**I was sent this ARC in exchange for my honest review**
⭐️⭐️/5
First and foremost, the author has said that this will be a duology with an eventual HEA. The series pair is marked as YA romance, but I want to preface this all by saying that book 1 is not a romance. Book 2 will hopefully be one, and we end off on a hopeful yet abrupt cliffhanger leading to that eventuality, but book 1 is a book about grief and loss after a major breakup.
COVID greatly effected a LOT of relationships negatively, not to mention ruined a LOT of weddings. The world went through a shared trauma and everyone learned quite a few things about themselves and their loved ones. We get a deep dive into Elodie's grief over her lost love, her lost wedding, and the general loss of the person who she initially fell in love with as they both changed throughout the pandemic. This will be a relatable, if not difficult, read for anyone who went through something similar during that time. We get a close look at so many sides to her grief and it is definitely a raw emotional place to be. If any of that sounds triggering to you, this is not the book for you.
The thing that became clear to me as I read was that Elodie has been living in the stages of grief where she can't see past the hurt. Her every thought, her every action, her every feeling is somehow tied to this old relationship and how it ended and what it could have been. This leads to her being in a place, emotionally, where she can't genuinely be happy for herself or anyone else. Her interactions with friends and family make them all come off as being insensitive or shallow, but in a lot of cases she's in fact the one that is so far gone in her own issues that she can't see the forest for the trees. Some of their interactions do in fact sound insensitive, (eg. Elodie is helping her sister to plan her wedding even though she had to give up her own), but most of the animosity otherwise stems from Elodie herself.
These are people who care about her. She just needs to get to a place where she is less angry / judgey / ready to lash out and instead get ready to accept a helping hand to get out of her rut of sadness.
Through the first 75% of the book we are swapping between present day sad/depressed Elodie and flashback memories of her relationship with Grayson, leading up to the eventual breakup. (Side note, we literally spent 75% of the book talking about the ex. we are supposed to be leaving him in the rear view mirror right?) In the last 25% we finally start to spend some time with Beckett, the high school sweetheart who left her heartbroken. While we spend most of this book examining the scars left by Elodie's relationship with Grayson, in the last part we also examine the ones left long ago by Beckett. This book is about Elodie's journey to finally find the strength and courage to let both of those scars heal enough to actually find happiness again.
Overall this was a raw and intense look inside the reality of so many relationships during the pandemic. Canceled weddings, numerous lockdowns, and general health scares are a lot of stress to put on a couple. Going back to that time, even as someone who didn't have a major breakup during COVID, was intense and at times unpleasant to recall. The author does a good job of diving into those uncomfortable emotions, so kudos for having the guts to go there. However, the thing that really docked the stars from the rating for me was that this was marketed as a small town / second-chance ROMANCE. I don't think I've ever had a book that was sold as a romance... only to have to wait until book 2 for the actual romance to start. We get the foundations, the backstory, and the first hints of potential. But the actual romance part will literally all be in book 2.
My final verdict / feeling is that this was a relatively short book (218 pages) and that by breaking up the story into two parts, book 1 ended up just feeling like the prequel / introduction to the real love story. At this point I've invested the time and I want to see if Elodie and Beckett can actually reach that HEA, so I'll probably be reading book 2. But in the end, the duology should probably just be combined into one book. The first part of the story was a bit too steeped in Elodie's sadness, and also her readiness to blame everyone else for her problems instead of addressing her own grief head on. Hopefully book 2 can show us a new side of Elodie, add a bit of love into her life, and redeem the overall storyline for me.