All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective #1-7

by Rollercoasterwords

this is an ATYD fanfic first!!! and a harry potter fanfic only by necessity. this is literally just me rewriting each chapter of atyd but from Sirius's perspective bc i love this story so much and can't get enough of it. all credit for the original work goes to MsKingBean89 and if for some reason you've stumbled upon this without reading the original ATYD first, please go do that!!

Genres: Fan Fiction, Fantasy, Romance, LGBT, Queer, Fiction, Harry Potter

2000 pages, ebook

Published April 23, 2022

Reviews

[lila · Rating 5 out of 5]

you cannot tell me sirius & remus aren’t “the way i loved you” coded. i won’t believe it. sirius “when you are young they assume you know nothing but i knew you” black and remus “you drew stars around my scars” lupin made me sob so violently, they tore into my heart. they always were a tragedy of almosts and forevers. and for the last 15% of the fic (which, for reference, is more than 400 pages) i didn’t stop crying. at all. i’ve never felt this way before. they make me long for a love like this where i miss screaming & fighting & kissing in the rain & it’s 2 am and i’m fucking dying. i have never felt two people who fight as much as they do and yet grow more & more in love with each other as the days pass, soulmatism at its finest i tell you. wolfstar is just my comfort ship <3

after finishing this, i was so exhausted. i was shaking. trembling. hyperventilating. i’ve read a lot of dark, emotional & angsty books over the years but this? this wasn’t even that dark or explicit and the fact that it managed to hit me so hard says a lot. the original atyd had a long list of attributes to it, one of them being that since it was remus’ pov, it showed the grittier side of his life better. it showed the side of his life that was grant. it was too relatable to me because i can’t lie, remus lupin is for those people who believe they have many friends they can confide in, talk to, but they’re never anyone’s person (me). but sirius’ perspective was something else. i felt literally all the emotions with him, because as much as he can be a serial avoider & in denial sometimes, he’s also one of those characters who feel EVERYTHING. and for me, this fic was closure after everything, because i never felt the sort of satisfaction i felt after finishing this when i read the original fic. it was this queer mixture of heartbreak and love and i loved the pain and exhaustion, because it was the best kind of therapy for me.

i’m a crumbled up piece of paper lying here 🧍‍♀️

⇒ THE HOGWARTS YEARS [’til year four]: cardigan

i would never call this just a love story. yes, it has romance. yes, it’s stunning. but it’s mainly a coming of age fic, something that resonates with all of us in our heart of hearts and it’s beautiful. to me, it just offers solace and comfort because i love these characters & the way they’re portrayed so much. they’re so relatable & realistic and i can see how these are mistakes i make in my life too. they fuck up at points but they always try to mend things and to me, that’s everything.

first of all, sirius when he was a kid. one of my fav things about sirius’ pov is knowing more about his family. to be more specific, regulus, my baby. sibling dynamics are always complicated, but the black brothers took it to the next level. when they were young, oh, the way sirius used to protect regulus. the way regulus used to look up to him always. all ’til sirius went off to hogwarts and everything changed, because regulus felt like sirius had abandoned him. he had a right to everything he felt. and there began the rivalry between them, the way they couldn’t help but love and hate each other at the same time. they couldn’t help despising each other while also loving each other at the same time because they were brothers, and they always had to save each other. they remind me of that quote from thor: ragnarok - “i thought the world of you”. thought. past tense. it hurts 🤧

« i can run, but i can’t hide
from my family line »

the way walpurga (his mom) used to beat him. abuse him with words & actions, punish him with the silencio spell when he was barely a kid. he should have not ever had to deal with that shit. not only that, but the way walpurga always had this subtly homophobic undertone to all her comments made me disgusted. no wonder sirius hated himself and thought he was the one who was “corrupted”, the one who was born “wrong”. it explained so many of his actions in the og atyd as well because i couldn’t guess his full motivations for all the choices he made throughout the later years in hogwarts and the war time. but oh. oh. this showed everything with such startling detail and vivid intensity, i was just... hit in the face, in the very best of ways.

sirius & remus when they were kids! they were so innocent and adorable, it made my heart hurt and sigh in pleasure at the same time. sirius meeting remus. sirius trying to pry into the secrets remus held in his heart from the start. the way sirius thought remus was the coolest person who ever existed. sirius & remus listening to music together. the way sirius subconsciously leaned toward remus all the time, thought of him all the time, unconsciously protected him & defended him from everything. sirius being giddy about remus’ birthday. him always trying to find solutions to every problem remus faced, whether it was that he was a werewolf or his less-than-stellar past at the orphanage. sirius memorizing every full moon for remus. remus getting sirius out of that arranged marriage because who the fuck does that sort of thing now. sirius just accepted everything about remus and it was so sweet. remus being the only person who could calm sirius. <3 all the subtle, little things they’d do for each other never failed to hit me. they had the type of companionable silence that only happens when two people fully understand each other. they’re so made for each other 🫶

“a scar.”
sirius’ heart pounded. he felt a bit sick. he heard himself saying, “it’s...” different from mine. but no, he couldn’t say that. “did it happen to you at the home? where you grew up?” he thought of the black eye, and the wary look remus so often wore. sirius had never considered that the other boy might be... well. the same as him.
remus nodded, wordlessly.
sirius felt as if there was something coiling, tightly, in his chest. he nodded back, and said quietly, “i’ve got scars.”

YOUDREWSTARSAROUNDMYSCARS 🧎‍♀️ they are so cute, the way they saw each other the way no one else could have. remus “i can’t read” lupin and sirius “i won’t tell anyone” black my kings <3

“are you talking about defacing school property, potter?” sirius arched a brow, mind already spinning with ideas about what they might write, and where.
“i might just be, black.” james wiggled his eyebrows back, delighted that sirius understood. (they always understood each other, even when the others didn’t.)

HELP THEIR FRIENDSHIP NEVER FAILS TO GET ME RIGHT IN THE FEELS 😭 the hours and hours they talked at night about anything and everything? the closeness, that type of friendship always makes me feel so much. james is so precious and i love him. all the marauders together were just something else, because them playing pranks together? playfully bickering, sharing secrets & inside jokes? everything. also, “lumpy elephant dung” will never not be famous for what it is.

⇒ THE HOGWARTS YEARS [year four-seven]: red (taylor’s version) + illicit affairs

they kill me they slay me i’m dead. all the jealousy, insecurities and miscommunications their relationship suffered in this was all worth it imo because they got to be together after everything, and they just deserved happiness after all the shit they’d gone through. they love each other so much it’s insane. it’s so cute how sirius always wanted to be the coolest person in the room and yet he always admired remus for being the most effortlessly cool person, ever. 🫶

sirius black the closet is glass 🧍‍♀️

no but seriously, i think it’s so important to note that the internalized homophobia with sirius was done so effortlessly and realistically at the same time, because it hurt and yet... i could understand why he felt that way. his thoughts felt so oblivious like he didn’t even think about what remus was feeling, but it was more the fact that he purposely distanced himself from his “gay” thoughts because he believed it wasn’t right. all because of his mother (fuck you, btw!!). he was gaslighting himself into believing he didn’t have a crush on remus, yes. but he also felt like he was “tarnishing” remus by being with him and that hurt. :( he never could stop himself from being with moony because they were just meant to be. while remus is here all like

« you kept me like a secret
but i kept you like an oath »

sirius have pity on your “best mate” pls 😭🙏

“i’m good at magic,” he explained to moony’s shoulder. “but you, like... are magic, y’know?”
“you’re drunk and talking bollocks.” remus laughed, “oi, don’t fall asleep, i’ve got to get you back.”
“shuddup,” sirius breathed, and then he was out.

“YOU ARE MAGIC” sirius and then you say you aren’t desperately in love with remus huh 🤨

“was it scary? was i scary?”
sirius stared at him, at the eyes that, just a short while before, had been golden and wild and joyful. he could still make out the flecks of gold there, if he looked close enough.
“no.” he whispered back firmly, “you were beautiful.”

remus knew sirius, knew every corner of his heart and soul and it was so beautiful and THEY ARE LITERAL SOULMATES 🫡💓💗💖💘💝🩷 the way sirius thought about remus the entire time with his family too when they were torturing him “if moony can do it, so can i” i’m sobbing again 😭

james helped—they stayed up talking most nights, sometimes about his family, sometimes about the war, sometimes about nothing at all. having his friend was like having a fire in winter, a bright point of light that helped stave off the darkness when it threatened to overwhelm.

sirius ”too young to know it gets better” black & james “i’ll be summer sun for you forever” potter <3

and then finally. FINALLY. sirius and remus happened jsksbgjhjfhsgj THEY HAPPENED FOR A MOMENT ALEXA PLAY SPARKS FLY

sirius was plummeting, powerless to stop as their lips collided, mind turned to sparks, heart alight and burning in his ribcage. he’d been waiting for this—he didn’t know how long he’d been waiting for this. moony tasted like whiskey and birthday cake and desperation, and sirius was kissing back, mouth falling open—moony’s tongue slid inside, and sirius was reaching for his hips, grasping, touching, wanting more, wanting everything.

wolf “can’t stop you putting roots in my dreamland” star <3

but it HURT after this. the angst was killing me. both of them fucked up, never irrevocably, even when it felt like it sometimes. sirius’ internalized homophobia because of his family killed me more and more everyday. he never believed remus was disgusting because of what he wanted, no; rather, he thought that he was selfish, that he was forcing this on his best mate, that he was depraved and toxic - and that was torture to me i swear. the way both of them had to suffer because of that. betty by taylor swift be like

he hated that it was never enough—that she could smile up at him, and not know that when he slept at night he was dreaming of someone else.

and “sirius didn’t want the sun; at night, he dreamt of the moon” am i dead?!?!?!?!?!?????!! the way they adore each other, admire each other, and yet that tinge (or more than just a tinge 😩) of homophobia was ruining everything. :/

i’d break bones for you, he thought feverishly, on the bad nights, i’d pull teeth, open veins—i’d gut myself to make you forgive me.
in the morning, he would wake up and whisper, “i’m sorry,” as he watched remus walk out the door.

pure agony i’d never suffered the likes of before. the prank™️ was my villain origin story, sirius “if you walk away i'd beg you on my knees to stay” black hurt remus (and me) so much with this 😭

“you know i’m not a—”
“yeah,” remus interrupted him. “yeah, course. me neither.”
sirius’ heart twisted in his chest. of course, he wanted to say, of course you’re not. there was nothing wrong with remus; remus was perfect - lips shiny with spit, hair tousled, shirt rumpled deliciously from where sirius’ hands had—

i’m crying. sirius baby there’s nothing wrong with being gay ❤️‍🩹

« it’s the goddamn fight of my life
and you started it »

“you’re lovely,” he whispered, because it was true, and because he couldn’t bear to keep the words locked inside his chest.

WOLF “FALLING FEELS LIKE FLYING TIL THE BONE CRUSH” STAR
them being sweet and cute and precious >>> i need to be sedated i’m so in love.
the only thing i mourn is that there was less grant here because i miss my other baby ☹️ but having sirius’ pov more than made up for me.

« i love you
ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard »

sirius “i’m only 17 i don’t know anything but i know i miss you” black being so iconic and dramatic af as usual <3

remus coming out!! sirius and him having a relationship in secret!! free therapy for me, my serotonin levels really said: 📈📈

“um... i don’t know, i’ve told you everything.”
“you haven’t,” sirius smiled, pressing their lips together, crawling on top of him, hands sliding under remus’ shirt. he traced patterns around the scars on his ribs, his stomach, his chest. “i’m going to know everything about you, one day. i promise.”
remus kissed him, another secret, the most precious of all.

the way they’d literally die for each other, the way they hold hands, the way they LOVE each other - brb sobbing

all the marauders moments were so chefs kiss, mary macdonald is scary relatable sometimes and her friendship with sirius makes me feel all mushy i swear!! while lily, james, marlene and chris are simply... the best (notice i didn’t say peter huh). remus’ quidditch commentary took me out fr he’s a king. 😌

but they’re young and in love and... it’s not gonna last 🥲 the happiness isn’t gonna last 🥲 the foreboding is there 🥲🧍‍♀️

⇒ THE WAR: all too well (10 minute version)

in sleep, remus was as peaceful as ever, lips slightly parted, chest rising and falling with his breath. sirius had to resist the urge to lie back down, to press kisses to his forehead, his chin, his cheeks, until he came awake, blinking and yawning and smiling.

me frantically trying to ignore that these are, in fact, the war years, by focusing on all the lil wolfstar moments we got 😭 my silly little heart never learnt that it was all gonna be temporary though. remus & sirius truly worshiped the fuck out of each other though and the way i loved that?

“sirius?”
“yeah?”
“love you.”
sirius’ heart leapt against his ribcage, so hard that it settled back bruised and aching. he kissed remus’ cheek, murmuring back,
“love you too.”

THEY ACTUALLY GOT TO THE POINT WHERE THEY COULD CASUALLY SAY ILY LIKE THAT JSKDJKFHSSKB

but then, they were happy for like 3 seconds before everything went to shit (as it always does) and oh, the way they resented each other. the mistrust sirius had for remus. it’s not that huge of a surprise because of the way regulus caused those issues with him but still, it was pure ✨pain✨ 😃

« how can a person know everything at 18
but nothing at 22 »

i hated / loathed / DESPISED them starting to pull away from each other and start resenting each other for things that had no control over. i just felt so sad for them, they didn’t deserve any of that. and then remus entered his champagne problems era and fuck pls they kill me.

on the worst nights, when remus passed out drunk in their bed, and sirius smoothed the curls back from his sweat-dampened forehead, he thought to himself that moony could stick a thousand knives into his back, and he would probably love him still. because trying not to love him was like trying to hold his breath—eventually, sirius’ lungs would start burning, body screaming for air, and he would open his mouth, and it would all flood back in.

sirius “i feel like i could love him better, if i loved him less” black, i was found dead i cannot 😭 them trying desperately to salvage the remnants of their relationship is so heartbreaking because they fell apart and love wasn’t enough for them even though they loved each other more than anything.

« please don’t ever become a stranger
whose laugh i could recognize anywhere »

all i know is pain 🧍‍♀️

« did the twin flame bruise paint you blue
just between us did the love affair maim you too »

oh, love, sirius thought, through the haze in his mind, you’ve grown up without me.

my heart was aching @ sirius thinking no one was gonna love him like this, all old and bedraggled and as far from beautiful as it got ☹️ NO ONE FIGHTING FOR SIRIUS IS MY VILLAIN ORIGIN STORY I SWEAR AND NOT EVEN MOONY DOIN’ IT? I’M SOBBING

« will you still love me when
i’m no longer young & beautiful »

their eyes met, and caught, and tangled together. sirius wondered, vaguely, if they hadn’t been twined together from the very start, from that first moment twenty-five years ago when he’d looked up at the hogwarts express and seen a boy in a window on a train. hadn’t they been searching for each other again, ever since? didn’t their eyes always end up back here, somehow, together?

they serve the “always meant to be” vibes in spades and i am never getting over this 🤧 HADN’T THEY ALWAYS BEEN EACH OTHER’S FIRST & FOREMOST & ONLY LOVE (grant will disagree but i will fight with the wall here). they are infinity they will always find each other in my eyes they are perfect and i love them i love them i love them so much.

sirius “i never learned to read your mind” black
remus “i couldn’t turn things around” lupin
lomls <3

“nothing on this earth could take me from you, do you understand?” he was touching remus’s face, catching the tears with his thumbs, “not the fighting, not this war—if i died, i think i’d love you even then. don’t you understand? i can’t leave you, not if i tried, not if i wanted to.”

I CAN’T BREATHE I CAN’T BREATHE I CAN’T FUCKING BREATHE i’m still crying my cheeks are red but i missed them so much when i started reading this and now i’m numb & sad and i still miss them 🤍

[aimee · Rating 5 out of 5]

how am i supposed to live love laugh in these conditions???

[Zoë · Rating 5 out of 5]

This fic is one of the best piece of literature I’ve ever read

It made me want to die. Not because it was bad but because it was so good I felt like a piece of me had been ripped out when Lilly and James died. I never cry to books but at 1am on the 22 of July 2023 you would find me snotty nosed and red faces sobbing to words on paper. Because I loved them so much and they were so real to me. Such flawed and amazing characters that take special talent to encapsulate in words. I feel so blessed to have read this but then again I wished I hadent because it feels like my heart it being ripped out of my chest.

These are such complex and real characters. They had real and valid feelings and for that reason I will read this book every single year until I die.

“Mary deserved better. Sirius Knew that. She was so vibrant, so bright - she was a sun, the centre of her own solar system. She deserved adoration, devotion, someone who could faithfully, gratefully orbit, who would fully appreciate her warmth and light. But Sisrius didn’t want the sun. At night, he dreamt of the moon.”

Have you ever read such moving writing? This fic, while is a wolfstar fit its so much more than that. We got James Potter and his amazing spirit and never ending optimism. We got Sirius and his raw emotions that I related to so much. Remus and how love is not always perfect but angry and demanding. And how two people who love each other so much can fall out of love. We saw Mary and her amazing spirit and wise words. Lily and her steady progression to falling for James (who wouldn’t cmon. I am a jily Stan through and through) Marlene and her compassion and how they all because the best of friends and they couldn’t even grow old together.

“Because how could he smile, in a world where James and Lily Potter no longer existed? How could he feel anything but sorrow?”

James and his parents where Sirius’s only family. Their house was the only place he felt loved, and that got taken away from him in the span of months? Euphemia Potter was the light and life and that got snuffed out and everything went downhill from there. My happiness slowly deteriorated as I kept reading because fuck that broke my heart and Sirius finding James and Lily? Sobbing.

"it was James who had an ego the size of a lake, but a heart to match it"

Lets just go back to the summer of 77’ where everyone was happy Mary was laughing James and Lily talked and Remus said his truth (and Sirius was surprised bc its not gay if its with the homies 💀) I want to go back there, not now where everyone that Sirius cared about was slowly killed off one by one. Most, he didn’t even get to say goodbye to.

And Azkaban chapters? Killed my mental health Sirius slowly forgetting his friends smiles made me want to shrivel up and die. Then when he saw Harry as a replacement for James because he missed his best friend so much 💔

They all loved each other so much and of course they couldn’t live happy lives with James and Lilly and there many children and Uncle Moony and Uncle Padfoot with Harry growing up happy, loved and spoilt. But no, why be happy when you can kill peoples happiness?

I write this review with a heavy heart full of love for this book, these characters, and this place. I think I could write an essay on how amazing this book is but I will reserve that for my best friend. She will understand I love you Moony 💕Love, Padfoot

Read this book, you will regret it but its one of the most amazing piece of literature you simple cannot die without experiencing it

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The further into this book i get, the more my happiness crumbles

but i love every single second

[walkingtragedy · Rating 5 out of 5]

why read books when u can literally just read a diff pov of a fanfic you’ve read 5 times

[sara · Rating 5 out of 5]

i love my emotional support gay wizards!!!!

why go to therapy when you could just reread atyd from a different perspective <3

[livia · Rating 5 out of 5]

IM DEAD
THIS FIC WILL HAUNT ME FOREVER 😃

MY HEART IS BROKEN RN

IM NOT PROCESSING ANYTHING I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS ACTUALLY OVER WTF🧍‍♀️

I LITERALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE NOW
IT’S 5 AM AND IM SCREAMING AND CRYING

ANYWAY IT WAS PERFECT
WOLFSTAR IS EVERYTHING TO ME ISTG <3

I’LL NEVER RECOVER FROM THIS PAIN THO



FULL RTC WHEN I STOP BAWLING

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Their eyes met, and caught, and tangled together. Sirius wondered, vaguely, if they hadn’t been twined together from the very start, from that first moment twenty-five years ago when he’d looked up at the Hogwarts Express and seen a boy in a window on a train. Hadn’t they been searching for each other again, ever since? Didn’t their eyes always end up back here, somehow, together?

wolfstar is the embodiment of ‘cardigan’ by taylor swift and i could write a whole essay about it 🧍‍♀️
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“Nothing on this earth could take me from you, do you understand?” He was touching Remus’s face, catching the tears with his thumbs, “Not the fighting, not this war—if I died, I think I’d love you even then. Don’t you understand? I can’t leave you, not if I tried, not if I wanted to.”

-

Sirius held a love like a universe, beautiful and dark and bright, tucked impossibly in the space behind his ribs. He looked up, into the eyes of the man who had placed it there, and saw the same infinity reflected back—despite everything. Because of everything.

[mady · Rating 5 out of 5]

i feel so drained my heart hurts so bad

[Callie Brown · Rating 5 out of 5]

didn't think it would be possible but this hurt more than the original

[Jessie · Rating 5 out of 5]

i feel empty inside

[ale · Rating 5 out of 5]

I do not know how to cope. Not ready to once again say good bye to them; I don‘t think there is any fictional character I‘ve ever been as emotionally attached to as I am to the marauders. All the young dudes from Sirius’ perspective somehow managed to break a bit more of my heart, that hadn’t already been broken by the og fic. The way Sirius copes with all his trauma, all the loss is just written so well. And the Hogwarts years have obviously been my main source of comfort for the entire last month so once again, I really really do not know what to do with my life now that it’s done.

[gabs ⛤ · Rating 5 out of 5]

They obviously live in a village and they clearly own a bookstore and a record store

[sephora ౨ৎ⸆⸉]

a fanfic about a fanfic... seems interesting

[rannveig · Rating 5 out of 5]

i present a collection of quotes that made me want to camp on the highway:

“He didn’t look like a dangerous creature. He just looked tired.”

“He wasn’t supposed to be second-best.”

“Remus was rough and hot and demanding and yet somehow excruciatingly gentle, as if Sirius was something that might break, and it didn’t make any difference, because he was shattering all the same.”

“We were supposed to leave together.”

“You can leave your family, he wanted to say, They aren’t what makes you who you are. But he didn’t.”

“I feel like I could love him better, if I loved him less.”

“In the end, the only person Sirius managed to hate was himself, for loving Remus even as it killed him, bit by bit, every day.”

“Oh, love, Sirius thought, through the haze in his mind, You’ve grown up without me.”

“He knew he had been beautiful, once. He wasn’t anymore.”

“I wouldn’t have given up on you, if the positions had been switched. I would have never loved again. You already had it—it was already yours, all the love I ever had to give.”

[emma · Rating 5 out of 5]

passing away

[Scarlett Gilligan · Rating 5 out of 5]

Fucking RUINED

RUINED I TELL U

[diana · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 stars
mind numb senses numb we must remember to breathe! i‘m so sad ☹️

[Javii Torreblanca · Rating 5 out of 5]

Solo lo describiré como lo que es: una continúa ola de dolor y sufrimiento desde el principio hasta el final
Cuando leí atyd crei que no habría nada en el mundo que me causará tanto dolor...y estaba equivocada...definitivamente la perspectiva de sirius es mil veces más triste

[johannalae · Rating 5 out of 5]

„After all, there were so many stars in the sky—it wasn't Remus's fault that there was only one moon.“
wie soll ich normal weiterleben

[Isla · Rating 5 out of 5]

“He would forget most it, of course, in the years to come
that slow corrosion, memories rusting and crumbling
when he wasn't strong enough to lock them away. He
would forget the colour of the flowers, and the taste of
the champagne. He would forget the flavour of the cake
and the songs that they had danced to and the sound of
Marlene's laugh and whether or not Yaz had a dimple on
her left cheek. eventually, he would forget so much of it
that he would find himself wondering, at times, if it had
ever really happened-if it all hadn't just been some
cruel dream.
But he would remember the happiness. Through
everything, he would cling to it, until it haunted him like
a ghost.”

I cannot believe I just read that whole thing.
not that I have any regrets, because it was amazing and I loved it, but it’s making me wonder if I have too much free time.
but for real, it was great. I was worried that it would just feel like reading the original over again but it didn’t! still had the aspects I loved from the original but with a new twist. I very much admire the authors dedication.
If you enjoy marauders era stuff, I would definitely recommend this. the ending diverges slightly off from the ending of atyd so you get some extra wolfstar/harry content <3

[emilia · Rating 5 out of 5]

I'm a proud masochist with a void where heart's supposed to be

[emily · Rating 5 out of 5]

Finished ATYD, and it's torn your heart out and left you feeling like a shell, and has you so engrossed in silly little dead gay wizards that you're willing to read another 1800 pages about them? Read this. Dare I say, better than the original.

(I don't dare say. Each perspective has its strengths and weaknesses in terms of an individual reader's enjoyment.)

A fantastic retelling of a fantastic story. Brilliant characterisation of Sirius, and excellently written Remus from another POV. Just simply excellent.

In my opinion, not better or worse than ATYD, but completely on par. Which, as you'll know if you've read the original, is one hell of a fucking feat.

5/5

[bia · Rating 5 out of 5]

i hate my life

[maddy · Rating 5 out of 5]

better than atyd sorry babes. i cried

[veska · Rating 5 out of 5]

Holy shit that was depressing

[r ꨄ︎ · Rating 5 out of 5]

Four consecutive five-star ratings for these Volumes. Wow.

anyways pov you're me trying to hide your violent crush on sirius because that is literally Remus' Man (TM)

[angeleyne · Rating 4 out of 5]

“oh, love… you’ve grown up without me” (this quote actually made me want to die)

finally finished! kinda crazy timing because tomorrow it’ll be one year since i finished reading poa 🤯

overall, i really enjoyed reading this. it was really nice to see more of the relationship between sirius and regulus. however, one of the things that bugged me was that fact that there were quite a bit of plot holes? while it’s not really a big deal, it did get kinda annoying after a while. some plot points from the original would be brought up, but were often not explained or never brought up again. i had a bit of trouble staying motivated to read once it caught up to the events that take place between poa and ootp. these chapters were really lengthy and were basically just super condensed versions of the books with some new content. nonetheless, i still really enjoyed it.

anyways... live, laugh, love remus lupin 🫶

i also need to leave this quote here because... ouch: "after all, there were so many stars in the sky—it wasn’t remus’s fault that there was only one moon."

[gurleen · Rating 4 out of 5]

5/13/22: went back to reread this now that it's finished🥲 i was always angry rhat atyd didn't cover the time with harry but god it hurt so much that it was included in this😭😭

2/13/22: pain

[Sarah Budisavljevic · Rating 5 out of 5]

Brain rot part two. Such a long book but now that I’ve finished I do feel like I’m missing a friend. :(

[meg · Rating 5 out of 5]

this emotionally ruined me!!! five stars!!!

[megan ◡̈]

how soon is too soon to read this (i finished the og 3 days ago) bc i miss them so much