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146 pages, Kindle Edition
Published April 4, 2023
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Written in prose of astonishing musicality and resonance, Lori & Joe captures precisely the ebb and flow of a woman’s thoughts as she walks the Cumbrian fells following her husband’s sudden death. At first a seemingly quiet and meditative novel, the story that unfolds is anything but quiet – an unforgettable and devastating portrait of regret, secrets and harm amid a landscape of haunting beauty

He’s dead. He’s dead up there on our bed, Lori thinks, and she waits to see if she feels anything, something, and well, she doesn’t. You can’t go forcing a thing if it won’t come on its own, she thinks, and Lori looks down at her boots. She’s too late with the leather, she thinks, and she thinks of those photos you get, the ones of huge river deltas and she thinks of the boy who put his finger in the dike and she thinks, what’s that got to do with anything? And she’ll hunt out the neatsfoot anyway and she thinks, Moor Head, yes, then she’ll decide, and she feels the cold around her middle, or perhaps around her heart, although she’s never been able to pinpoint where the heart is exactly, and she thinks of all those diagrams you get, the ones of lungs and kidneys and intestines and she thinks, slippery yellows and pinks and browns and reds, and she’s supposed to feel something, if all those obituaries she reads are true, if the time she spends in the back pages of The Gazette is worth anything at all, and Lori thinks, Joseph and Lori Fitzgerald are delighted to announce, no, Joe and Lori proudly announce, and she thinks, the safe arrival of their much awaited, and she thinks, daughter or son? and she looks down at her boots and she thinks, not this, Lori, we’re past all this, and she sees her boots moving over the rough ground, grasses and sedges, swollen mosses and it’s with great sadness that we announce the passing.
That was it, Lori thinks, over. And she says, Felix, Emile, Ross, Charlotte, Louise, Silas and she hears the smallest turn of wind at the grasses. Silas, Silas, Lori says. He’ll almost be a man now, he’ll be just about the same age Emile was the day he shot the crow down from the sky, a bit older maybe, and she thinks, go on up now, yes, push on up.
And she thinks, not tears now and she feels them pushing inside her head and she thinks, all day they’ve been threatening, ever since she stopped on the bridleway and looked up at the sky. White from end to end, yes, that’s how it was this morning, Lori thinks, and it’s been nothing but rain all month, one rain after another rain, there’s hardly been time to breathe between them and she looks across the rough ground and she feels the tears pushing inside and she thinks, there can’t be another landscape that takes the rains like this one, that absorbs violence after violence and in summer gives flowers that wear veins in their petals.
And she thinks, not tears now and she feels them pushing inside her head and she thinks, all day they’ve been threatening, ever since she stopped on the bridleway and looked up at the sky. White from end to end, yes, that’s how it was this morning, Lori thinks, and it’s been nothing but rain all month, one rain after another rain, there’s hardly been time to breathe between them and she looks across the rough ground and she feels the tears pushing inside and she thinks, there can’t be another landscape that takes the rains like this one, that absorbs violence after violence and in summer gives flowers that wear veins in their petals. Bog pimpernel, Lori thinks, skylarks, cottongrass.