My mother always reminded me that it didn’t make a lick of a difference whether you were raised in a barn or an impeccably decorated estate. It’s what goes on inside those walls that’s important.
Dressed to the nines, Christ was even mod attractive than I recalled. Rich chestnut brown hair cascades down her slim waist. Her busy hugging oatmeal cashmere sweater accentuated her curves. Long legs and beige Manolo Blahnik heels made her even taller. Perfect posture and matching diction added yo to the idea fundraising package. It was hard to believe she was a mother of two teenage children.
When Thad and I accumulated enough money, we gave back. We wrote checks to causes we believed in. It wasn’t just check-writing that mattered, either. It’s great to volunteer. I spent countless hours at the veterans administration hospital talking to vets. Her eyes sparkled and she beamed with pride.
Our commitment to philanthropy stemmed from our deep Christian father. We’re all one in spirit. One god. No matter what we have been given, it’s not really ours. We’re here simply to be good stewards of our fortune. That’s what we do — serve, either with money or by doing. How lucky for me that j get to do both.
Compared to all of marks angst and stress, JJ seemed light and airy, despite the fact that he was an extremely sophisticated, complex man. Just the thought of him was intoxicating.
A new hours later marks arms em eloped me. K felt his warmth through my silk nightgown, which he slipped over my head. He kissed me on the mouth, and then all over. Our lovemaking lasted a long time. Make-up sex without talking was a good way to end the disconnect of our non-conversation. I knew it wouldn’t make any of our real issues disappear, but it was a welcome reprieve.
He’s afraid he’s not being a good provider. Many men feel a sense of responsibility to protect and provide for those they love. This would include taking care of their wives financially regardless of whether she earns plenty.
Yes. I always thought he would take care of me. I know I’m perfectly capable of supporting myself but that’s not the point. Part of my attraction to mark was how driven and ambitious he was. He always made me feel safe. I lived that about him. Am I less of a modern woman?
Absolutely not. Wanting the comfort of knowing you’re taken care of is perfectly reasonable.
I don’t want you to think you’re alone. It’s not easy stuff like this goes on all the time your feelings are totally normal to have captured the heart of such a charismatic man is a beautiful thing in spite of it all I’m not saying you should act on it you know how I feel about Mark. He’s rare he loves and adores you Marriage isn’t perfect. You know that from what I know yours is a special one and he’s a keeper. You need to look closer at what you do have and then figure out what you want. Do what’s right for you. That’s what matters. It’s your decision but make sure you’re being sensible either way you should be flattered. Just don’t do anything rash promise me you’ll stay calm and do not tell any of this to Mark.
Elise was right how wonderful and thrilling to have the intentions of a passionate man like JJ and perhaps that should be enough. an exciting memory to hold onto.
It’s plain and simple you were looking for something that’s missing these things. Don’t just happen. It doesn’t work that way. See this as a sign post. Maybe you’re feeling lonely. After all Mark does travel a fair amount and has an extraordinary amount of pressure from his big firm practice, he’s constantly being pulled by work . You’ve also thrown yourself into your work like nobody’s business. Your career often serves as an escape in the independence it affords makes it worth it. Let’s face it. Money is power but that doesn’t mean you get the luxury of ignoring the other parts of your life. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Just don’t expect this guy to feel the empty space you may feel unless that’s what you want if you’re looking for love or to feel valued like most women whether they admitted or not you can find that start at home. I’m not casting judgment, but you need to seriously think this throw is it really right for you? What about you and Mark? You crave stability. Your heads in the sand. Mark’s head is up his ass too or you wouldn’t be feeling this way. Focus on the two of you. You’re in your marriage completely by choice not because of your history, family or money and image. You could easily support yourself if you wanted to.
Very profound speech, Mark said I hadn’t expected a compliment from him. I’d finally stopped spreading over what he didn’t say because he showed his love through what he did for me not by what he said my sense of feeling emotionally disconnected misunderstood, or resenting his lack of attention had vanished Mark‘s willingness to listen to me chatter away about anything was priceless and when he didn’t speak, he must have a good reason or when he didn’t indulge me with flattery the way JJ did. I was perfectly fine a silent rule evolved between us one that guaranteed I wouldn’t push him to be more effusive. I knew that he went above and beyond for me every day and I was grateful he was mine, and I was his the cement that found us was true love.
I was afraid that seeing JJ might stir up old feelings as I rehashed our lunch dates and walks together. I reminded myself that those were the fun times, but in an effort not to feel vulnerable I also remembered that this wasn’t the full scope of what a relationship really was.
I knew it was fine to hold a special place in my heart for JJ. He was a spectacular man on so many levels. I would always be grateful for the role. He played in my life and most of all how he opened my eyes to what was truly important to me and what I valued most. I finally understood what a lease meant when she said that it was a beautiful thing that a very special man had loved me. I wanted Mark to love me that way and I discovered that he did Mark and I had managed to find our way back to each other. the craving for a connection with JJ along with all the ambiguity and emotional turbulence was gone that was because I treasured Mark in our marriage. Never again would I take for granted the incredible life that we had built together.