This was, for whatever reason, the most emotionally taxing true crime book I've ever read. Thanks to a lifelong interest in the macabre I'm quite desensitized and have a very high tolerance for gruesome details and content, but this book challenged me on that front; there were a couple of times I actually had to stop reading for a moment in order to adequately process what I had just read. I'm not sure if it was because the author was heavily referencing the video transcripts of Williams' crimes, but something about the vivid descriptions of the torture he inflicted upon his victims got to me in a way that I have not ever experienced with any other true crime book, and I was unprepared for how emotional it would be for me. Reading the exact words of two women begging for mercy and then begging for their lives as they are raped, humiliated, assaulted and eventually murdered is extremely upsetting, particularly when contrasted with Williams' smug stoicism.
As the book combs through Williams' life, interests, and activities there are a few revealing hints at his true nature, but they are greatly outnumbered by frustratingly mundane behavior and ordinary experiences. It's utterly mindboggling how well Russell Williams concealed his deviant urges behind a pathologically well-practiced mask of normality and propriety. Unfortunately the most valuable sources of information about his true self prior to getting caught - his wife and ex-girlfriends - cannot be consulted due to their refusal to discuss what they know about this man. That is no fault of the author's, of course, but the absence of that information still leaves a gaping hole in the story. In addition, the book recounts many attempts by both Canadian law enforcement and the military to cover up huge mistakes in the investigation, breaches and outright failures of protocol, attempts to deflect blame and responsibility, and even victim blaming. It left me with the certainty that the people in charge seemed to value their own professional safety over the personal safety of potential and even *actual* victims. Even though the cases are solved, when you take all of these shady factors into account it seems as though the entire story has still not been told, that there remains a mountain of evidence and information about this man and his crimes that is still waiting to be uncovered.
The most valuable parts of this book are the parts which expose weaknesses and failures in the investigation as well as in the police and military response to these crimes. I also appreciate that many different and highly experienced individuals working in various areas of criminology were consulted, instead of presenting one single unyielding view or opinion of the crimes. I hope that with time more people who were close to Russell Williams will choose to come forward and speak about what they knew of him, so that more of the gaps in the overall picture of how and why he became such a uniquely terrible rapist/killer can be filled in more accurately.