In many ways a typical actor autobiography, Hawthorne wrote this in his final months of life before he died of cancer in 2001 aged 72. He had a very interesting path to success - working as a jobbing actor, often penniless, in London and Cape Town for two decades, bumping into all sorts of people. His personal life was unusual: a gay man when homosexuality was still illegal, he lived with a gay friend in a non sexual relationship for 25 years before finally finding true love in his 40s with his partner Trevor. He was devastated to be outed after his Oscar nomination for The Madness of King George in 1995, and he waited for the outcry and revulsion.... which never came. A very private, very English man, and not always as likeable as his characters would suggest.