I received an ARC of this book and was thrilled to read another book from Kate Meader. Her books are consistently outstanding and this one is also wonderful. Bastian Durand is Reid’s younger brother. At the end of his story, Dear Roomie, Reid broke Bastian’s wrist during a faceoff between Chicago’s rival teams, the Rebels and the Hawks. Bast has spent all of this time recovering and rehabbing his wrist, unable to play, and feeling very discouraged. Although thrilled that he and Reid have reconnected and have a close relationship now, he also masks his anger toward Reid, not only for breaking his wrist, but also for treating him poorly when they were growing up.
He goes to the local hangout at Reid’s insistence, and while waiting for him, he meets a mysterious woman who refuses to give her name. She’s waiting for a friend who calls out her name when she arrives and reveals Pepper Calhoun to Bast. He immediately recoils, believing the rumors and gossip about her, but as the weeks and months pass, he can’t get her out of his mind. She also fantasizes about a life with him but believes she is bad luck and he doesn’t deserve that. Her self-confidence and self-worth really took a beating in her last relationship and the aftermath.
Pepper was studying early childhood education, months from achieving her degree, and working in a preschool when her world fell apart and she needed to leave Phoenix and move back to Chicago. Now, she acts as a part-time nanny for Theo and Elle’s son Hatch. Although she loves Hatch, she’s frustrated she cannot get a job in her field because everyone seems to know her name and the scandal associated with it. She becomes friends with Elle, and Theo has never met a stranger, so she’s friends with him too. I love how he refers to his wife as Elle-oh-Elle!
The next time Pepper and Bast meet, there’s some kind of altercation during which Pepper refuses to listen to him and walks away. Sometime later, Pepper sees Bast, at a team party, while looking out the window of Hatch’s room. She had hoped to never see him again. “Because she rarely got what she wished for, here he was ruining her day by being a handsome idiot.” She manages to avoid interacting with him.
Again, they meet, and it just gets worse. He has been traded to Reid’s team, the Rebels, and Pepper’s father is the head coach. She works as a substitute mascot, which she likes because of the anonymity it offers. She doesn’t stay anonymous for long. Now, in addition to judging her, Bast is also angry with her and wants to punish her. He arranges things so that she will have no choice (ordered by her father) but to drive him to Reid and Kennedy’s (his wife) cabin several hours from the city to get away from the latest media storm.
Forced to spend time together in a secluded cabin where they are snowed in—Pepper imagines them living in a “snow globe world,” which is certain to be smashed—they learn things about one another that make them appreciate the other more. Bast learns that the rumors surrounding Pepper are far from true and pushes Pepper to set the record straight and write her own story. She needs to demand the respect she deserves, and that means confronting her father and her brother Connor, and when necessary, the media. She encourages him to be honest about his feelings, especially with Reid, rather than trying to cover everything with a happy face and a good attitude. Both need to address some serious issues in their lives and make some changes.
Pepper feels like she needs to do this herself, so she tells Bast she doesn’t want to continue anything with him until these other issues are resolved. She still hasn’t gotten over her feelings of guilt and inadequacy and doesn’t think he deserves to be saddled with someone like her. Both regret that agreement because they want nothing more than to be together—although they’re still not certain of each other’s feelings. They both quickly move to take care of what they’ve promised to do so the time spent apart is limited.
There’s no manufactured drama involving misunderstandings or people getting in the way of their budding relationship. They both immediately like one another, a lot, so there’s no denying their attraction. The obstacles are their own. They both make superficial judgments about the other without knowing all of the facts. They both wear masks to conceal who they really are.
Bast and Pepper create their own problems and they are the only ones who can untangle their emotions and be honest with the people they love. Both need to improve themselves before they can become a "they." And since we are always the biggest obstacles to our own happiness, this story should ring true for everyone. Only when we are willing to be honest about who we are, to ourselves, can we enter healthy relationships and thrive.