First off, I'd like to praise this book cover! This is THE MOST GORGEOUS, BEAUTIFUL book on my shelf! I've never owned such beautiful book before in my life! (Hope to see more pretty covers like these from publishers, especially local ones!) And I'm soooo shocked and proud when I picked up this book, that this was actually published by a Malaysian author/publisher. It looks like it was designed & published by international publishing house! AMAZING! And because this was written, designed & published by our local market, I immediately decided that I was going to buy it! The best part is, I DON'T even like poetry!! I haven't read poems in a million years....& here I am suddenly drawn to this strange gold-black book....don't even get me started on the black pages on the sidessss...LOVE IT!!
This book has reminded how poems can also affect you deeply & emotionally, even spiritually. Its one of the most powerful ways we can articulate to express our inner desires, lust, anger & all kinds of complex human emotions honestly, sincerely, deeply & freely. I found liberation in my heart that someone has finally put into words to describe so painfully accurate...exactly what I was feeling, thinking. Quite a few insights also from different perspectives, narratives. At times, I didn't even realised that I actually felt that way as it was buried so deeply inside of me & some of the poems brought all that buried emotions from the inside, out of me!
On the other hand, I felt that the poems were written simply...meaning I didn't find it very poetic after all in a literary sense. The words used to describe are wayy too simple. It was a pleasant & quick read, though nothing too impressive. It's like it was a written by a teenager who just discovered poetry. Amateur writing, that's my opinion. She did mentioned in the first page that "she didn't simply wrote this, she lets the words float freely instead" but honestly, it reads exactly like that. Not much effort put into crafting proper poetic sentences/words that can melt your heart. After all, this is a romance/break up poem.
The second part of this book was the short stories. I could barely finish it haha! It was not fully fleshed out which I was really frustrated & truly felt like if she could just focus on writing 1 or 2 proper full short stories, it would be 100x better than all the other many stories combined. I thought the short stories would be much better than the poems, but unfortunately it just keeps getting worse & worse. I almost dnf-ed this book.
However, there are few bits that are unique pieces, a few of them can be read from top-to-bottom & from bottom-to-top method. This is something that I find truly special & I have even posted this on my IG story. Psychedelics was also amazingg & soo unique! Love it!
All that being said, I do understand that we shouldn't compare local writers to international ones as the Malaysian standards is far, far different to theirs. But even just for local standards, I don't think this would cut it. Author can improve on crafting more complex nuances, metophors, stringing words together in a lilting way that can touch reader's hearts is a rare skill that will be really appreciated by the reading community globally.