Smart, humourous, charming, and tender novel about identity, immigration, exile, and integration into France told through via the author's childhood and her fight to take back her name. The author tells her story of a childhood split between two languages, two cultures, and two names.
Born Polina in the USSR, the author immigrated to France during preschool where she becomes Pauline. One simple switch of a syllable, but one that makes all the difference to a young girl growing up in a country where she doesn't speak yet the language or understand the culture.
During her naturalization, her parents formally asked the French government to officially françaisé Polina's name to Pauline. This is a step many immigrants in France can request in order to "facilitate their integration into French society." Polina questions her identity through her languages and also through her name. In fact, she would like to be called Polina officially instead of Pauline, thus embarking on a journey as an adult through the French bureaucracy to formally change her name back to Polina.
"Le russe à l'intérieure, le français à l'extérieur... Quand on sort, on met son français. Quand on rentre à la maison on l'enlève. On peut même commencer à se déshabiller dans l'ascenseur. Sauf s'il y a des voisins. S'il y a des voisins on attend. Bonjour. Bonjour. Quel étage? Bon appétit." // "Russian inside and French outside. When we go out, we put on our French. When we come home, we take it off. We can even start taking it off in the elevator. Except when there are neighbors. If they are neighbors, we wait. Bonjour, Bonjour. Quel étage? Bon appétit."
I found this short novel to be very refreshing, it tackled some common themes in a new way. I especially enjoyed the chapters from the childhood point of view, where Polina captures the voice of a child who is both lost and curious in the world of adults. As an immigrant in France, her bureaucratic situation (while different than my own for sure) is also relatable. The title "hold your tongue" is clever too.