I received this ARC from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
HOLY. FUCKING. SHITBALLS!!! My entire body is coursing with adrenaline, happiness, and impatience as I finish this book! I NEED MORE!!! I NEED to know what happens next, how this story will play out!!! It's not often a story grips me pretty much from the very first page and never loosens its grip! The only reason I gave the story 4 stars instead of 5 (GOD! I wanted SO BADLY to give it 5 stars as it TRULY is FUCKING AMAZING!!!), is because there were some minor story inconsistencies that irritated me. And while they were minor, I can't even go into them in this review because they could spoil the story! But they weren't MAJOR, so I just cut it down a tiny bit. If there were 1/2 stars available, I would gladly give it 4.5 stars!!!
The gist: Lady Serena was sold into marriage by her father, a duke. Her father needed money, so the reputation of the man he sold his daughter too wasn't all that relevant to him as long as his financial situation was kept quiet. So anyway, he sells her to this sadist beast of a man, the younger son of a Marquis, known throughout the ton for his brutal and sadist bedsport. The husband quickly whisks her off to a slave plantation in Virginia where he doesn't treat her any better than his negro slaves. She finally manages to escape to Canada and fortuitously finds an opening for a governess. Christian, the Earl of Markham, is a war hero, but he was badly scarred in battle. He was always a very handsome rake and women all but threw themselves at him, but after he became scarred, the women look at him with repulsion. He has been falsely accused of the heinous rape of a duke's daughter and exiled to Canada. He arrives penniless and befriends a merchant there. The merchant and his wife soon die, however, and Christian is left with the custody of their young daughter. He needs a governess for her. Serena always admired Christian from afar. She wasn't out in society yet before he left for war and she was married before he returned, but she'd had a young girl's romantic fantasy about him. Imagine her delight when she finds out he's looking for a governess to take with him to England. She uses an alias to obtain the position and they set off for England so he can defend himself against the rape allegations and clear his name. A romance doesn't take long to ignite between Serena and Christian. When they arrive in England, however, they quickly have more than one battle to fight. It doesn't take too long, however, before the fight becomes one for their lives against an unknown assailant dead set on an elaborate revenge plot.
Serena has been seriously damaged by her husband. Not just emotionally and mentally, but she has the physical scares to proves is sadism. She spent her youth being nothing but a commodity for her father and then spent the early part of her adulthood been a sex slave to her sadist husband. She, understandably, has zero desire to be owned by a man ever again. Even though she’s been deeply wounded by the men in her life, she is still an extremely loving and compassionate person. The first time she sees Christian’s scars, she’s horrified that someone could intentionally deface such a beautiful man. The scars don’t repulse her, in fact she hardly notices them unless she allows herself to, because she sees the beautiful man inside instead of the marred outer casing. Even though she knows, instinctively, that Christian wouldn’t harm her, she can’t help but be cautious. But then she quickly realizes that she could hurt him, his reputation, if her true identity is ever discovered and the scandal could ultimately harm his young ward’s chances at a happy marriage. She’s truly a selfless creature and you can’t help but love her even more because of it. She’s not weak, by any means, even though by all rights she should be. She’s been through Hell, literally, and come out the other side. You can’t help but root for her.
Christian. Ah, Christian! Where to start with him? He was a dashingly handsome rake in his younger days. Unbelievably handsome. He was a war hero in the fight against Bonaparte. He was heinously injured, intentionally set on fire, in battle. Now he’s madly scared on one side of his face and upper body. The only way he can get a woman to let him touch her is to pay her, so he’s a frequent at the high end brothels of London. When he’s accused of brutally beating and raping the daughter of a duke, he doesn’t even have a chance to defend himself before he’s shipped off, with only the clothes on his back. When he meets Serena, he is skeptical of her. She doesn’t seem remotely phased by his gruesome appearance, but he can’t really trust that because she seems to be hiding a great deal of secrets. Even after they begin their very passionate affair and she never shrinks away from him in repulsion, and in fact caresses and kisses his scars, he has his doubts about the purity of her feelings. How can she NOT be repulsed by him? When he finally learns her true identity, he’s even more confused and totally crushed because he feels like he’s been played for a fool. At this point, my heart was literally aching for this man. (Well, for this fictitious character anyway…) His pain was my pain. He’s truly a beautiful, beautiful man to his very core. And he will do ANYTHING to keep Serena safe. And in his arms.
I think it’s the mark of a truly fantastic author when a story can invoke real feelings and physiological responses in the reader’s body. My heart raced, my adrenaline pumped, my stomach felt full of bats, my chest and throat tightened. This book was an emotional mind fuck, to a degree. It was all romance and hot, steamy sex until they got to England. Then it was so fast paced, my head is STILL spinning. So much shit comes at them from all different directions that I was dizzy from drama overload. But in a totally FANTASTIC way!!! This is the first in the Disgraced Lords series, so a lot of groundwork had to be laid down for the rest of the books in the series. And I have to say, I will be anxiously awaiting each new book. I can’t WAIT to see how this plays out and to find out who is behind this elaborate plot and what the true motive is. I also can’t wait to get to know the rest of the Libertine Scholars. What a truly intriguing group of rakes!
If you are a fan of Regency romances, or just a fan of a great, intense story with plenty of outside drama for the couple to contend with, you will LOVE this book! If you love a good mystery, you will likely love this book. If you love a hot, steamy sex scene, you’ll enjoy the ones in this book! I can’t say enough good things about this story! Unless hot, steamy sex scenes make you blush and feel scandalized in a bad way, you should DEFINITELY read this book! I promise, you won’t regret it!!!