's fondness for Eva Braun unexpected and even touching. He admired her zest for life and "respected" her optimistic spirit. Misch writes that of all the people who committed suicide in the bunker, Eva Braun was the most "noble." Apparently, she went into death with her lover without resentment or remorse.
Sidenote: other writers etc., have described Eva Braun as everything from shallow to superficial to simplistic to silly to childlike to stupid to desperate and depressed to a "dumb twit."
I am still wrestling with Misch's observation about Adolf Hitler's aversion to human suffering. Apparently, Hitler could not bare to confront anything gruesome or cruel directly. This be true, how the hell do you start a war? Moreover, how do you green light concentration camps?
I have read elsewhere that Adolf Hitler never set foot in a concentration camp, never saw one. This be true, paired with Misch's claim about his aversion to human suffering, is it possible someone should have forced his ass to a concentration camp? Just wondering. What if Adolf Hitler had confronted the cruelty and suffering directly? Someone here is delusional. Misch? Hitler? Both?
They say shit trickles down from the top. So might delusion.
XO
Addendum (added 06/28/19) In answer to my own question, did Misch have a choice in regards to joining the SS then becoming Adolf Hitler's bodyguard, I will ask another question.
Did young American men have a choice to join the military then fight in Vietnam?
Choice is complicated given countries at war and governments drafting young men.
Tim O' Brien addresses the complicity of choice given those circumstances in his book, The Things They Carried, with so much such eloquence and honesty, it hurts. O' Brien did not want to go to war. He did not want to dodge the draft either. Ultimately, O' Brien confesses he decided to go to war because that was the less courageous thing to do. Dodging was more courageous.
When Misch says, "I had no choice but to become a soldier," he confronted a similar complexity without addressing it head-on the way O'Brien did, but he faced the same choice, and once Misch enlisted, he like the rest of his country's military, took an oath to serve Adolf Hitler. XO.