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Healing my heart
the first heartbreak
is the most difficult one to deal with
my coping skill is writing
so i had to put our story into words
is the most difficult one to deal with
my coping skill is writing
so i had to put our story into words
167 pages, Kindle Edition
Published February 15, 2023
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August 24, 2023
how much pain
can a person cause you
before you finally know
how to walk away?
can a person cause you
before you finally know
how to walk away?
August 26, 2024
Now I know again why it was unread on the shelf for so long
June 14, 2023
It was like reading my own story - the devastation, the heartbreak, and the hope that it will work out the way it is meant to.
April 10, 2025
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December 28, 2024
I adore poetry, and this one didn’t have a ‚style‘ like many of them have nowadays but I didn’t really mind that, it’s her story, and who am I to judge that
July 11, 2023
oooh this really hurt
September 9, 2023
Sadly there isn't much I can say past that it was okay. Nothing really stood out but it was a decent read, felt like I had read similar poems prior, but I didn't dislike it.
October 6, 2024
“i deserve to get the love that i give to everyone else”
A book in my opinion underrated, the poems are more thoughts but very beautiful. I didn't like the subdivision very much... Despite this I recommend it!
A book in my opinion underrated, the poems are more thoughts but very beautiful. I didn't like the subdivision very much... Despite this I recommend it!
April 20, 2023
“I really thought that you were my person”
Love is a painful lesson
Love is a painful lesson
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June 6, 2024It’s insane how reading this collection reminds me of my 3 year past relationship and now new relationship. Anyone who has been in a long term relationship that has ended knows the feeling all too well. You think they’re the one and the end game but then they leave you. This collection just hits me right into my gut. :(
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April 20, 2023bro this broke me ngl
July 6, 2024
I'm no longer the target audience by this point in my life, but 10+ years ago this would have absolutely devestated me (in a good way).
More than once though, I thought to myself "haven't I already read this somewhere?". I totally get that there are only so many ways to say the same thing, but nothing here felt clever or novel - which are 2 non-negotiables in poetry for me.
Came back to edit and add this side note: I didn't feel very "healed" after reading this, as the title may lead you to expect (or was it just me who thought this would end on a bit of a higher note?); I just felt sad.
More than once though, I thought to myself "haven't I already read this somewhere?". I totally get that there are only so many ways to say the same thing, but nothing here felt clever or novel - which are 2 non-negotiables in poetry for me.
Came back to edit and add this side note: I didn't feel very "healed" after reading this, as the title may lead you to expect (or was it just me who thought this would end on a bit of a higher note?); I just felt sad.
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July 20, 2024
Oh my this book hit me right in my feelings. I learned so much that the way that I feel everyone feels it in life I just had it happen to me at an older age. If you have lost someone that you care about this is the book for you. I had to stop and go because I would start to cry. I am taken everything this book said to heart and letting go and working on loving me after I loved him.
May 16, 2024
"slowly i am starting to forget how you look like your face your eyes your body your voice i miss dreaming of you and it scares me because deep down i don't want to forget my first love"
June 11, 2025
“I deserve
to get the love
that i give
to everyone else”
to get the love
that i give
to everyone else”
September 4, 2024
Nice one. Some parts were beautiful.
December 2, 2023
I really do appreciate when collections of poems are broken up into chapters with different themes as I feel like it helps organize the thoughts, but also it just has a better flow. the title gave away pretty much what the entire collection was going to be about, but I kind of wish that it talked about healing your heart in other manners and not just from a heartbreak which was a little bit cliché in my opinion for a poet. but it was still really well written just a lot of the same subject material.
September 9, 2023
Extremely repetitive and unoriginal. Naturally the feelings these poems paint are relatable, but felt like clippings from different social media platform quotes and pop songs. I saw a quote from this book on tiktok that resonated with me and I got curious. Turns out that was the best of it.
I need to stop doing this to myself, modern poetry just ain’t for me 😩
I need to stop doing this to myself, modern poetry just ain’t for me 😩
December 11, 2023
It is short and it does speak about a breakup, It just wasn’t for me, I appreciate the shortness and author’s emotions but i just didn’t feel much depth but i think if you are going through a breakup and want to relate to it, yea read it. But its just has a specific audience, just not my cup of tea
May 1, 2024
A story told
Seems as a story told. Wouldn't necessarily say this is poetry in my views, but I read Poe, Frost, Whitman, and such. So poetry so deep and pondering, and makes you take it all a part. This is my view. Please don't misunderstand me saying it's not. Just not to me.
It is still deep, takes you through the walk of the pain, through change and thought and sometimes back and forth feeling repeated, because that's what the heart does in these situations. It is what we do.
Maybe I didn't cry because I am already numb in such things, because I listen to those songs of her every day, every night, even when I sleep. I play them. The pictures, I still view daily. The pillow, I hold and tell goodnight. I write to her every night. Hold that pain. The end of the book made me want to cry, and if not for a little one next to me, I would have let myself. So take that as you will.
It is a touching walk of love lost and pain had. Pain that had to be worked through. And the scar that will be looked at from time to time in the end. I am glad to have read it. As reading much of anything is difficult at the moment. I will probably read it again. Maybe with a glass of wine, and that music playing, to let myself feel it fully.
The read was maybe 45 minutes, the walk they had shows only a few time stamps. I would expect 6 to 9 months of this writing. Maybe a year. So quick to read, so long to live it.
Would recommend to some, but not most. As most don't need to see the pain of others to be able to read. Most don't want to see the hard times when they have already moved past them. So it is to the few that it would be recommended. And the few that would appreciate the story in these words.
Seems as a story told. Wouldn't necessarily say this is poetry in my views, but I read Poe, Frost, Whitman, and such. So poetry so deep and pondering, and makes you take it all a part. This is my view. Please don't misunderstand me saying it's not. Just not to me.
It is still deep, takes you through the walk of the pain, through change and thought and sometimes back and forth feeling repeated, because that's what the heart does in these situations. It is what we do.
Maybe I didn't cry because I am already numb in such things, because I listen to those songs of her every day, every night, even when I sleep. I play them. The pictures, I still view daily. The pillow, I hold and tell goodnight. I write to her every night. Hold that pain. The end of the book made me want to cry, and if not for a little one next to me, I would have let myself. So take that as you will.
It is a touching walk of love lost and pain had. Pain that had to be worked through. And the scar that will be looked at from time to time in the end. I am glad to have read it. As reading much of anything is difficult at the moment. I will probably read it again. Maybe with a glass of wine, and that music playing, to let myself feel it fully.
The read was maybe 45 minutes, the walk they had shows only a few time stamps. I would expect 6 to 9 months of this writing. Maybe a year. So quick to read, so long to live it.
Would recommend to some, but not most. As most don't need to see the pain of others to be able to read. Most don't want to see the hard times when they have already moved past them. So it is to the few that it would be recommended. And the few that would appreciate the story in these words.
March 31, 2024
I have read over 30 books like this. They are nothing special, and most of what is found in a teen girl's Instagram status or on Tumblr. I really dislike books like this; they feel like there is no effort and you are being scammed.
Some look like this (page 55):
i have never thought
that i could be in love
with a selfish person
The artistic choice of writing everything in lowercase was terrible, and spreading half a sentence over multiple lines to make it look like something is even worse. And don't let me start with that this is on one whole page pressed in the upper left corner.
Let me add two fortune cookie wisdoms here to show how generic it is. I will format it in the same style.
learn from how │you cannot love life
people in the arts │until you
react to criticism │live the life you love
This is worse than any wisdom of the day calendar; I am sure there is also one for heartbreak, so I'd rather buy that.
I would not judge someone's experience with love and feelings, but when there is a price on it I will.
Some look like this (page 55):
i have never thought
that i could be in love
with a selfish person
The artistic choice of writing everything in lowercase was terrible, and spreading half a sentence over multiple lines to make it look like something is even worse. And don't let me start with that this is on one whole page pressed in the upper left corner.
Let me add two fortune cookie wisdoms here to show how generic it is. I will format it in the same style.
learn from how │you cannot love life
people in the arts │until you
react to criticism │live the life you love
This is worse than any wisdom of the day calendar; I am sure there is also one for heartbreak, so I'd rather buy that.
I would not judge someone's experience with love and feelings, but when there is a price on it I will.
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February 8, 2024“little did i know that
our time together would be cut so short
I should have enjoyed it more”
“There's no one
that I trusted
the way I trusted you with
my secrets
my dreams
my fears
my insecurities
my passions
and now
I don't know
how to do that again”
”the stars aligned
but not in our favour”
“our love
was slowly burning away
and i was desperately
trying to extinguish the flame
trying to save us
but i found myself
being the one
who was getting burned”
“stop
losing yourself by still loving someone
who doesn't love you back
stop
staying with people
who don't want to stay with you
stop
seeking for his attention
hoping he will come back
stop
choosing a person
who doesn't care about you
stop
missing him
when he clearly doesn't want you
in his life
- things i've been telling myself since you left”
“once in a while
I look up at the moon
and the stars
and remember
how we used to do it too
you were obsessed
with staring at the sky
and I was obsessed
with staring at you”
our time together would be cut so short
I should have enjoyed it more”
“There's no one
that I trusted
the way I trusted you with
my secrets
my dreams
my fears
my insecurities
my passions
and now
I don't know
how to do that again”
”the stars aligned
but not in our favour”
“our love
was slowly burning away
and i was desperately
trying to extinguish the flame
trying to save us
but i found myself
being the one
who was getting burned”
“stop
losing yourself by still loving someone
who doesn't love you back
stop
staying with people
who don't want to stay with you
stop
seeking for his attention
hoping he will come back
stop
choosing a person
who doesn't care about you
stop
missing him
when he clearly doesn't want you
in his life
- things i've been telling myself since you left”
“once in a while
I look up at the moon
and the stars
and remember
how we used to do it too
you were obsessed
with staring at the sky
and I was obsessed
with staring at you”
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July 18, 2025
This was a beautiful collection of poetry telling the story of falling in love for the first time and experiencing hearbreak for the first time too.
Feeling like you gave everything and that wasn't even enough and making you question yourself and their feelings too.
One poem, I give, I really related to about giving eveything and them walking away again leaving you wondering what you did even when it often wasn't anything, alike, Your Priority, about never feeling you'd ever be made time and space for in their life, even in the future and marriage possibly too.
Unrecognisable, about changing in a relationship as time goes on together too and just growing apart over the course was sad but very true capturing the way and feelings too.
A great collection looking at love/relationships and how it can change over the years.
Feeling like you gave everything and that wasn't even enough and making you question yourself and their feelings too.
One poem, I give, I really related to about giving eveything and them walking away again leaving you wondering what you did even when it often wasn't anything, alike, Your Priority, about never feeling you'd ever be made time and space for in their life, even in the future and marriage possibly too.
Unrecognisable, about changing in a relationship as time goes on together too and just growing apart over the course was sad but very true capturing the way and feelings too.
A great collection looking at love/relationships and how it can change over the years.
October 22, 2025
This poem would really hurt if broken-hearted teenagers read it, and I mean that in the most sincere way.
Some poems make me feel the emotions, but others just feel a bit hurtful. This book says it's about healing, but the part about letting go and actually healing just wasn’t there. It would’ve been nice to see a flow from heartbreak, to being broken, then learning to let go, and finally healing.
But in this book, letting go doesn’t really mean letting go. It’s more about the regret of losing someone. There’s just too much regret. It might connect with people who recently broke up, but it doesn’t really give that feeling of hope or motivation to be okay again. Love isn’t everything. It’s okay to be without it. People can still be fine, still live, and still be happy without love.
Some poems make me feel the emotions, but others just feel a bit hurtful. This book says it's about healing, but the part about letting go and actually healing just wasn’t there. It would’ve been nice to see a flow from heartbreak, to being broken, then learning to let go, and finally healing.
But in this book, letting go doesn’t really mean letting go. It’s more about the regret of losing someone. There’s just too much regret. It might connect with people who recently broke up, but it doesn’t really give that feeling of hope or motivation to be okay again. Love isn’t everything. It’s okay to be without it. People can still be fine, still live, and still be happy without love.
June 13, 2024
Apparently this month is my poetry era. Poetry has always been hit or miss for me. I was never a big poetry reader in my youth, so I'm glad I'm finding it in my adulthood.
This one was sad and yet I loved it! It's something that I needed in my teen years, but I enjoyed it all the same. This one made me want to cry because I've felt this pain before. Both romantically and platonically.
"and when you told me it was over i wanted to hate you hate you for making me feel like this hate you for giving up on us hate you for not trying harder hate you for not wanting to love me but then i understood that hate won’t make my heart feel better won’t bring you back and that you can't hate the person you love unconditionally"
This one was sad and yet I loved it! It's something that I needed in my teen years, but I enjoyed it all the same. This one made me want to cry because I've felt this pain before. Both romantically and platonically.
"and when you told me it was over i wanted to hate you hate you for making me feel like this hate you for giving up on us hate you for not trying harder hate you for not wanting to love me but then i understood that hate won’t make my heart feel better won’t bring you back and that you can't hate the person you love unconditionally"
January 7, 2024
So I’ve like never read but I found this book through like social media or my siblings or something and when I tell you that I sobbed I was literally having a meltdown, I’ve never liked reading but this was just sooooo amazing. I’ve read another book of this author and it made me sob as well but this was just on another level this book and I’m so glad I read this because even though it shredded my heart I’ve found a genre of books that I love to read and I’m now reading at least once a day and it is thanks to Bella the author of this book. I’ve read similar books to this since I read this but I can say for sure without a doubt in my mind that this is my no. 1 book.
June 24, 2024
– 3 stars ✰
I’ll never get over the fact that i love poetry so fucking much. Guys also i just love reading sad poetry, I promise i´m not heart broken lmao.
you broke the girl
who loved you more
than she will ever
love herself
i allowed you inside my heart
i gave it to you on a platter
you were supposed to keep it safe
not let it shatter
i tried
and i tried
and i tried
when is trying ever enough?
how much pain
can a person
cause you
before you finally know
how to walk away?
I’ll never get over the fact that i love poetry so fucking much. Guys also i just love reading sad poetry, I promise i´m not heart broken lmao.
you broke the girl
who loved you more
than she will ever
love herself
i allowed you inside my heart
i gave it to you on a platter
you were supposed to keep it safe
not let it shatter
i tried
and i tried
and i tried
when is trying ever enough?
how much pain
can a person
cause you
before you finally know
how to walk away?
i deserve
to get the love
that i give
to everyone else
April 21, 2025
Honestly, after losing somebody whom I begged to stay with, reading this really helped me. There were multiple quotes that resonated with me, and I think this book really helped me understand my emotions a lot better. It helped me realise how others are also going through the same things as me, and even during these dark times, there are always better ones to come. I wasn't a big fan of the writing, but I really do think it was worth the read, especially since it helped me better understand my own emotional state.
May 20, 2025
2.5✩
"and maybe
right person wrong time is real
and when we’re ready
the universe will make sure
that it’ll be the right time for us
to finally feel something
for each other again"
"it feels
like you are slipping
through my fingers
and i'm trying to hold you tighter
but you don't want to be held
not by me
so you are slipping away
slowly
willingly
forever"
"slowly
i am starting to forget
how you look like
your face
your eyes
your body
your voice
i miss
dreaming of you
and it scares me
because deep down
i don't want to forget
my first love"
"and maybe
right person wrong time is real
and when we’re ready
the universe will make sure
that it’ll be the right time for us
to finally feel something
for each other again"
"it feels
like you are slipping
through my fingers
and i'm trying to hold you tighter
but you don't want to be held
not by me
so you are slipping away
slowly
willingly
forever"
"slowly
i am starting to forget
how you look like
your face
your eyes
your body
your voice
i miss
dreaming of you
and it scares me
because deep down
i don't want to forget
my first love"
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