2 ⭐️ Sadly this wasn't for me
"All I've ever wanted is for you to hate me. I couldn't hate you if I wanted to. I wish I could, but I can't."
WHAT TO EXPECT:
✨ childhood pain in the ass
✨ she’s a photojournalist prone to act first and think later
✨ he’s owns a hedge fund who's a control freak
✨ both MCs keep people they love at a distance
✨ enemies to lovers
✨ opposites attract
✨ age gap (27/33)
✨ banter
✨ 3/5🌶️ spice
✨ virgin, demisexual FMC
✨ sexually experienced MMC
✨ no third-act breakup
✨ ADHD rep
✨ chronic migraines
✨ TW: death of parents (past)
My Thoughts:
There's things I liked but also found extremely annoying. I just don't think it was for me.
What I liked:
- The childhood rivals to lovers romance. I LOVE this trope because there's years of irritation that easily becomes hate-fueled sexual tension.
- The ADHD and demisexual representation. I don't see either represented enough in romance so it was really great getting this rep here.
- I liked the character growth of both Kate and Christopher. By the end of the story, these two open up to each other and work past their fear of getting attached.
What I didn't like:
- The fact that Kate's family never found how Christopher talked and treated Kate to be problematic until Kate confesses it to her sister. How did they not see how damaging it was? Christopher was the older one and they should have never allowed this dynamic to form in the first place. It was very toxic.
- Sometimes the inner dialogue was redundant so I ended up skimming some parts.
- Kate is just such a hot freaking mess. Like, in the real world I don't know how she would have survived. It all seemed a bit unrealistic but it happened to 'work' for her characters because she's the MC. But then, I'm also annoyed that she only starts to get her shit together and find her place in the world when she's with Christopher.
- Christopher is THAT romance hero who's way too good looking and well aware of it and has sex any time he can but doesn't get attached because he doesn't want to get too close to anyone. He's 'perfect' and I found his awareness of his looks and charms annoying. But what really pissed me off is how he basically says that he fucked a whole bunch of people and has been horribly rude to Kate because he was afraid of liking her. This is the epitome of 'oh, honey, that boy is mean to you so he must like you'. I just feel like these actions were incredibly toxic to himself but also to Kate as a byproduct. So unhealthy. He does say he's seeing a therapist at the end of the book but it's not because of that but because he can't handle whenever Kate leaves him so he works with the therapist to get comfortable to travel with her. Like, dude, you need therapy to work through your other issues too.
- I'm so tired of stories where the MC confesses he's been banging a ton of women in an attempt to get his mind off the FMC. I mean, go ahead and do you, but it's gross when Christopher basically blames his philandering because he couldn't be with Kate. Fuck off.
- It was weird that Christopher kept having these inner thoughts of Kate as a little girl. I get that they grew up together, so I would imagine he would, at some point, reflect on their past. But I did not need to be reminded of it constantly, nor did the reminiscing come off as endearing. He's 6 years older and was around when she was born. When his parents died, he basically became part of their family. But unlike Kate's two older sisters who he saw as his sisters, he never did with Kate. In fact, he saw her as an annoying brat he never wanted to engage with. But then when she turned 18 years old, he magically saw her in another way. Idk it all just seemed a bit strange.
- The sexual interactions and some of the intimate dialogue was so unrealistic. First off, Kate has 10 orgasms the night she loses her virginity. Yeah, let's just sit with that. Then, Christopher get's extremely fluffy and lovey dovey so fast. It's all so farfetched that I couldn't remotely believe it.
Thank you Netgalley for providing an eARC and Berkley Romance for providing a free physical copy in exchange for an honest review! As always, all opinions are my own.