I don’t want to do this but
I have to leave MY honest review. I feel really bad because I actually follow this author on social media and have interacted with her over her hyping up the release of this book. She is a lovely lady, she really cares about this book and I can’t imagine how hard it is to write an actual book. I just consume them at a rapid pace, like I’m a serious reader. And I always leave my honest review. Which is subjective obviously. I end over 500 books last year and had maybe 20 five ⭐️ rated reads. I rate a book on how it makes me feel, during and at the end. And I was so very looking forward to the release of this book. And I believe it might be this author’s first book, not sure though. Anyways, this will contain spoilers so if you don’t want any stop reading now.
The cons of this book
The flow and transition was a freaking mess. Like a 4 or 5 page chapter then bam we are weeks and sometimes months in the future. It was choppy and did not have a good flow.
Miles, out MMC is a widow and an alcoholic with a complete lack of hygiene and will to move forward after losing his wife and daughter to a drunk driver 2years prior to meeting Birdy our FMC.
He is supposedly a financial advisor who owns his own business but lives in a cheap run down college duplex after finally leaving his beautiful family home. Makes zero sense but ok. I can see leaving his home but to move into a run down duplex with college kids…naw.
The main thing that made this book hard for me was that it was basically more of a love letter and play by play of his and his late wife’s love story. I am serious. We wee more than 67% into the book and most of his chapters were just reliving his love story with his wife, and in great detail. More so than him and our FMC Birdy’s story. It was uncomfortable because as a reader I am not usually a fan of widow/ widower’s second chance at love storylines. It’s a hard genre to sell to a reader. It’s a very thin line of showing the love between the couple and grief if losing them and yet not making the new love interest seem like second best. And this is where the book was an epic fail for me. Most of the chapter told from his POV were his love of his wife. Not even so much his daughter, it was definitely there but the focus was the wife. Like we literally went through the projection of their entire love story in detail yet skipped weeks and months when it came to him and Birdy. It was frustrating and uncomfortable to read after so long. I was mad even. Like enough already. There was way more focus in that story than the one the book was supposedly to be about.
Also, for my spicy readers this is a complete closed door no spice read. Like literally it was them kissing, talking about a condom, door closed next chapter was “ After we had our moment” which was even more frustrating due to the fact that there were more intimate scenes with the wife…still not what I would classify as spice per say as it was so so very tame…but it was more detail than the 2 alluded scenes our to MC’S had. And that it the next kill shot for me as a reader. I do not want to read about anything intimate with the MC you want me to love with someone that is not our current FMC. I felt like more went into his marriage in this story than the actual story it’s supposed to be about. I felt ick the entire time.
Also, I don’t know how a book can feel slow yet rushed at the same time but that is how it felt to me. I’ve never felt that from a book before. I downloaded this book the day it was released and there were 3 reviews, the 1st 2 being unverified purchases both short af 5 🌟 ratings, and then 1 singular verified purchase that was a 2 or 3 🌟. This was an accurate review IMO. Not sure if Lindsey had actual ARC or beta readers helping her along the way that were not friends and or family, but I highly suggest her getting some real book enthusiasts if she write another book. Because, despite this not being a great read for me, the storyline itself was something that could have been great. This could have been an epic love story. And honestly it was…for Miles and his late wife…
I admit I fell for this book by the hook that was published in a tik tok….when will I ever learn? I fall for it everytime. They take 1 line and make the book seem like something it actually isn’t really. Yeah he said the line but what was really the only hook it had and it wasn’t how he conducted himself in the book at all.
And this book made me have feelings, but not good ones. I was frustrated, mad, bored, then angry and totally turned off by the constant telling of his marriage and how much he loved his wife. It was absolutely book suicide for me. And the rushed ending and epilogue made me even madder. Like it was hurry up and cram this in a few pages so I can be done feeling….again I was resentful of how much of the other storyline I read but the one the book was supposed to be about felt incredibly rushed.