Incredible author writing about her experiences of America right after the Second World War. Here are the best bits:
But it’s difficult to cheat in America. The gears are precise: they serve man, provided he quietly compliant.
There. I understand what I’ve come to find, this plenitude that we really feel except in childhood or in early youth, when we’re utterly observed by something outside ourselves.
Here, says C., no one would let you die of hunger, perhaps, but offers of a dinner or a loan are alms granted grudgingly, making friendship impossible. In any case, even now that they have improved their material situation, my friends live in great isolation: there are no cafés or salons where intellectuals meet; everyone leads separate lives.
It's magical but deceptive, for can you see anything if you understand nothing?
Manhattan. The island was then called "Manhattanick," which meant, with strange prescience, "the island of drunkenness." The Indians sold it to the Dutch East India Company for sixty pieces of silver. The Dutch built New Amsterdam there, and in 1653 they built the wall from which Wall Street gets its name in order to defend the town against the claims of the English. But ten years later they ceded it to King Charles II, who made a gift of it to his brother, and in his honor, the city took the name New York.
I see clearly that the originality of their campus garb is only another kind of conformity. Jeans or mink—two uniforms. I think that American women never dress for comfort, for themselves. Their clothing is first and foremost a declaration of a certain standard of living. That's why there's no place for any personal flair that cannot be valued in dollars (save in certain artistic or intellectual circles, but even that rests on a firm foundation of silk and fur). There is only a quantitative hierarchy: the same wealth requires the same coat. A woman's social success is closely tied to how luxurious she looks; this is a terrible burden for the poor. A working girl, a secretary, is forced to spend around 25 percent of her salary on the beauty parlor and cosmetics. She would be looked down on if she came to the office in the same outfit two days in a row. To work at certain big women's magazines that require a sophisticated elegance, a woman needs a more expensive wardrobe than if she were a hostess in a Parisian nightclub. Many young women can't make the necessary outlays, and for this reason a great number of jobs are off-limits to those who need them most. When you arrive in New York, the brilliance and variety of hair and colors seem miraculous, but this miracle has its price. Another fact strikes me as significant: the standard clothing imposed on the American woman is not designed for her convenience; these women who keenly defend their independence on every occasion and so easily become aggressive toward men, nevertheless dress for men. Those high heels that paralyze their movement, those fragile feathers, those flowers in the dead of winter-all those showy things are clearly finery meant to emphasize their femininity and to attract masculine looks.
You have to understand, he explains to me that there isn’t a minute in a black persons life that isn’t penetrated by social consciousness.
dancing, praying, he can never forget that he is black, and
That makes him conscious every minute of the whole white world
from which the word "black" takes its meaning. Whatever he does, a
black man is "committed." There is no black writer who can avoid
the problem of commitment. It is resolved in advance.
When you feel dysfunctional, you're tempted to question the rest of the world. This revolutionary attitude is dangerous to the society it threatens and agonizing for the individual who finds himself facing decisions, risks, and responsibilities. It is accepted a priori that it's your dysfunction that's at fault, and you're only too happy to consider your muddle an illness as curable as a head cold. The questions you pose and your doubts and anguish are denied any inner truth: they are considered a given reality that must be studied scientifically. You are not a subject debating with yourself in a singular drama but an objectively defined case.
Every individual is a case, a universal singularity. The individual most notable for his extravagances, his eccentricities, for the affirmation of his individuality is called a "character," and again, this is a general category in which one's personal and singular freedoms are denied. The case is expressed by the "problem." Every American citizen has a problem, just as he has civil status. If he is normal and well informed, he knows how to define himself in terms that already indicate the solution. If he is less well informed, he defines the problem and demands a solution from competent people. And it is precisely these problems, accompanied by their solutions, that the radio and the press broadcast. If the subject is too muddled, he goes to the psychoanalyst to restore his equilibrium. Psychoanalysis is a vast enterprise of social recuperation; its sole aim is to permit each citizen to take his useful place in society. At this moment, there is a whole category of individuals they are actively trying to help the GIs back from Europe or the Pacific, whose experience abroad has been unsettling.
D. P. [Denise Perner], whose job is to test patients with psychological problems, tells me that many of the patients are veterans. It's easy to understand why, after breathing American optimism throughout their youth and living in a country that denies the existence of evil, these young men were overwhelmed by a sudden confrontation with the world at war, and their experience doesn't fit the system into which they must now reintegrate themselves.
But trust is ambiguous: is it generosity or hypocrisy?
If Americans have so little sense of nuances, it isn't that they're incapable of grasping them after all, American reality itself is sufficiently nuanced —but that they would be troubled by them. To accept nuances is to accept ambiguity of judg-ment, argument, and hesitation; such complex situations force you to think. They want to lead their lives by geometry, not by wisdom.
Geometry is taught, whereas wisdom is discovered, and only the first offers the refreshing certainties that a conscientious person needs. So they choose to believe in a geometric world where every right angle is set against another, like their buildings and their streets.
At Macon the students have sworn not to drink alcohol, no matter where they go. They explain to me proudly that college life depends in great part on the honor system. They take their final exams without surveillance, on their honor. On the whole, the honor system plays a large role in America.
I dine at the Maison Française with the students, and after my lecture they take me for a drink—a glass of milk. Oberlin is "dry," like most college and university towns.
What is most striking to me, and most discouraging, is that they are so apathetic while being neither blind nor unconscious. They know and deplore the oppression of thirteen million blacks, the terrible poverty of the South, the almost equally desperate poverty that pollutes the big cities. They witness the rise, more ominous every day, of racism and reactionary attitudes-the birth of a kind of fascism.
They know that their country is responsible for the world's future.
But they themselves don't feel responsible for anything, because they don't think they can do anything in this world. At the age of twenty, they are convinced that their thought is futile, their good intentions ineffective: "America is too vast and heavy a body for one individual to move it." And this evening I formulate what I've been thinking for days. In America, the individual is nothing. He is made into an abstract object of worship; by persuading him of his individual value, one stifles the awakening of a collective spirit in him. But reduced to
himself in this way, he is robbed of any concrete power.
And if French cooking is "thoughtful," as Colette says, this cuisine seems the fruit of a thousand years of meditation.
But music escapes the limitations of time and space. It can capture something out of thin air and give it to me.
It's here, they say, that the Robin Hood of New Mexico, Billy the Kid, the most famous outlaw, lived. Born in New York in 1850, he was twelve years old when he killed a man in New Mexico who had insulted his mother. He went to Arizona, then to Mexico and Texas, took part in the Lincoln County cattle war on the side of the Murphy faction, was taken prisoner, escaped his jailers in a sensational breakout, and then, while paying a visit to his sweetheart in Fort Sumner, was killed in the night by Sheriff Pat Garrett.
Legend has made him a hero who killed twenty-one men in twenty-one years, who distributed the property of the rich to the poor, avenged injustice, and with a price on his head, danced gaily in Gallisteo Street in Santa Fe.
The surest way to succeed is to convince oneself that the inequality between blacks and whites is not created by human will but merely confirms a given fact. It is asserted that certain racial characteristics exist that give blacks a lower rank than whites on the biological scale. But it is noteworthy that the idea of "race" in the scientific sense is never applied precisely to "racial" questions. Initially of African origin, American blacks are a highly mixed group. More than 70 percent of them have white blood, and about 20 percent have Indian blood. A black person in the U.S.A. is an individual with a percentage, however small, of black blood in his veins. That's why sociologists use the word "caste" rather than "race" to designate this category of cit-zens. Usually, certain specific physiological features distinguish blacks from whites. That's clear. But that these features imply inferiority is an unfounded assumption. The cranial capacity of blacks is a little smaller than that of whites, but science has established no connection between cranial capacity and mental capacity. The current prejudice about the supposedly gigantic size of blacks' genital organs— a sign of their bestiality—is absolutely contradicted by precise statistics. As for the "goatish" odor of black people, whites who were asked to identify sweat samples taken from black bodies and white bodies admitted that they were incapable of distinguishing between the two.
We walk along the wharves where, among the narrow docks smelling of tar, the Boston Tea Party took place. The Revolutionary War began when Bostonians, rebelling against taxes, threw a whole cargo of English tea into the water. The wharves are made of wood and lined with dilapidated houses.
"Sure, war is a despicable thing, but if we don't wage war today, who can guarantee that Russia won't wage war when it is even stronger?"
"This country is like an enormous whale. It has a tiny brain—that's the East-and an endless body." The tiny brain doesn't feel capable of commanding the crushing mass of flesh. For many reasons, a tradition of intellectual defeatism has been established in this world, so new and yet already so old.
Through a lack of participation in society, these young people do not harbor any bold individual ambitions-first, because the one hardly ever happens without the other. To dream of making one's way in the world requires that the world be open, unstable, malleable.
"Americans are just big children." Their tragedy is precisely that they are not children, that they have adult responsibilities, an adult existence, but they continue to cling to a ready-made, opaque uni-verse, like that of childhood. Conversely, American children are already little men: in one sense, childhood in this country is a golden age, yet at the same time it is hardly childhood—instead, it's an adult life on a smaller scale. And because the childhood world and the adult world are homogeneous, youth is not a privileged time; the individual doesn't question himself, form himself, or choose himself any more during this time than another. This has many consequences, and I shall return to them later. Today, I wanted only to talk about youth.
The impression I'm left with might be summed up this way: whereas in Europe every adolescent begins the world anew—whether in revolt, pride, eagerness, or fear, whether timidly or impetuously in America he simply fills the space assigned to him in a world that's external to him, a world that doesn't owe its existence to him. He spends his youth staying put, never knowing that it is man who is the measure of things, and not things that a priori impose limits on him.
Perhaps the reason Americans remain so young until an advanced age is that they have never really been young.
Perhaps their clumsiness in handling the American language helps them renounce their singularity and slip into the slots society has prepared for them. Contrary to what most people say, I Find it easier to speak than to understand. When I speak, I choose the words myself, and I use only the ones I know.
Throughout history, there have been moments when action has been possible. Lenin is an example of this. But today, the objective situation allows no effective individual intervention in France, or in America either. The will to action is now just a subjective attitude, a maladjusted attitude that begs to be psychoanalyzed— especially among intellectuals, given that, for the moment, they have no role to play. It's also noteworthy, he says, that the heroes of a Hemingway, like those of a Koestler, always define themselves as outsiders. In For Whom the Bell Tolls, Jordan doesn't even know exactly why he's on the side of the Spanish Reds. Similarly, in Spanish Testament, Koestler is merely a journalist, a witness. He describes the drama of Palestine from the outside, not being a Zionist himself.
the French writer easily produces eddies and whirlwinds around him, and these results encourage him in an action that may be illusory, whereas the American does not disturb the frozen immutability he finds outside him.
Rather than speaking in the desert, he keeps quiet or confines himself to whispering confidences to a small circle of friends.
The majority of Americans are like those I've rubbed shoulders with —they're content to let their lives go round in the same circle. They have neither the taste nor the understanding for collective life; nor are they concerned about their individual fates. This is the source of the sadness I've often felt around them; this world that's full of generous promise is crushing them, and its splendor soon seems sterile because there are no men to dominate it. All civilizations offer men an escape into "the banality of daily life,” but what is unique here is the degree to which this escape is systematically organized. Neither a person's education nor the setting in which he's raised is designed to reveal his inner life to him. He becomes conscious of himself not only as a body of flesh and blood but also as an organism that is protected and extended by an arsenal of mechanical devices. He goes up and down from one floor to the other by elevator; he travels around by subway, speaks on the telephone, writes on a typewriter, sweeps up with a vacuum cleaner. Interposed between food and his stomach are factories that make canned goods, refrigerators, and electric stoves. Between his sexual desires and their satisfaction, there is a whole set of moral precepts and hygienic practices.
Society hems him in from childhood. He learns to look outside him-self, at others, for a model of behavior; this is the source of what we call "American conformism."
Listening to their jazz, talking with them about it, I often felt that even the time they're living in is abstract. They respect the past, but as an embalmed monument; the idea of a living past integrated with the present is alien to them. They want to know only a present that's cut off from the flow of time, and the future they project is one that can be mechanically deduced from it, not one whose slow ripening or abrupt explosion implies unpredictable risks. They believe in the future of a bridge or an economic plan, not the future of an art or a revolution. Their time is the "physicist's time," a pure exteriority that mirrors the exteriority of space. And because they reject duration, they also reject quality. It's not just for economic reasons that there is no "craftsmanship" in America; even in the leisure activities of domestic life, they don't aim for superior quality: food is cooked and fruit is ripened as quickly as possible. In every area they rush for fear that the result will already be outdated the moment it's achieved. Cut off from the past and the future, the present has no thickness.