spoilers abound
- the one star is for kitsulli, sulli and fam moments, and akara and meadows fam moments only 💕
- bc other than that this book doesn’t even deserve to have any stars. not even negative ones. it’s so shitty
tldr: even tho this is akara’s romance too, kb do everything in their power to erase kitsulli and all their years of history together and even use akara’s pov for the banks hype party to replace him with banks bc they clearly hate akara and kitsulli fans, who are rightfully angry with the decisions they’ve made. like if they didn’t want them together they shouldn’t have made them out from the beginning and market them and only them for years.
fuck you krista and becca. fuck. you.
let me start off by saying that i was willing to give this the benefit of the doubt (I WAS, I REALLY WAS. because i am a whore for reverse harem/poly books) and hope that krista and becca’s ghostwriters from the addicted series and aerial ethereal series would return. they didn’t. and even though this is supposed to be half of a kitsulli book, it’s more like one big fuck you kitsulli stans book. because i mean, i knew when it was announced that sulli was getting three books, it was going to be because they needed to build her relationship with banks since he was thrown into the mix about one book ago, after selling kitsulli and kitsulli
only
for YEARS after they shut down sulli and jack stans, and they didn’t have any kind of relationship previous to this book like kb like to make it seem. i mean they literally don’t even know the basics about each other. but this. this is just another disrespect on top of everything else they’ve done to their readers within their fb group and on their social media.
- to have sulli, with no previous relationship with banks at all, get naked with him first? for her to kiss him first? TO EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT SHE LIKES HIM FIRST??? TO HAVE HIM BE SO MANY OF HER FIRST REAL SEXUAL (ie. the fingering, the eating her out) EXPERIENCES WITH A GUY??? SAYING I LOVE YOU TO HIM FIRST??????????????? over akara, with whom she’s had a relationship with for 7+ years??? and for them to have about 4 scenes alone together when it’s also their book?? if that’s not even more of a fuck you than lj shen’s naming-his-child-after-his-rapist fuck you to rape victims across the world then i really don’t know what is.
- not to mention the fact that banks has zero personality bc newsflash, being a bodyguard, a twin, a mechanic, and having headaches is not a personality trait and actually makes it seem like him and sulli are only a pity pairing. you know, that pairing when the main only gets with someone because they’re sick and feel guilty? it’s like that. and the way the victimize banks all the time to try to make me feel bad for him because he’s second to thatcher and second in everything? nice try but you two did write him as an add-on at the last minute, so no i don’t feel for him at all. he’s actually very boring.
- and where did him being in love with her from the start come from???? they didn’t even interact EVER until now????? like him being jealous and competing with akara like if he was there first when he knows he wasn’t??? it’s even brought up multiple times in the book how they didn’t know each other as friends at all until now??? what right does he have being jealous????
- and if any development beyond sexual happens between them it’s off page. so we don’t even see it which makes even the point of this (bc i guarantee you the only reason they’re even writing sulli’s books is bc of banks) moot
- and i especially hate how this is akara’s book too and yet half of his pov is really to hype banks up.
- and lbr it’s really shitty of him to play cupid when no one asked him to, fall in love with his so called best friend’s girl, force a confession out of akara before he was ready or even understood his feelings for sulli and then not even 5 minutes later get naked with her and make out with her. idk how akara stayed friends with him after that
- i mean please just explain to me how you fully know that they have feelings for each other and then think you have a right to be jealous and complain that you’re at a disadvantage or depressed that she’d choose akara, whom she’s known longer??
- like how do people root for him and not see the issue with this?? how and why is he the perfect flower child when he’s the problem??
- literally the only thing banksulli have going for them is sexual chemistry because even their platonic chemistry is like watching paint dry
and i still don’t understand how akara, a man who has unconsciously chased away so many of sulli’s admirers, even in this very book hates and is jealous of banks doing anything with sulli, would ever be ok with sharing her with him. it doesn’t make sense with his character at all, just like banksulli doesn’t make sense period.
- like they literally wrote kitsulli like if they’ve just met and don’t have years of history between each other
- like their first kiss is cut short bc sulli feels like she’s cheating on banks????? seriously??????????
- it’s literally like they hate akara with the way they sideline him, don’t give him any scenes with sulli, have sulli have so many of her firsts with banks and always have alone time with him but have akara’s time interrupted all the time, the way they make it so that sulli likes banks more, the way they make him out to be the bad guy all the time???? the way banks gets the first bonus scene??
- AND EVEN THO HE GOT TO BE THE FIRST INSIDE HER IT’S REALLY ONLY BC BANKS IS BIGGER?????? fuck you.
- we don’t even get proper development of them considering the beginning of their friendship was off page, before even damaged like us, and just the tiny crumbs in other books but that’s it. even in this book (that’s supposed to be half of theirs) their scenes feel like crumbs
- every time kitsulli stans get something nice, we can’t even enjoy it before it’s ripped away two seconds later (ex. see virginity scene above, see sulli feeling like she’s cheating on banks during her and akara’s first kiss above)
- AND SHE DIDNT EVEN TELL HIM SHE LOVES HIM??? ON HIS OWN LIKE SHE DID FOR BANKS??? it was only ever an add on like ‘i love you both.’ ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS????
- like even having jane root for banks??? jane just bc you’re sucking his brother’s dick doesn’t mean everyone has to be in with the moretti brothers
- also please explain why sulli would get hurt and mad that akara told everyone she’s just his client and his friend and agreed with banks when he called him an asshole when the three of them agreed to keep everything a secret and act normal until they were ready?????
- or how is it that akara is (all of a sudden) an ass but it’s never picked up on by sulli in their several year friendship and a surprise to her in this book? like if he really was an asshole wouldn’t it have been made known a long time ago?? what kind of ooc, characterization hole???
- they really should’ve just not written kitsulli at all from the beginning if they were going to do this
and to be perfectly honest, even the friendship between akara and banks felt.... dry. it just didn’t feel natural? it just felt like two people going through the motions of friendship but nothing was there to really tether them together? it just didn’t feel like a strong bond like when you read lo and connor or lo and ryke. or to better explain: you have your best friends that know every little thing about you, you’re practically joined at the hip; you have your friends who you’re friendly with and close to but they’re not your first choice; you have your friend that are out of necessity like to make work or school more bearable and once you’re out of there it’s like you don’t exist to each other; and then just acquaintances who you talk to and say hi to and make small talk with but nothing beyond that. akara and banks feel like a mix of acquaintances and friends out of necessity.
romance aside, let me get to sulli. because to be perfectly honest, more than half of the time it was hard to tell if i was reading from the pov of a girl or a guy. it’s literally like reading three frat brothers fall in love.
- which says a lot about the writing of this book. it’s bad. so much worse than the previous ones. think after kind of bad. wattpad fanfic when the site was just starting up kind of bad. it’s so gross and the jokes aren’t funny and the way akara and banks speak and think is borderline to just straight up uncomfortable
- also i don’t believe that sulli would be more comfortable with banks first when she’s had feelings and a relationship with akara first on top of the fact that it’s hard for sulli to make new friends even within her own family. it’s just so ooc of her.
that’s not to mention that, despite what sulli has said her mother has told her, and despite them writing ROSE FUCKING CALLOWAY COBALT, WHO WAS ALSO A VIRGIN UNTIL HER 20s AND DIDNT GIVE A FUCK AND DIDNT LET MEN’S ATTRACTION DETERMINE HER WORTH, sulli places all her worth on whether or not guys are attracted to her. like they literally make her entire characterization on her being a virgin and not being seen as a woman when she’s a fucking olypmic! gold! medalist! she’s won more shit and best more records than anyone has braincells, and this is what they make her to be??
- i understand characters are different, but you can’t write those characters, have them raise these characters, and then completely erase anything they’ve ever been taught.
honestly i can’t help but get the feeling that these authors are racist
- how is it that all these white characters know multiple languages, that we get italian-american language from banks and thatcher and yet akara.... not a lick of linguistic knowledge of his heritage. barely even food mentions.
- not to mention how they’ve treated akara outside of the series. no mentions in patreon, no gushing over him, no sharing aesthetics for him on the ig, his pinterest board gets updated not nearly as much as other boards, and then there’s the fact that this is also his book and he’s completely sidelined for banks (see: hyping him up in his pov in point made above)
- and don’t think that i’m not making the connection with how the soccer moms in the fb group (and those who just blindly follow whatever) favorite banks over akara since always and kb adding him in to the fray and giving him WAY more page time. because i am. and so i say again, i can’t help but feel like they’re racist and money chasers.
- they really did say ‘akara is on the cover’ and that was enough for them.
- and that’s not to mention the COMPLETE LACK OF POC CHARACTERS DESPITE HAVING OVER 100 CHARAS IN THE LIKE US SERIES ALONE so... hmm... interesting
and all that aside, there really isn’t a plot. i mean, none of the like us books do, but this really doesn’t have a plot. it’s literally just sex/sexual thoughts, cobaretti party planning on banks’s part, akara on his phone on his part. sulli... is just relegated to the romance as she doesn't even do what she set out to do. i mean, just once. that's it. overall, this book just felt like they didn’t want to write it. in fact, several books in the like us series just give off feeling that they don’t want to write it, so i don’t know why they keep doing it.
if it wasn’t obvious: i hated this book. i won’t be reading the next two bc it’s really just going to be the banksulli diaries even more (cause i doubt they’ll give akara more time when they didn’t here. in his own book.) tbh i wouldn’t be shocked if at the end of this, they had sulli fully pick banks and this first book just had akara in it to string along kitsulli fans so they don’t lose out on money.
and more than that i hate that i ever found kb’s books.