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Twist
“The mystery is how I managed to survive, and whether or not Maddie Twist remains alive and well and living like Brel in Paris, or beyond.”
Adele Bertei’s memoir Twist threads together the tapestry of her troubled childhood in the 60s and 70s, through the eyes of her alter ego Maddie Twist. Her beautiful mother suffers delusions of grandeur brought on by schizophrenia, bringing wonders and horrors to the Bertei home. Soon, Bertei and her two younger brothers become wards of the state of Ohio and by the time she is of middle school age, Maddie Twist has moved through—or run away from—two Cleveland foster homes and a detention home for teenagers.
At the Marycrest School for Wayward Girls, she finally finds some stability, but after she is caught kissing another girl, she’s on the run again, this time landing herself in a maximum security reformatory school for girls, all before her fifteenth birthday. With each new posting, Maddie discovers sanctuary and solidarity amongst her peers—the outcasts, while adapting to fit her surroundings, and steadily gaining trust in her own voice. As Maddie Twist ages out of the system and finds herself with a surprising new community, her only constant is a ribbon of music that weaves itself around her heart, as a beacon towards another life. She can sing, and she is certain that will be the thing to save “If there really is a God, well then, that God must be music.”
In frank prose without an ounce of self-pity, Twist is an episodic survival of the fittest, navigating the crooked rivers of poverty, race, sexuality, and gender. It is a world of little girl gangsters, drag queen solidarity, wild roller-skating, and magical thinking. As the creator of the band the Bloods, the first out, queer, all-women-rock band, Bertei has made a career as a singer, songwriter, writer, and director. With Twist, Bertei gives us a story of violence and madness, of heartbreak and perseverance, and, ultimately, redemption.
Adele Bertei’s memoir Twist threads together the tapestry of her troubled childhood in the 60s and 70s, through the eyes of her alter ego Maddie Twist. Her beautiful mother suffers delusions of grandeur brought on by schizophrenia, bringing wonders and horrors to the Bertei home. Soon, Bertei and her two younger brothers become wards of the state of Ohio and by the time she is of middle school age, Maddie Twist has moved through—or run away from—two Cleveland foster homes and a detention home for teenagers.
At the Marycrest School for Wayward Girls, she finally finds some stability, but after she is caught kissing another girl, she’s on the run again, this time landing herself in a maximum security reformatory school for girls, all before her fifteenth birthday. With each new posting, Maddie discovers sanctuary and solidarity amongst her peers—the outcasts, while adapting to fit her surroundings, and steadily gaining trust in her own voice. As Maddie Twist ages out of the system and finds herself with a surprising new community, her only constant is a ribbon of music that weaves itself around her heart, as a beacon towards another life. She can sing, and she is certain that will be the thing to save “If there really is a God, well then, that God must be music.”
In frank prose without an ounce of self-pity, Twist is an episodic survival of the fittest, navigating the crooked rivers of poverty, race, sexuality, and gender. It is a world of little girl gangsters, drag queen solidarity, wild roller-skating, and magical thinking. As the creator of the band the Bloods, the first out, queer, all-women-rock band, Bertei has made a career as a singer, songwriter, writer, and director. With Twist, Bertei gives us a story of violence and madness, of heartbreak and perseverance, and, ultimately, redemption.
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236 pages, Kindle Edition
First published March 14, 2023
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February 23, 2023
This is the first book of what the author says will be a trilogy of the stories of her life. This covers the time of 1965 to 1972 and starts with being 11 years old and having a completely dysfunctional Father who thinks he is next big-time gangster and mother who has mental issues to the point that she spends most her time impaired in some form or fashion. The author trying to find food for herself and her brothers and in time just trying to survive is gut wrenching story. With nowhere to turn, trusting the wrong people and making poor decisions lead her through struggles in the foster care system, (her first foster family will drive you angry reading all she went through reminds you of a real-life Cinderella story). The author also struggles with her attraction to girls, and this leads her to the streets and eventually to various forms of lockup. This is one of those stories that draws you in all the way to the end. Was not sure what to expect when I first started reading this, but it was a good read. I would rate it 4 1/2 out of 5 stars. Give it a read you will not be disappointed.
June 6, 2024
I used to think it was rude and unjust to criticize someone’s personal writing, but this memoir has proved me wrong. I initially picked up this book after quickly reading the title (although I cannot find it anywhere online, the title of my copy reads “Twist: Tales of a Queer Girlhood”) and the summary on the floor of the bookstore. Don’t be like me, and please read the following before purchasing:
My main qualm with this book is the presence of underlying racism. Bertei’s memoir takes place in the 60s-70s, and she is not shy about mentioning and incorporating the civil rights movement into her story. The issue is the manner in which she goes about it. In the beginning of the novel, she points out the hypocrisy of her father and grandmother’s racism but then also repeatedly defends her mother’s blackface. Something’s not adding up… Honestly, the breaking point for me in this novel was the caricaturization of Moe, a strong supporter of the black power movement, whom Bertei frames as the main villain during Maddie’s stay at Blossom Hill. Near the end of Maddie’s stay at the institute, Moe delivers a radical speech about black empowerment, generalizing that every white person’s family has raped and tortured their black ancestors. In response, Maddie retaliates by calling Moe a “liar.” In her head concurrently, she justifies her father’s racism to the audience: “he never hurt a black person.” Maddie also writes that Moe’s statement that her ancestors participated in the institution of slavery doesn’t apply to her because she’s of Irish and Sicilian descent (not true: there were black slaves in both Ireland and Sicily). Oh my god. This moment is beyond white savior; it’s white hero. And although Moe’s initial statement is charged, the author makes no attempt to critically think and provide justification for Moe (as she wrongly did for herself), instead using this moment to turn her and her ideologies into a caricature of a violent gang leader. Moments like these, unfortunately, expose the novel as yet another instance of white feminism.
I give this book at least 2 stars for pages 50-150 because those were pretty engaging and dealt with subjects clearly more appropriate for the author, such as the interaction of the patriarchy with her experiences of homophobia and gender norms. That was for sure her sweet spot, along with her found family of drag queens at the end.
I really did want to like this book, but I cannot get past the racism. If you’re in search of a true feminist novel, please consider looking elsewhere.
My main qualm with this book is the presence of underlying racism. Bertei’s memoir takes place in the 60s-70s, and she is not shy about mentioning and incorporating the civil rights movement into her story. The issue is the manner in which she goes about it. In the beginning of the novel, she points out the hypocrisy of her father and grandmother’s racism but then also repeatedly defends her mother’s blackface. Something’s not adding up… Honestly, the breaking point for me in this novel was the caricaturization of Moe, a strong supporter of the black power movement, whom Bertei frames as the main villain during Maddie’s stay at Blossom Hill. Near the end of Maddie’s stay at the institute, Moe delivers a radical speech about black empowerment, generalizing that every white person’s family has raped and tortured their black ancestors. In response, Maddie retaliates by calling Moe a “liar.” In her head concurrently, she justifies her father’s racism to the audience: “he never hurt a black person.” Maddie also writes that Moe’s statement that her ancestors participated in the institution of slavery doesn’t apply to her because she’s of Irish and Sicilian descent (not true: there were black slaves in both Ireland and Sicily). Oh my god. This moment is beyond white savior; it’s white hero. And although Moe’s initial statement is charged, the author makes no attempt to critically think and provide justification for Moe (as she wrongly did for herself), instead using this moment to turn her and her ideologies into a caricature of a violent gang leader. Moments like these, unfortunately, expose the novel as yet another instance of white feminism.
I give this book at least 2 stars for pages 50-150 because those were pretty engaging and dealt with subjects clearly more appropriate for the author, such as the interaction of the patriarchy with her experiences of homophobia and gender norms. That was for sure her sweet spot, along with her found family of drag queens at the end.
I really did want to like this book, but I cannot get past the racism. If you’re in search of a true feminist novel, please consider looking elsewhere.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
August 23, 2023
I really enjoyed this read, it is well written with a compelling storyline and well developed characters that had me wanting to carry on reading to find out more about them.
It is a gripping read that I simply couldnt put down and I read it in almost one sitting. It is equally heart breaking and gut wrenching in equal measure and even when I wanted to put it down and have a break I couldn't because it was too good to stop even for a minute.
This is my first book by this author but it wont be my last. I cannot wait to see what happens next in the saga that I have come to love
It is a gripping read that I simply couldnt put down and I read it in almost one sitting. It is equally heart breaking and gut wrenching in equal measure and even when I wanted to put it down and have a break I couldn't because it was too good to stop even for a minute.
This is my first book by this author but it wont be my last. I cannot wait to see what happens next in the saga that I have come to love
August 11, 2024
This isn't exactly a memoir, but it isn't exactly a novel either. The author calls it her origin story. I had the good fortune to go to a book signing for this book because my partner knew who Adele Bertei was. Now I want to read her other books too! It turns out that her voice isn't only as a singer, it's also a voice in writing.
May 12, 2024
fands ganz fantastisch wie sich der Schreibstil mit dem Alter Maddies mitverändert
October 1, 2023
I want to thank the author and ZE Books for sending me a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
This memoir covers the author’s life from 1965-1972. It is written in first person present tense, so the reader follows the story as it happens. It starts when the author is 11 years old, caring for her two younger brothers in place of her (at the time undiagnosed) schizophrenic mother and absent violent father.
The book is full of heartbreaking and tragic anecdotes - from the aforementioned familial abuse, to rape at gunpoint, and horrific experiences in the foster care system. It really demonstrates how children are often failed time and time again through no fault of their own. A lot of the content was very dark so this is definitely something to be aware of before picking this one up.
Throughout her teenage years, the author expresses inner turmoil over her queerness, in both her sexuality and her gender. I enjoyed the later chapters where she created her own ‘found family’ of drag queens. I would have liked to read about the continuation of this theme throughout the author’s 20s as well.
Sometimes it felt as though the child voice had the author’s adult voice coming through - things she should have thought at the time but wouldn’t have because she was a child who did not know better. The reader is also not provided with any of the author’s story past age 18. While I understand there was a lot to cover, I would have liked to see her start to overcome the adversity of her childhood and how she got to where she is now.
2/5
This memoir covers the author’s life from 1965-1972. It is written in first person present tense, so the reader follows the story as it happens. It starts when the author is 11 years old, caring for her two younger brothers in place of her (at the time undiagnosed) schizophrenic mother and absent violent father.
The book is full of heartbreaking and tragic anecdotes - from the aforementioned familial abuse, to rape at gunpoint, and horrific experiences in the foster care system. It really demonstrates how children are often failed time and time again through no fault of their own. A lot of the content was very dark so this is definitely something to be aware of before picking this one up.
Throughout her teenage years, the author expresses inner turmoil over her queerness, in both her sexuality and her gender. I enjoyed the later chapters where she created her own ‘found family’ of drag queens. I would have liked to read about the continuation of this theme throughout the author’s 20s as well.
Sometimes it felt as though the child voice had the author’s adult voice coming through - things she should have thought at the time but wouldn’t have because she was a child who did not know better. The reader is also not provided with any of the author’s story past age 18. While I understand there was a lot to cover, I would have liked to see her start to overcome the adversity of her childhood and how she got to where she is now.
2/5
August 18, 2023
Our heroine is Madeleine Marie Baptiste, but she asks to be called Maddie Twist. She has a schizophrenic mother, Kitty. Her father is an abusive husband towards her mother, called Big Al. The girl wants to be a boy. Boys can do more than girls. She says girls can't have the life they want, they have to serve. Living in these times, I do not fully agree with this statement. Women can do much more than in the times described by the author.
Our heroine grew up in a pathological family. The father did not pay child support. She and her two brothers were literally starving. Pity those poor children. They have to watch their father abuse their crazy/sick mother.
Maddie is a queer person. What does it mean? She does not define her orientation and identity with words such as lesbian, bisexual or transgender. I admire this poor character. Despite her young age, she had to take care of her own brothers. She taught them prayers, fed them, and played with them. Maddie's life wasn't pretty or all roses. She went to various strange places where she was not understood. It can be said that she was hurt not only by those closest to her.
This story shocked me deeply. I can't forget her. What scares me is that this book is an author's biography. We get to know her life in the years 1965-1972.
Too bad she didn't tell her story. I hope she had more luck. This is a very difficult and sad story. Life in those days was much worse than it is now. I invite you to know the story of Adele Bertea's life.
This is a good biography mixed with melodrama. I would love to see this novel on the big screen. This story makes you think deeply about people who are queer. Has our perception of these people changed nowadays? Or do we rather treat them the same as in those years?
Our heroine grew up in a pathological family. The father did not pay child support. She and her two brothers were literally starving. Pity those poor children. They have to watch their father abuse their crazy/sick mother.
Maddie is a queer person. What does it mean? She does not define her orientation and identity with words such as lesbian, bisexual or transgender. I admire this poor character. Despite her young age, she had to take care of her own brothers. She taught them prayers, fed them, and played with them. Maddie's life wasn't pretty or all roses. She went to various strange places where she was not understood. It can be said that she was hurt not only by those closest to her.
This story shocked me deeply. I can't forget her. What scares me is that this book is an author's biography. We get to know her life in the years 1965-1972.
Too bad she didn't tell her story. I hope she had more luck. This is a very difficult and sad story. Life in those days was much worse than it is now. I invite you to know the story of Adele Bertea's life.
This is a good biography mixed with melodrama. I would love to see this novel on the big screen. This story makes you think deeply about people who are queer. Has our perception of these people changed nowadays? Or do we rather treat them the same as in those years?
August 24, 2023
A veteran musician recalls her rough coming-of-age experience in Cleveland in the 1960s and 70s. A story of survival and redemption through challenging obstacles. Adele narrates her journey through different circumstances of her life, poverty, mental illness, domestic violence, and more. Maddie comes across as curious, impulsive, observant and brought to life by the music she hears.
After leaving foster-care, she forms a family of her own with her drag-queen neighbours, her boss from a thrift store. Her love for music and also writing is what gets her through life. This story is really emotional and one that will stay with you after you close the book. I read this book in one sitting as it had me captivated from the start
After leaving foster-care, she forms a family of her own with her drag-queen neighbours, her boss from a thrift store. Her love for music and also writing is what gets her through life. This story is really emotional and one that will stay with you after you close the book. I read this book in one sitting as it had me captivated from the start
October 21, 2023
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February 8, 2024
What is incredible is that Adele had such success after having one of the worst childhoods imaginable. The resiliency of the human spirit. The gift of music. Finding her community among other queers.
She has written impassively, never delving into self-pity. I would love to read more after this book ended how she found her way to musical success. I could not put this book down!
She has written impassively, never delving into self-pity. I would love to read more after this book ended how she found her way to musical success. I could not put this book down!
August 20, 2025
Extraordinary story of redemption, I picked this up due to Bertei's musical associations in late 70's/early 80's New York but this all proceeded that & was more than riveting in itself. The writing is excellent, very evocative & really quite funny in places despite it being such a dark tale of abuse & abandonment, it is also a tale of defiance.
October 31, 2023
Horrendous tale which I found hard to read, having to stop for a couple of days before trying again. Social work revisited. Upset me. But that’s true life. Give me a Romance with a HEA any day of the week.
July 20, 2024
Incredible account of living your truth through the hardest of times. Adele writes about her childhood full of abuse and hardships, yet it somehow felt uplifting and inspiring by the end. Her writing is poetic and paints a vibrant picture in your mind and you can’t help but put yourself in her shoes. Every time I thought “how is she going to get through this?”, she would and do it with such courage and perseverance. It made me reflect on how life keeps going now matter what you have to live through or experience. I didn’t want to put it down and now I just hope she is writing another book that picks up where this one ended.
May 18, 2025
Wow really good book, excellent writing, sometimes brutally heartbreaking. But great book.
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