This mostly autobiographical narrative has so many levels, it is difficult to rate and review.
1. Narrative level: Frustratingly unclear as far as her relationships go — two main partners, “E” and “J”, and she remains ambiguous about both of them, committing to neither. She has a child, a daughter, with “J.” “E” lives in NYC, and he takes her under his wing. They have a physical relationship which persists, even after she forms a partnership with “J,”who is in London. E is ambivalent about his sexuality. She seems very detached emotionally from her daughter.
2. The narrative is structured around etymological elements, the roots (radicals), of words in English, German, and Chinese. The words are grouped into four sections (lexicons): Encounters, Separations, Enduring, and Impermanence. The nuances of the words and meanings are the subject of musings about being a woman, a foreigner (alien), and an individual.
3. Very literary explorations of history and philosophy with regard to her own story. This aspect appears to be the most “meaty,” but I confess I opted not to take the bait, though tempted. Goethe, Tolstoy, Virginia Wolfe. Lao Tzu, and many other notories— seemingly endless pantheons of French, German, and to a lesser degree, British and Chinese authors are referenced. (I was pleased to note even the Japanese “Tale of Genjii” was referenced.)
Xiaolu Guo is alive and well, living in England, so this autobiography has no ending. We are left hanging as she makes a futile attempt to pick up the pieces of the life she left in NYC only to return to England empty handed, and, well, just empty.
I felt challenged by the author to pursue with her the literary, philosophical, and existential threads of her life in search of meaning, but I leave that exercise to an academic who is on an equal level with Xiaolu Gao.
NB: The print and Ebook versions of the book are complete with endnotes relating to the etymological, orthographic, and referential aspects of the book, which would be necessary for any exposition of the author’s ideas. These are not present in the audio version.